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Hetalia fanfic links: PruCan

2010-11-30T11:48:00.003-05:00

note: pretty much exclusively smut

There's a Voice... ...That Keeps on Calling Me : Established relationship sex. finished

Apfel : Rape fantasy in semi-public place, consensual. finished

The Merits of Imagination : Prussia loves twincest. Secret obessive Prussia mind-fapping over seeing America and Canada together, while America and Canada notice and use his fetish to their advantage. unfinished

Seizure : Years of training had taught Prussia very specifically in the art of recognizing good land, and then taking it for himself. Canada's was particularly nice, and as such there was no reason not to claim it. An attempt at a PruCan without fluff. finished

The Invasion Domestic : A century ago, if someone had told Gilbert that he would one day be spending most of his time halfway across the planet playing domestic with a peaceful nation, he would have laughed in their face—and then invaded their vital regions for good measure. finished

Three and a half nations : PruCan + GerAm. Because hot brothers...and hot brothers...being hot together? DO WANT. finished

Conference Complications : Just the lightest of touches to Canada's knee, and suddenly the entire meeting is completely ruined. Smexings in a broom, ahem, Utility closet. Who could ask for more? finished

The Holiday Gift : Why, oh why was he given that of all presents in the world! Someone was doing that on purpose! Sometimes life is just so frustrating when you're Gilbert. finished

Memory My Canadian Savior : The PruCan companion to Aftermath. After the fall of the Berlin Wall, Prussia is a mental and physical mess but seems to respond well to a blonde Canadian. From past to current, Prussia and Canada's gradual relationship change over time. finished

Tease : Prussia has had enough of Matthew's teasing and now he's going to act on it. finished

Whiplash : "Just remember, I own a Rottweiler, a variety of machine guns, and the blueprints to your house. I would be extremely careful in anything you tried to pull off." PruCan two-shot with protective America. finished

À l’Inverse : Everyone, including himself, knew that he hated being alone. He knew it, but he never admitted to it. A nice night in town might just lead him to make a new interesting acquaintance who could give him the time of his life. finished

Just a Little Business : Dominant Matthew and submissive Gilbert~ Would love if their relationship is something along the lines of Master!Matthew and Pet!Gilbert. finished

Long Love : Prussia taking it deep and LOVING LOVING /LOVING/ it! Inspired by "Long Love" from the Young Frankenstein musical. finished

Happy Birthday, Canada! : Gilbert had come to the conclusion that Matthew was an absolute bore. Unfortunately, far from being irritated by this, Matthew had agreed with his statement. So this birthday, Gilbert had decided to change up Matthew’s routine... Prussia/Canada/Netherlands. finished

Untitled : Prussia gives Canada a lap dance, and lands himself in a position he would normally not consider to be awesome. (Hot sex ensues, of course.) finished

Have No Fear Cuz Ecstasy Is Here... Or Something Like It : Prussia is getting all kinds of excited from watching Canada dance at a club. Imagine just how excited he gets when he manages to seduce the Canadian elsewhere. fail sex. finished

Control : Things were almost comfortable between them - pancake breakfasts and nights watching TV - until Gilbert asks where Matthew's badass side went. Matt demonstrates that his badass side isn't gone, and things get a different kind of comfortable. finished

Offer From the Neglected : Once Canada got over the confusion of hearing such an offer from someone he'd never really spoken to, it actually made a lot of sense. finished

Sticky : This anon recently became a huge shipper Prussia x Canada shipper. Prussia gets turned on seeing Canada eating maple syrup and they quickly get a room. And... Prussia using maple syrup. You get the idea. And in the end, some fluff, please~ finished

Winning : "[...] That night, Canada dreamed of that viper-like body twined with his out in the storm, of getting fucked hard into the stinging grass and mud, of hearing that odd mixture of pleased laugh-and-snarl, of licking the blood off of Prussia’s face and letting his blood-slicked hands slide down his naked torso." unfinished

Hetalia fanfic links: Melkay's stories

2010-11-22T21:10:00.003-05:00

Possibly my most favorite Hetalia writer ever. And she's also super nice and friendly and awesome. GR is definitely my absolute favorite fanfic ever forever, and probably half the meme agrees. I wish I could draw people from my head, because then I'd draw her fanart.

Wired Differently : [Prompt: Canada/America and a sex machine.] In which America is hopelessly and awkwardly in love, stress threatens to give Canada ulcers, and porn gives them the answer they're looking for. finished

Over the Line : [Prompt: possessive!Canada, geography kink] Canada trusts America. It's the rest of the world that can't keep their hands to themselves. finished

A Place in the World : [Drabble] When you want to get away from the world, sometimes the best place to go is the place you go together. finished

World Jeopardy: Dues Ex Machina : [prompt was for SNL's World Jeopardy, Hetalia-style] In which Austria wants to kill someone (possibly himself), England is a raging drunk parody, France likes butts, and America likes... something. But not everything ~~like nightgowns~~. finished

The Great Elevator Massacre of 2010 : In which the major superpowers of the world get into an elevator… and never get off. And no, that is not a euphemism. finished

The House We Built : [Deanon from Hetalia Kink Meme, the Haskell House Opera House and Library with Canada topping.] Canada and America visit an old friend: the one place they literally have no boundaries. finished

Love in Seasons : [Ficlet] The story of how Canada did not fall in love with America, told in glimpses and not-truths and the inevitable. finished

Assorted other deanons : also, her Hetalia fic tag

General Relativity 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 & 5 : student!Matthew/professor!Alfred. prompt for student/teacher sex, turned into an amazing love story. I think I will cry when this ends. finished

Operation: Bridge the Border 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 : Turns out, Tony and Kumajirou share an OTP -- Canada/America! (in that order) The two of them decide to work together to get the two dumb blonds hooked up properly. ongoing

Mongoose 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 : Russia is hired to grab Arthur Kirkland's son and return him to insert-nation-here to be held for ransom. So he makes the grab and quickly realizes he's gotten more then he bargains for with the foul-mouthed brat he ends up with who fights him every step of the way and is just asking to be shot. ongoing

Hetalia fanfic links: Italies

2010-11-21T22:30:00.002-05:00

Two Ways About It : THE YEAR IS 2005 "Eeeh... hey, Romano -" "Minimum three free meals and a nap with pasta." Spain takes Romano up on his bargain. Wedding hijinks ensue! finished

Just fuck me : Germany fucks Italy raw and senseless. No fluff, no plot, just smut. finished

Can I Join? : The two brothers are going at it somewhere in their house, when Antonio decides to drop by for a visit and barge in unannounced. He catches them in the midst of foreplay, and after getting over his shock, is immensely turned on and urges them to let him join. finished

Toccarmi, fratello : The Italies get their curls tangled, and proceed with frottage. finished

Seeing Red : S. Italy is aroused by Spain's matador outfit. finished

Because He Would : Never, ever click any link that Prussia sends you, especially if he's offering to "help you out." It may lead to this. (demon Rickroll) finished

And It's Supposed to be the Day of Love : Lovina finally agrees to go the Valentine's Dance with Antonio. But not because she likes him or anything!... Gen-flip and Gakuen AU. (plus other genflip AU stories by the same author) finished

Fuoco Infernale : Lovino Vargas goes to a church camp, meets a new friend, and learns a little bit about himself. finished

Hetalia fanfic links: Groups/Multiple Nations

2010-11-19T19:08:00.005-05:00

The Dead Zone : America decides that the nations need to do some bonding so he makes them all (using blackmail mostly) play paintball. sorta finished

Twilight, Eh : Cracktastic retelling of the Twilight saga with Canada as Bella and France as Edward. finished

Hetaliaspotting/Reqiuem for a Nation : DRUGS ARE BAD, MMKAY? I want the hard stuff, anon. (No weed, Canada...) I want it dark nasty gritty AND sparkly trippy crazy. multiple fills. finished

Like, Totally Manry : America, Canada and Poland have a girly sleepover. finished

Ignorance, My Bliss 1 & 2 & 3 : I want the nations to have some sort of secret (no, it has to be something other than the fact that they're nations). All of the nations know about this secret, but its never mentioned (at least not in public or in the meetings), merely mutally understood. That is, all but one nation. rather dark. finished

Jekaro : writer of several high school AUs

Degrassitalia : The Hetalia cast in the setting of Gakuen Hetalia with various "issues": America is bulimic and obsessed to look like a "hero", Sealand (or Austria) cuts themselves to take the edge off, Latvia is a heavy drinker, UK rips out his hair, South Italy has weight problems due to eating out of comfort, etc. various fills. finished

Buttsex: The Musical : America comes up with a cliche game to fill the time. Who will last in an hour of extreme sexual awkwardness?! finished

kinky drabbles : Drabbles inspired by this list of kinks. various pairings, various fills. finished

The Secret Lives of Nations : Anon's head-canon dictates that Nations, while not occupied with official duties of state-running, boss-dodging, and international relations of the bedding sort, have their own lives that they indulge in either in the mockery of or in sincere envy of humanity. various fills. finished

Margins : An AU where Nation-tans are even more bound to their countries. That is, they can't physically leave their homelands. finished

Hockey is a Serious Sport : Nations get drunk, play naked hockey. finished

Look At This Fucking Fill : College AU with Nations as hipsters. ongoing

Sanguinary Blue : Supernatural AU, inspired by epic movie trailer music. unfinished

A Soft Reboot : [first 3 chapters] Once every couple centuries, the nations inexplicably disappear and are reborn as humans. But the memories and nationhood gradually return and they have funny ways of getting back to each other. ongoing

A Sky to Hold Them : Fusion with Katekyo Hitman Reborn! ongoing

Inglourious Muddbloods : Starring Arthur the Apache. Hetalia/Harry Potter/Inglourious Basterds crossover-fusion of win. ongoing

Carnations; Rosa; Lilies, Leaves and Weeds 1 & 2 : A world where everyone (Nation and human) identifies as dom or sub. Carnations: Spain/Romano. Rosa: USUK. Lilies, Leaves and Weeds: Canada/Prussia/France. LLW ongoing

Five Stops on the World Tour of Martha Jones : YtNW. People Martha meets on her journey around the world. finished

Hetalia fanfic links: France and X

2010-11-13T23:23:00.003-05:00

Franada

Lessons : France teaches Canada bedroom arts, and the ways Canada uses them in, ahem, "negotiations" with other countries afterwards. unfinished

Pulse : Matt has no idea why he keeps going to his brother’s parties, but sometimes the reasons and proof one seeks out aren’t in plain sight. finished

Indigo : Francis misplaces his shirt, and when he goes looking for it, finds something rather unexpected. finished

Sensibility : When Francis agreed to teach Matt the art of seduction, he didn’t plan to have his own lessons used against him. finished

Une Nuit dans Canada : France takes Canada's virginity. And films it. finished

[untitled] : Canadian French turns France on. France is talking to Canada and trying to hide his boner. Whether France then proceeds to jump Canada's bones or he runs home to masturbate, this anon just wants France getting hopelessly aroused by Canada's dialect. finished

Fierce : France decides to take Canada shopping. Hesitantly, Canada agrees. He allows France to pick out all manners of odd clothing for him, until France finds a pair of very tight pants. Canada blatantly refuses the pants, much to France's chagrin. When asked why, Canada insists that he will not fit, even though they look like they are the right size. Because his dick's too big. finished

le loup et le lapin : Okay, sorry to add to the madness but OP would give her right arm to see Francis Bonnefoy, French revolutionary, being wrongly accused of being an atristo supporter. Chaos ensues and M. Bonnefoy finds himself in England falling in love with, of all people, Matthew Williams, the son of a very rich aristocrat. Realistic fill. finished

12 pomegranate seeds : Okay, sorry to add to the madness but OP would give her right arm to see Francis Bonnefoy, French revolutionary, being wrongly accused of being an atristo supporter. Chaos ensues and M. Bonnefoy finds himself in England falling in love with, of all people, Matthew Williams, the son of a very rich aristocrat. Fantasy fill. finished

Wit of a Staircase 1 & 2 & 3 : Matthew in highschool alternate universe. The brunt of being a loner. The hardships of a social outcast....... and having a major crush on 11th grader Francis. semi-ongoing

FrUK

Honest when drunk : England being fucked senseless... by France. finished

Lavender : detailed sex. finished

You Can't Refuse a Frenchman Forever : England and France are relatively happy as a couple. But as of late, England has been brushing aside France's attempts at seduction with lame excuses. France becomes sexually frustrated. However his feelings for England ~~and his pride~~ won't allow him to be unfaithful. His solution...beg England to fuck him. finished

Pour le Plaisir : "Perhaps, England thinks as France’s hand nudges his thighs apart, knee settling between them and rubbing against his cock, this would be the time to say no." fisting. finished

Closer and Glow : 2 fills for UK/France, animalistic sex. finished

Sign A New Agreement With iTunes : Arthur and Francis have been roommates ever since their college years. They're vitriolic best buds, (though half the time they seem like frenimies) but they're always there for each other, through heartbreak and crazy exs and everything in-between. One day it dawns on them that they've basically been together all this whole time and were just too busy dating other people/in denial to realize it. finished

Le Temps Des Cerises : France - fem!France, if it's easier - and the Folies Bergère, specifically its costumes. Pairings entirely up to anon, but military!England would be very appreciated welcome. unfinished

Rose of Gaul : In which France has a rose for a penis and England is just drunk enough to deal with it. finished

Hetalia fanfic links: FACE variations

2010-11-13T15:27:00.004-05:00

What the Heart Forgets : What Arthur lost when he sacrificed himself to save the people beneath the Nations, and what he gained in return. Begins FrUK, becomes family. finished?

A Certain Satisfaction 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 : It is said that if you look in the right parts of London, you’ll find a house with a forest-green door – and if you ask the man there the right way, he’ll take you in and make your dreams reality. BDSM foursome. finished

SPOILER: He's not an only child 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 & 5 & 6: Parent trap. This anon would like to see Canada and America as the twins trying to get their parents back together, and England and France as the lovingly divorced parents. And then the rest of the cast is up to you. semi-ongoing

Not One Word : America must keep silent during sex, letting Canada be heard. foursome. finished

Good Things Come in Threes : Not really sure how to put this, except England tied up and blindfolded with France, America and Canada having their wicked way with him. They all very much enjoy it. foursome. finished

Family Night : Family time is for getting closer with your family... NO FRANCE NOT THAT CLOSE! foursome. finished

Eiffel Tower : America -> England <- France, voyeur Canada. "A sexual act that requires two guys, one chick, and one other unfortunate soul. The chick bends over and one guy takes her from behind, while the other puts it in her mouth and then the two guys give a high five (or high ten), giving the illusion of the Eiffel Tower. The unfortunate soul is there to take the picture. No one will believe you if you don't have the proof." finished

The Screeching Bitches 1 & 2 : Alfred is in a band with Arthur and Francis. Recently they lost their drummer in the Incident and now they need a new one. Francis drags his ex-military cousin from Quebec, Mattieu in for a session and the poor guy is basically strong armed into joining. Alfred and Mattie settle into something of a love/hate kind of friendship, but eventually it stirs up into something a little hotter and a lot deeper. Mattie has PTSD, is an autodidact, is writing as he lives/wastes his life away on Francis's couch. unfinished/abandoned

Joint Decision : England and France decide to take teen America and Canada's virginity together, on the same bed at same time for whatever reason. England takes America while France takes Canada then the two switch, England taking Canada and France taking America. no non-con but can start out slightly dub-con. Want some loving sex though. finished

[untitled] : England is blindfolded and has no idea who's topping him. During the act he begins to fantasize about who it is, but can't keep his fantasies straight and switches back and forth between America, France, Canada... finished

I Have Seen Then Gentle : I love me some FACE, but this time, England and France are genderbent. They demand that the boys sleep together and they get to watch and direct. The boys have each other (preferably seme!Canada), and then have their mentors. unfinished

Starts With One : Alfred, Arthur, and Francis are a group of vampire hunters on the trail of vampire!Matthew. Once Matthew is all chained up, they start using their libidos instead of their thinking-heads, and decide to let cute little Matthew have a last fuck before they take him out for "disposal" at sun-up. various spin-offs at bottom. finished

Radix 1 & 2 & 3 : How they went from 'friends' to in a relationship. What brought them together that way and such. Spans history. ongoing

Walk on the Wind : Columbus never discovered the New World and England and France never colonized America and Canada. No one knows that the nations of the Western Hemisphere even exist. Around 1945, Japan comes across some Pacific islands and decides to use them as a base, so he "disposes" of the natives. Only problem is that those islands were Hawaii, aka American territory. And the NA bros are not happy. Cue America and Canada declaring war on the Axis Powers. unfinished

Misunderstandings of Cannonballic Proportions : America and Canada sneak into their parents bedroom for some reason while their parents are out. Before they can leave without being caught though their parents come home and head towards the bedroom. So to avoid getting in trouble America and Canada hide under the bed and wait for them to leave. Except they don't leave... in fact it sounds like they're wrestling or something? finished

Family Game Night : There should probably be an upper age limit on board games. If you are passed two centuries, you probably shouldn’t be allowed to play. 'family' shenanigans. finished

Specialis Revelio : Gryffindor!US/Slytherin!UK and Huffleclaw!Franada are musts. OP doesn't want the HP cast to play a major role at all. Focus should be on Hogwartsified Hetalia members. unfinished

Four Too Many : Human!AU with those four in a vaguely functional established relationship and just... living their lives (morning routine, going to work, getting into arguments, complaining about work, spending the evening together... whatever you feel like writing). ongoing

[untitled] : France and England decide to take little America and Canada to the zoo. They have a lovely time but when it's time to go home they discover that Canada is missing. Cue their frantic search for him until they finally find him with the polar bears. And by with the polar bears I mean taking a nap with one. finished

Hetalia fanfic links: England etc

2010-11-12T17:05:00.002-05:00

Practical : Prussia/England. Porn during the Seven Years' War. finished

21 times England did "the deed" : Sexual history of a nation. finished

Threesome : Arthur is playing around with his magic once again. This time it ends up with two copies of himself! BUT! One is the incarnation of his full gentleman-personality; all polite, never swear, always kind and helpful. The other is his sarcastic, sexy side (c'on, we know it's in there); head high, evil remarks. Both Arthur-copies takes a liking in the original Arthur, and fights for his hand. And to Arthur's own surprise, he finds himself falling completely for.. eh.. himself. unfinished

Entwined : The ex-colonies (Canada, America, Australia, Hong Kong, India, South Africa, New Zealand, etc.) all throw a party for England on his birthday. Orgy ensues. finished

An Incident and Jerusalem/Increments of Jerusalem : Sherlock Holmes and England. A man comes to Sherlock looking for the mysterious Sir Arthur Kirkland. finished

No Such Place : Not the King Arthur story you think it is. rather gorey. finished

Just a Bit of Discomfort : "This anon has heard that men can indeed lactate, and anon isn't ashamed to say that lactation is a hard core fetish of anon's, be it in a het relationship or a yuri relationship. However, Alfred x Arthur is anon's first yaoi OTP, so I'm curious about this." unfinished

Family Ties : Scotland leaves the United Kingdom, giving Northern Ireland an excuse to up and out to reunite with his sister. This leaves England and Wales all alone. And also somehow starts off WW3. ongoing

Robot Unicorn Attack : adultswim.com game

What Do We Have Here Then? : “Oh, just one thing I ought to warn you about... Keep an ear out for the name Kirkland.” "Massive poof. Fancies officers. WATCH OUT!!!" finished

Nice Day For a Drive : Russia and UK have a drunken tank drive-off. finished

The International Awesome Pirate Weekend and director's cut : For one weekend only, England hoists the Jolly Roger again. The world weeps. finished

Our Scandalous Little Rabbit : UK likes to masturbate anally to a certain pair of nations. BIG Bonus: He comes just from Anal - in other words, he never touches his cock. BIGGER Bonus: He uses a vibrator. finished sequel ongoing

The Perils of a Democratically-Elected Leadership : England during the Year That Wasn't. Doctor Who crossover. finished

Hetalia fanfic links: Canada-centric

2010-11-05T14:13:00.003-04:00

History of Canada

Maple Express : Canada/Netherlands/Canada (I think Netherlands' name should be Maarten Van de Meer)... Bring weed to the UN summit. Madness ensues. finished

Are you there, God? It's me, Canada : Canada/Poland. Growing up around Arthur, Francis and Alfred can't have been terribly fun for Matthew, can it? What would be good to see is an angsty family AU. The drama! The teenage years! The running away and getting into trouble! unfinished

Daddy Issues : England/Canada\France. Canada calling out Daddy with UK and/or France. finished

October : The October Crisis in1970 finished

Duality : Identical twins share a pluralistic, rather then an individual, personality. The twins would frequently exchange identities and places with one another to the extent that they were a single individual for all intents and purposes. Two sets of hands, two bodies - a single personality, or at least one so intertwined with each other that there was no discernible line separating the two. unfinished

Tegaki : Matt Williams and Matthew Williams

Vinland : Lets suspend disbelief and say Canada was Vinland waking up after a very long nap because it was pretty much inevitable that the Americas would be 'discovered'. Now, what would happen if Vinland tendencies start surfacing the way childhood habits sometimes do? For some reason I like the idea of England still twitching at the thought of vikings or America freaking out over the possibility that he's the younger one and that the two of them might not be actual brothers at all. finished

Operation Maple Sandwich : Netherlands/Canada/Ukraine. finished

Ice, Fire, and Furballs : Canada/Greece. "T-the cats are watching" finished

Forged From Fire : Matthew kicks ass during WWI, much to Arthur's surprise, despite looking like he's a little boy drowning in daddy's uniform. Confessions and internal struggles ensue. finished

Lay Me Down : So, I just have to say that the opening ceremonies in Vancouver were probably the most EPICALLY AWESOME programs I'd ever seen. So my prompt is very specific. I want to see Mattie's part in the ceremony! Come on, he had to be in there somewhere. Was he one of the mountie cosplayers? Was he that aerial flier? One of the First Nation dancers? Personally, anon wants to see him as one of the punk rock fiddlers. finished

Seashells and Caribou Trails : Canada/Seychelles These two are the only two members of the British Commonwealth that were once French colonies, and are now members of La Francophonie. finished

Montreal hockey riots [various fills] : Most of us Canadanons are familiar with how riled up hockey gets us. And the riots that sometimes ensue. So, I'd love to see the normally timid Canada actively participating in the hockey riot in Montreal, drunk and disorderly. And being one of the people to be arrested. Bonus: He has to call another nation to bail him out, but they don't believe he's been arrested until he tells them it was hockey related. finished

The Cold We Hate : It's January, 1998, and the North American twins are about to be hit by one of the worst snowstorms they've ever faced. finished

Veins : Canada is turned on by trees. To be more specific, maples. finished

A Tale in the Oral Tradition : France/Canada Any pairing, so long as it involves some more Canada with an oral fixation. unfinished

Parentage : General Winter is Canada's father. finished

Walls 1 & 2 : Highschool student Matthew has been hiding from his family that he doesn't feel comfortable with his biological gender. At night, he dresses up and fantasizes about the day he is able to move from his family's small town, live the way he wants to live, and get the surgery.
Unfortunately though, through whatever anon chooses, his female counterpart is eventually revealed to his popular, football playing, twin brother Alfred (who I think wouldn't understand it, but would support him eventually) and his father, Arthur (who I think would be less accepting). ongoing

They think we're strangers : Romano/Canada Someone close to Romano, preferably Veneziano or Spain, gets hurt (not necessarily physically) - and Romano, for once, gets really protective. He's ready to kick everyone's asses and also partly drops the tsundere act around the hurt person - he's pretty nice and caring to them in his own way. ongoing

Better than Maple Syrup : I'll go with my headcanon so I wish for Canada to masturbate by touching his curl alone. finished

How it begins : England, Canada, France and Scotland have one hell of a drunken kegger in November 1866. Nine months later, Canada has quadruplets: Ontario (England's), Quebec, New Brunswick (both France's) and Nova Scotia (clearly Scotland's if only for the name). ongoing

Hetalia fanfic links: various Americas

2010-11-04T18:31:00.008-04:00

As a sort of intro, I have lost my mind and decided to make a list of all my bookmarks here just in case something terrible and completely unpredictable happens and I lose all of them. I think I would cry if that happened. Hopefully, that won't happen over the week(s) I spend doing this. Right now I just want to get all the links and prompts/summaries up. Later on, hopefully, I'll edit the entries to specify location (km, ff.n, personal, other), rating, and pairing (unless already specified).

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'ALFRED''S FILLS

Haunting You 1 and 2 : I want a haunting AU with America and England, preferably with America as the ghost. Human names are the only thing that would make sense to me in this setting and I want it to be creepy! unfinished

Fairytale : Anons, sorry to add to the ever growing pile of requests but this anon just found a new kink.

Preferably AU (fairytail-ish where people with extra appendages seems normal) and human names? I just want to see the events that lead to the picture...and maybe up until the end of it. ;)unfinished

No Known Cure : Strange request inspired by the "These are the times that try men's souls" fill and others. Also because in this anon's head-canon, America would make an epic doctor, personality-wise.

The scenario is that, for whatever reason (be it terrorist-attack, overwhelming financial crisis, internal conflict, etc.), the United States collapses and descends into disorder. The states are absorbed and taken over either by Canada or England.

Alfred manages to survive. But, already badly affected by the cause of the collapse and the resulting chaos, he can't take not being his own independent nation anymore. He disappears and no one can find him. After several years of unsuccessful searching, most of the other Nations presume Alfred is dead (though Canada and the other Latin American countries still aren't too sure...).

Years later, a Nation inadvertently finds America again. A more mature (though still carefree, cheerful, and optimistic) America who is a skilled and devoted doctor...and who doesn't remember anything or anyone from his life as a Nation. Though he hasn't aged physically, he doesn't realize that he's a Nation and not human. unfinished

Vital Regions : Canada's first kiss is ~~accidentaly~~ taken be a nation's soldier (preferably an American) during a Nations and Boss' meeting. CHAOS <-- because it's definitely the last thing anyone would expect. finished

Flipside : Tl;dr? Alfred's stuck in an alternate reality due to alien technological mishap. What at first seems a rest becomes a disaster in the making as Alfred starts becoming the alt. world's America. A Nation or a group of Nations needs to go there and drag America back at any cost, whether he wants to return or not. unfinished

Thirteen : Anon finished a fill that had a character mentioning off hand that he'd been shot in the head several times. And there seems to be a gruesome but amazing set of head canons about the various scars that nations have (the most gruesome of course, belonging to Russia, including a near decapitation, courtesy of the Golden Horde).

So basically, anon would like something along the lines of: "Five times Nation A should have died (but didn't)" finished

Author!Anon [original 1 and 2] [deanon 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 & 5 & 6] : So, we've basically all read the misfire fills where Nations were reading the Kink Meme and, in their haste to reply, missfire. But what if they actually WROTE the fills?

So, here's the jist of it:
Nation A writes a fic for Nation A/Nation B. But, Nation A gets writer's block and doesn't know where to go next. So, without Nation B knowing, Nation A acts out the fill up to where they are to see how Nation B will react so they know what to write. finished

STARRING AMERICA

Who Slept With Alfred Jones? 1 & 2 & 3 : Alfred as unlikely virgin. The countries find out that behind all the bluster and the loudness, no one's actually slept with Alfred; and they just assumed someone had. Devirginization somehow ensues. unfinished

Hands : A nearly-blind America being taken advantage off by another nation-tan since his glasses were hidden/stolen by said nation-tan. Make America unwilling at first but then all slutty or submissive at the end. finished

Tegaki : Blue as Alfred

under skies of cornflower blue : On September 11th, 2001, America is severely injured and hospitalized, to the shock of the other nations. Angst is a must. finished

The Six-Million Dollar Man : Wild tales concerning an anthropomorphic personification of a country are decidedly not the concern of the FBI. Unless, of course, you forward your complaint to the office in the basement... finished

Dear Diary : Alfred F. Jones isn't gay. Just read his diary; you'll see. AU, Alfred/Ivan among others finished

I'm Loving It More Than I Should : America doesn't know how long he's had these urges, but if they aren't fulfilled, he'll go crazy. America/Hamburgers. finished

Little White Lie 1 & 2 & 3 : America starts seeing a human girl as his escape from life. Shit hits the fan nearly immediately. finished

Do You Remember? : The Nations often join their soldiers during war against their bosses' wishes. Sometimes they're the generals and sometimes they're lieutenants (did I get these ranks wrong? op knows pitifully NOTHING about the military otl;), and usually their men never know that they fought with their own country. finished

Fill You Up : One night, America declares that he's going to fill France to the brim with cum. France approves of this idea very much. finished

Invasion 1 & 2 : An alien race invades Earth, and the Nations must band together to throw them out. (under the 'anything goes' prompt) ongoing

Why Flip Phones Are Awesome... : In short: Russia shoves America's vibrating cell phone up his ass finished

Preggers : Russia is pregnant. America is confused. unfinished?

Angels 1 & 2 : I would love to see an AU fic where a young (16 no older than 17) Alfred is a single father with 3-4 children. Here's the twist: The children are also his brothers. ongoing

Fahrenheit 451 Centigrade J : A brief behind the scenes of a fictional 2011 world conference. Completely unrepentant smut. finished

And I Know You Like It, Too : My headcanon tells me that America is France's bitch. In public, America acts like he can't stand France, but behind closed doors? America is a total slut that will do whatever France wants. finished

Die Buchhandlung : Western Germany, the American side of the line, in a bookstore, Alfred F. Jones and Ludwig Beilshmidt: Even books without a happy ending deserve to be printed. finished

All Is Not As It Seems 1 & 2 : Triggered by the birth of Alaska or Hawaii or through just random thought, one nation (anon's choice) finally does the math and realizes that America had to have been really, really, alarmingly, unacceptably young when his oldest states (then colonies) were born. He/she confronts America about it, and America either flashbacks to it or actively tells the tale. ongoing

The Fair Belle : In the time of the cowboys and the U.S. expansion West, French prostitutes were deported out of France and some moved the West to become a real hit with American cowboys, settlers, miners, etc. because there was so few women. So France, a prostitute in the West, gets a "visit" from a cowboy America finished

Thirteen Voices Raised : My head canon for the Original 13 Colonies/States is that they are not America's children but sprung up much like he did out of nowhere when their specific colonies were founded. America is still America representing the land as a whole and apart from them but they're there too watching over their own lands and people. Then America hits his growth spurt, starts having his own problems with England and gets his bright idea for his Revolution and eventually the colonies have to choose whose side they're on. Some of them easily choose to follow America some of them need a bit of convincing... ongoing

Soft Shock : France is around when America is going through tough times. Feeling sympathy, he offers comfort through sex. America is pretty clumsy and wide-eyed, but he shows a definite improvement in mood afterward. Fast forward. Later, it comes through France's attention that he took America's virginity. This offends France's sensibilities. OBVIOUSLY A DO-OVER IS IN ORDER, AND HE MEANS TO SEE IT THROUGH CORRECTLY THIS TIME. ongoing

Hemingway in Love : High School/College AU, any pairing, I want to see tons of drabbles revolving around the sex/relatioinships going on between characters in a school/educational setting. FrUS. finished deanon in progress

yasha...

2010-10-07T18:38:00.002-04:00

That boy. I just-

I'm pretty sure he's not fired from his job because he keeps calling out for not very good reasons. Like, he went out the night before and is kinda hungover and doesn't feel like going in. Or he needs to run lines for this play, but he actually takes a nap.

He has no sense of responsibility.

Also, he's sort of in a relationship with a girl, who is dating another guy. And they're operating on the assumption that she and the other guy will break up before Christmas.

He's making terrible life decisions and it makes me not want to talk to him. But his other friends are shutting him out and such, so I feel like if I get too angry with him and stop talking to him, then his self-diagnosed depression will get worse and something terrible will happen.

But seriously, he's just not a fun person to talk to right now.

He volunteers me for events that I might not like to do with him, like going to Las Vegas. Just. That boy frustrates me.

bliss?

2010-10-03T18:24:00.003-04:00

I feel like this has been the most amazing weekend ever.

Mainly because I haven't really gotten dressed - or even left the apartment - since Friday.

Even Friday, when I spent a total of 9 hours in the studio working, was a good day. I got all my fabric dyeing done. And even though I think it might count as a mistake, I'm still happy with the mottled yellow-green I got out of it all. But the bound parts look good, so I'm happy.

I didn't really get out of bed yesterday until around 4pm. Sure, I got up to make breakfast at 10:15, and I got other food and used the bathroom a couple times. But my bed was just so amazingly warm and comforting, I just couldn't leave it. I'm not even sure of what all I did while in bed. Even after I got up, I just relocated to the sofa to read a book. I even made a sandwich. And I went to bed around 1:30.

Wash, rinse, repeat.

Except at 4, I was just waiting for the Ravens-Steelers game to wrap up (RAVENS WON!) so I could take a shower.

And what a shower. 15 minutes of bliss. I could see the steam in the shower with me. Oh, it was amazing.

And I put on my housedress and my rabbit sweater and sat down to read some more.

And now I'm waiting for the dishes to dry so I can have all the 4 feet of counter space I can get to make cookies. Which will also be amazing.

The main reason this weekend has been so fantastically lazy is because I have hardly any schoolwork to do. I did my dyeing Friday, and I cut my pattern pieces Saturday, and I got started on reading Mrs Dalloway today. And that's pretty much it, really. I know I've got a bit more to do later in the week, like make my stencils and print my samples for Julia, and get started on my burial doll for Susan, oh, and sew sew sew that dress. But for a few days, I've been so relaxed.

I really wish I didn't have to get up at a reasonable time tomorrow, even if I have nothing to do but read. Ah well.

It's my dad's 52nd birthday. And my parents' 25th anniversary next week.

body image

2010-09-10T01:39:00.003-04:00

Gosh, body image is such a weird thing for me.

Yasha will often tell me, "You do know you're good looking, right?" Probably because I don't ever do anything to acknowledge my body and would rather cover it up than wear shorts.

But today I kinda realized something about that.

I was at Lowes getting steel rod for my loom. A sales guy asks me if I need any help, and I say, "Yea, I'm looking for steel rods, smooth ones." And he says something about bludgeoning people with it. And it occurs to me that he might be flirting, maybe, or am I just really paranoid about that? Then I say I need something to cut the rod into pieces, and he takes me over to where the hacksaws are, saying something about making a cannon and firing the steel pieces at people, and how it's always the chicks you gotta watch out for.

(Jeez, writing this now I'm seeing how totally fucked up everything he was saying was...)

Anyway, as I was walking back to my apartment, I was thinking about body vs sexuality. I realize my body is skinny aka 'ideal' and I have a pretty face and a flattering haircut and I try to dress neatly, even if it's just a t-shirt and jeans. But because I don't see people as attractive, as something I admire and desire, it confuses me when I notice other people checking me out. I don't do it, I have no desire to, and so I don't really understand why others would. As an artist, I appreciate and admire the human form, but as a person, a woman, it really does nothing for me.

Then again, that still doesn't really explain my semi-fear of anyone hitting on me, and of actually being naked around people I know, ie Yasha. He is still trying to get me to take off my top for him.

after all that we've been through~

2010-08-29T00:42:00.004-04:00

Went to my first party of the year tonight. Didn't stay very long. It's whatevs.

I mixed PBR in my Cheerwine. Nicole didn't like it, and nobody else was willing to try it, but it wasn't that bad. It certainly tasted better than straight up PBR. That shit is terrible!

I got a new sketchbook today. It's another little Cachet one, only navy blue this time. I did a couple little sketch things in it with commentary, and Nicole did a bunch of random drawings in it cuz she was a little bored at the party.

Yeah, I had about 1/2 - 2/3 of a beer, diluted with Cheerwine. Just enough so I didn't feel uptight, so I could try and dance to the music and have actual conversations, but not enough that I felt in anyway out of control or even tipsy and stumble-y.

Unrelated: I now have "Stillness Is The Move" stuck in my head.

sshhhhh

2010-08-24T14:47:00.001-04:00

Sometimes, my asexuality feels like a secret shared by me and one of my exs. I feel like both of us kind of used the relationship to figure out how comfortable we were with couple-y things, and if it never went past a few kisses, that was fine. So when someone around us mentions something about 'hey, you'd tap that right?' or some such, we kinda glance at each other and go 'ehhh, suuure.'

And immediately following that nice and comfortable relationship, I was with a guy who was steadily going further, and I always felt detached from what he was doing to me. Sure, it felt kinda nice, but it never got me 'hot n bothered.' And when I was single again and could look back on it and think about how I felt all during it, I just figured it all out.

I have no idea where this is going. But sometimes I guess I just need to write these things out somewhere.

high school, and my artistic growth

2010-07-28T16:45:00.004-04:00

I went to my high school for the first time in over a year today to drop off some pieces for the alumni show.

First of all, I was amazed at my ability to remember all the random back-roads ways to get to it.

Walking through the halls was really interesting for me. All the 'gallery' walls were empty and plain grey, which makes sense, since it's the summer and all. I had a random burst of pride, knowing that my high school was so very art-oriented and encouraging, when I could have went to a regular zoned school and not had the same opportunities to grow.

I think the reason I'm feeling so nostalgic at the moment also has to do with the episode of 'Work of Art' I watched today (from last week). The artists had to create a piece about their childhood and how they realized they would be artists, and they could only use childrens' art supplies. Most of them didn't do too great of a job, just going with 'childhood' and 'art', only 2 did anything with a real personal concept behind them. I was disappointed with Abdi's piece; I liked his first idea, but oh well. The show was taped months ago, it's not like I can change anything...

Anyway, it got me thinking about my own childhood and what might've lead to my decision to pursue art. And, distressingly, I couldn't really think of any moments that stood out to me. Even now, the best I can come up with is in nursery school when we had to paint a large cut out of an apple red or green, and I used both because I thought it was more realistic. And in second grade, on some sort of leaf-related assignment, I counted the number of purple leaves (along with green, yellow, orange, red, and brown) because I had seen purple leaves. Neither of those events are very monumental, and are certainly not related to my current artistic pursuits.

I think I only started to really develop my own interests and talents in high school. I spent those 4 years focusing mainly on photography, with some figurative painting and mixed media thrown in. I was all set to major in photography in college, until the crit for 'opposites'. I had done 2 large 3'x4' grids of paper cranes, one black and one white. Torie suggested I should look into majoring in crafts or fibers, since lately I had been doing those sorts of oddball pieces. And it just clicked in my head that yes, that's what I want to do.

Recently I've figured out what I would love to do, though my mind keeps telling me it'll never work out because this is the real world. I want to make sustainable fiber art. As in, made from natural materials, like well-treated animals and organic plants, as local as possible. I feel it's a good mix of my strong environmental habits and ideas with my artistic interests and tendencies. The problem I see, though, is the expense of wanting to do it. Buying natural materials is always more expensive than synthetic, and when you factor in local materials it gets harder to find and more expensive.

Even if I could affordably get my hands on natural materials, my brain keeps telling me art is not a reliable or smart career choice - fine art especially. And while this isn't exactly 'fine art' it's far from commercial art. I want to be making art for myself in a small studio, but that's not a very reliable way to live. My brain started yelling about health insurance and dentist appointments and paying bills and affording a car and then I just feel like settling for some hourly job to make ends meet, which will likely kill me inside.

As much as I want to, being a professional artist just seems so terribly hard to live on. Then again, my self confidence isn't very high, even when I know I make good art when I put my mind to it.

Today I contemplated taking orders for embroidered shoes. People seem to like the fun patterns most hi-top shoe companies offer, and there's a small market for hand painted shoes, so I think there would be a similarly small market for embroidered shoes as well. But then I get bogged down with how long it takes, and how painful it can be for my hands, and in the end I decide it's just not worth it.

I feel like now I'm ranting...

Maybe I just need to actually make all those recycled jean things I've been meaning to do, make a dozen sock creatures, and sell all that on the Etsy account I got but have only used to buy one shirt.

[no relevant art today. though I did read another amazing bit of 'General Relatively' that had me smiling goofily the whole time. and blue did a bit of art for it!]

antisocial girl strikes again!

2010-07-21T16:38:00.002-04:00

Is it rude to invite myself places because I'm feeling terribly left out?

Because, through the wonders of FB, I find 2 of my best friends from middle/high school having 'Star Wars' funteimz. So, this is my passive-aggressive attempt to get invited.

It's just, it can't be entirely my fault no one tells me things or invites me places. I know I'm not exactly forthcoming about my own plans, mainly because my life consists of work and sitting at home online. If I showed more interest in going out and doing things, maybe I'd get invited more places. But these friends should know I'm stupidly quiet and just... I'm sad.

Then again, with another whirlwind tour of Richmond tomorrow, I'm not sure going out and having fun is a good idea. I get to spend a grand total of 8-9 hours on a Greyhound bus tomorrow, all to finally sign my lease. It's not gonna be fun, but I'm getting Buz & Ned's when I get in for lunch, and the campus library will be open so I can just hang out there while waiting. Which is still really lame.

And now I'm thinking: I was a lot more outgoing in middle school. As awesome as Carver was, something about it seems to have made me cripplingly quiet. Yeah, definitely channeling Canada here... Yasha is the only non-family person to remember on a mostly regular basis. Maybe in another year or so I'll be used to being forgotten and it won't bother me as much.

I need to stop the angst-fest.

Postive things: I was productive yesterday! I made my dentist and eye appointments, dyed my hair and made dinner.

Unrelated: I'm contemplating getting one of those pill organizers, what with all my self-medicating. The list right now: vitamin, Zyflamend, St Johns wort, Stress B & C + iron, iron, melatonin. And I need to add greens to that. This is what comes from working in the wellness department...

will you indeed...

!tuo kool

2010-07-03T23:05:00.006-04:00

IDK, man. 'Top Gear' ftw!

Moving is way too stressful. And I'm not even actually moving yet!

Monday is going to suck big time... I'm driving myself down to RVA in the morning to pack up everything I own. Everything. My room will be filled with boxes and furniture I can't disassemble. I'm hoping to get a good 9-10 hours down there working. I also need to pay my last month of rent, sign the new lease, and a couple other random and annoying things. You have no idea how happy I am to finally be 'moving out' of that place, even if I won't actually be moving till the end of the month. I'm way too excited for the new place.

Which, by the way, will have a sofa as of tomorrow. Horray furniture!

In other news, Thursday was epically busy. I got up around 7 to do a major bike ride with Yasha. We rode the NCR Trail from Paper Mill to Monkton, 13 miles total. I learned that my bike, being a mountain bike, isn't really meant to be sat upon for such long periods over such flat terrain. My butt still hurts.

That night was also The Inventory From Hell. Pro: free pizza. Con: everything else. I drank 2 bottles of delicious matè to stay awake. I didn't actually count as much as I was expecting, but it was still long and tedious and boring and I hope I never have to do it again. The eggplant on my pizza was pretty good though, for my first time eating it.

Random: I was basically a vegetarian on Thursday. I had a Poptart, a vegan turkey club sandwich, a toasted PBJ, and a slice of vegan pizza. The tempeh was surprisingly good, if incredibly overpowering on that sandwich. I don't want to think about what the 'turkey' was. Tofu just freaks me out.

Also, I spent 5 hours today checking and unpacking 51 boxes of products from UNFI. While suffering from cramps. But then I had a bison burger for dinner, the first burger of any kind I've had in years. Still bland, but slightly better than regular ground beef. I just love seafood too much, I guess.

I think I might have mild depression. Maybe. According to WebMD, I have some of the symptoms. For some reason the prospect doesn't bother me though. Then again, I'm not exactly dissatisfied with my existence, nor do I want to physically harm myself. I'm just terribly lazy, not very hungry, and apathetic towards nearly everything. Whatevs.

Also, more random: I came out, I guess, to Yasha a week or so ago. It just sorta came up, like, "So, what exactly are you, if you don't mind my asking?" "Oh, asexual." Yeah. Basically. And then on the bike ride we had a short conversation about me having sex and proceeding to tell him about it, while I'm thinking, 'Yeah, right, like that'll happen.' I don't even like putting in tampons, why would I be willing to have something else up there?

I need to update more often, or else every time I do I just end up spewing out tons and tons of random where one paragraph is almost never linked to the previous one. Seriously.

45 more minutes. Is it lame that I know how old America and Canada are? [234 and 143] Fucking Hetalia....

sneeze attack

2010-06-24T10:40:00.003-04:00

Ugh, I've got a cold. It's really totally not fun.

Yesterday and the day before I had a numb, scratchy throat, but it didn't affect my voice. I've gotten progressively more sniffly and now it's just ridiculous. And of course cat snuggling isn't helping with the runny nose problem.

Other news:
Inventory starts next week. I've already started counting some of backstock, like the holiday stuff, the new stuff that we don't have space for yet, and all the bulk herbs. In preparation for inventory, I get to come in tomorrow and work backstock as much as humanly possible. Oh joy...

I was invited to a party Friday night, which I convinced mom to let me go to for a couple hours, but I'm starting to think maybe it's not such a good idea. I won't be able to really have fun since I'm driving myself home early, and I've got work at 8 the next morning. I feel like it really would be better for me to stay home, especially if I'm still sick then.

Saturday is the e-cycling event at work. Mom gets to man a grill and make food. I finally get to see Fred's band, which is exciting. Angela said she'd try to take some old computer stuff to the Alexandria store, which is cool. It's kinda funny, though, that mom and I are scheduled to be there at 8, but I'm off at 2 and she's off at 4. I'll probably just hang around at the event for those 2 hours or something.

Soccer is actually kinda interesting. Or, at least, I'm interested in the games we're playing; I could care less about the others... I'm really quite pleased that the US and England both made it to the round of sixteen. Perhaps we'll play each other again later. Sadly, our next game is Saturday while I'm at work.

oh, those vuvuzelas...

ohai!

2010-06-16T17:41:00.002-04:00

"Besides, my capital is awesome!"

Canada, who has been completely ignored for the last hour, is annoyed. Kumapaku hasn't even asked his name! So, naturally, he feels like being a bit of bastard. Plus it's always fun to get a rile out of his brother. "August 24, 1814," he mutters with a smirk. "It didn't look so awesome back then."

England winces. While that incident always cheered them up when the young superpower was being particularly obnoxious, he really wishes that Canada had chosen a better time to bring it up, preferably when he wasn't trying to keep his mind on dealing with this country's backwards driving laws.

America stares around wildly as if looking for the source of the voice. When he notices Canada, his eyes narrow. "You bastard!" he hisses. "You said we wouldn't talk about that!"

Canada's smirk only grows. "Of course, flames make everything look so much more awesome, don't they?"

America opens his mouth a few times in shock, and Canada has to fight off ~~giggles~~ manly laughter. Then, America smirks back at him. "Well, in that case," he says, "York didn't look so hot in 1813, now did it? Oh, wait!" He claps a hand to his face in mock realization. "Yes, it did, because it was on fire!"

--
from a silly roadtrip fill

;A;

2010-06-03T19:47:00.004-04:00

Seriously.

I found a truly epic fill on (not surprisingly) the Pimp Post. And based on the prompt I knew it was going to heartbreaking and intense and maybe something I would regret reading. But the authoranon is doing an amazing job at this whole thing, and I seriously got kinda teary-eyed at the end of this latest update. Other anons were crying for the last, like, 3 updates, but I guess my soul has a hard outer coating that only 'LOST' can truly shatter to pieces. Or something...

Basically, jock!Al is being a jock and tormenting normal!Arthur for being gay, even though he isn't, and then it comes out that Al actually is. And, well, some really really terrible shit just went down, of the extreme kind, and the comfort is starting to come about, but the period between the reveal and the shit was just terrible. And Al is so completely broken. And it makes me want to cry.

And I feel like if I want to talk about anything else right now, it would be a total buzzkill. Or something.........

feel better, dudes.

sleeeeeeeepy (and a rant)

2010-05-29T20:50:00.005-04:00

This has nothing to do with anything, but I feel like ranting a bit...

It's really starting to bother me - like, seriously, make me angry for a couple seconds - when, in fics, authors decide that Matt/Canada [depending on canon v au] is younger than Alfred/America. Based on their canon birthdays, Matt is 3 days older, and Canada had its first year-round successful settlement in1605, 2 years before Jamestown. HE'S OLDER GRAHHHH!! I have no idea why this bothers me so much, but it really does. And then I feel like a terrible person for getting so worked up over such a minor detail. In all honesty, I much prefer them as twins who don't know which is older, as is implied by canon, since Himaruya never has one of them using onii-san or ototou or any form of either; they use a neutral form of brother. [And my mind just jumped to a deleted scene from 'Boondock Saints' involving a call from their mom and talk of 'aren't you going to tell us which one of us is older?']

Ugh...

Anyway, work!

Fun times were had by all as I checked in UNFI. Or something... I had to cut some bits of gouda for JP's wine tasting today, promoting businesses in the same shopping center and all. And I ate a rather delicious and large lunch for about as much as Amy's kid's mac & cheese: cheesey broccoli pocket, cherry fruit smash, black cherry yogurt, root beer. I would just like to say that Brown Cow yogurt is really really delicious, which means a lot, considering the only yogurt I've had in the last, like, 5-6 years was Trix, which only kinda counts.

Well, I'm off to get some ice cream and watch the latest 'Doctor Who'. Psh, like my life is busy...

besides, al's ridiculous behavior is more consistent with a younger sibling, while matt is calm and responsible.

apparently, my life is busy...

2010-05-27T23:15:00.004-04:00

Except not really... I just do absolutely nothing with my life and feel no need to write about how I do nothing.

Except for Sunday night. Because that was epic and stuff.

Basically, I went to Becca's and we watched the LOST finale together with Joe.

BUT FIRST we went on a snack run to 7-11 for Slurpies and Rite-Aid for snacks and Jolt. Reliving middle school, man.

Jake is ginormous and Fred is skinny and sick with something (they never said what). Very sad. Joe made spaghetti - as in, made the sauce right there. It was yummy.

But OH GOD THE FINALEEEEE!!!

I teared up within the first 10-15 minutes. I forget why now... And I got teary again about half-way in. And then I cried for, like, the last 30ish minutes and for a bit after. Like, trying not to make embarrassing sounds, dripping snot everywhere, doing that awkward chin-wibbly-trying-not-to-smile-happily thing. Because OH GOD THE END!! It really was perfect. I found a comparison pic on tumblr for it.

I wish it was bigger, but yeah. Perfect.

AND HURLEY REALLY WAS THE NEW JACOB!! God, that made me so happy! Ahhh, it really was a very satisfying end to an amazing show. Not everything was answered, and that's ok. I really wasn't expecting answers to everything. But everything that mattered was explained. The only thing I'm unhappy with, even though I understand why it wasn't addressed, was Walt. We never really get an answer to him - because the actor shot up, like, 3 feet and couldn't play a 12-year-old anymore. Which is sad, but oh well. And I guess Michael wasn't in the church because his spirit was 'doomed' to walk the Island as one of those whispers. Oh well.

College Humor did a pretty funny vid of all the unanswered questions spanning the entire series. Some of them were answered in the end, but most weren't. Of course, some of them were ridiculous, like what's with Kate and that horse, or why did Tom wear a fake beard, and some were seriously kinda important, like where's Christian Shepperd's body anyway, and what's the deal with the frozen wheel. Indeed.

After LOST, Joe rolled a joint from receipt paper (which I declined, since I still feel nervous about seriously smoking things, because bongs don't count), and the 'alternate endings' on Jimmy Kimmel were really lame. We opened our Jolts and watched 'Honey, I Shrunk the Kids' before going to bed around 3. Becca let me have her bed, and she slept in her parents' bed. Man, her bed is comfy.

I got a call around 10-ish the next morning, which I ignored since I was only kinda conscious. When I listened to the voice mail later, it was from Metro, saying we've been approved and they were gonna call back when the lease was ready. So, that's exciting.

Work work work. Ammie called me 'her little duck' on my first day back. It was kinda adorable. It's really interesting, the contrast between newbies and oldies there. Today I finally got to see my two favorite people, JT and Will. I even did that run-jump-tackle thing with Will, which is always fun. Aaaand then I had to leave because I was just there till he got there. Also, mom went in at 7, three hours before me, and left about 15 minutes after me, close to 5:30. I have no idea what's wrong with her. And after getting a mcchicken for the first time in months and months, I took the most meandering route home ever. I took 100 to Long Gate Parkway and cut through old Elicott City, down a bit of Rolling Road, onto 40, last Yasha's new work, around a bit of the beltway, down McDonough, and up a bit of 795. And I got home after mom.

In other unrelated news, HELLZABETH IS AN EVIL ENGLISHWOMAN FOR KILLING CANADAAAAAAA!! Seriously, I almost cried! That was evil evil evil. Quebec and everything east is forming their own country, Yukon and BC went to America, and the rest are gonna be together as well. I was in complete shock. I'm still gonna keep reading, as much as it'll pain me, but I do want to know how this goes. Maybe the used-to-be-Canada bits will get involved separately?

because i'm a perv.

and now i'm getting off, because this thunderstorm is really intense.

writing planning

2010-05-22T23:25:00.002-04:00

'Hazy' parts:

- smoking first cigarette, 11/09
- first college party, 12/09
- new year's, 12/09-1/10
- 80's party, 1/10
- 90's party, 2/10
- 420, 4/10
- 70's party, 5/10

So, it's currently going to be seven parts, though I expect I'll add to it as I do things. I'm trying out first-person again, and when I was planning out the beginning of the first part, I was thinking in David Sedaris's voice, which was weird. I might include those 'girly sleepovers', since drinking was involved, but we'll see. Probably not though...

oh, hey

2010-05-22T21:52:00.006-04:00

Today was my first day back at MOMs. I'm in Supps for now, as an extra. I'm scheduled for truck days, which is fine because it's money, but sucky because of the time. I worked an 8.5 hour shift and almost forgot to take a break. I did that for most of spring break, worked the 8 hours straight, because I was doing so much I didn't really have a chance to stop and sit.

It was fun, though, the difference between the people I've worked with before and the newer people. Ammie called me her 'Little Duck', and James, one of the new ones, was ridiculously surprised when Nick told him I was 'Pam's daughter'. Sadly, I don't work with Will until next Saturday.

The series finale of LOST is tomorrow night. It can't be real. This isn't happening.

I predict I will cry and be randomly depressed for a while - as in, something will remind me of LOST, and I'll grin at my nerdiness, then pout and be sad when I remember it's over. I'm going over to Becca's for the event, so we can catch up and be nerds together.

Hmm, I also need to watch Doctor Who tomorrow.

Oooo, I need to go shower and then BLOW DRY MY HAIR YEAHHHH!! It's kinda sad, how much I've missed my hair dryer and round brush... I just don't much like my hair when it's all flat and just hanging there. It'll also be the first time I'm blow drying it after Anna cut it two weeks ago, so hopefully it won't look terrible.

this has nothing to do with anything. but it's my favorite of the 'blue police' pics, simply because it's a real american police bike, because all motorcycle!cops ride beemers. trufax.

[edit]
Really unrelated:

As it turned out, they both skidded into the conference room together, shoving at each other over who would walk in first. They made their appearance right on time, with America holding Canada in a headlock and the meeker blonde punching his brother in the gut. They stumbled, fell, and there was silence as the other nations stared at the North American brothers.

Such bros...

survival at it's finest

2010-05-16T15:09:00.003-04:00

Last night was Journey. And I am in way more pain than I was last year. Oh, but it was so much fun.

Yasha and I ended up as staff chasers, the ones that get the game rolling. Jeremy, from BFTW, was the lead chaser, Sir Lancelot of Charm City. I ended up driving, which turned out to be way easier than I tend to think it is: 29 goes straight through Silver Spring and into DC. We parked in the same hotel garage we did last year. We were a couple minutes late for the chaser meeting, but it didn't really matter. We got our maps and the general instructions for us: no tagging between Dupont and 1, only about 10 between1 and 2, about as many between 2 and 3, and then we're shuffled as needed. Yasha and I were on a team with another guy, Jason, and we had between 2 and 3.

After the meeting, we went to Potbellies and got subs for dinner. When Yasha went to pay for his, though, he realized he managed to forget his wallet. Jason paid for Yasha's sub, which was nice. We went back to the circle after that and got our ribbons, then helped one of the organizers, Chris, grab all the stuff from someone's car, and bring it back to set up. As soon as the table is flipped over and set up, a line forms. We end up walking down the line to intimidate players, and make our way to our post.

We stop by Checkpoints 1 and 2, just to see. 1 is at a bus depot, and has a DMV theme. They made big 'licenses' with holes for faces and you can get your picture taken. Yasha and I had ours done, just because. It was manned by the Good Player Fairy from last year, one of the guys from the 50s training vid, and a woman. We talked for a while, tell them they're supposed to get all 1000+ registrants, then move towards 2. 2 is pirate themed, with inflatable palm tree, kiddie pool, and treasure chest. We report in as 'friendly neighborhood chasers', talk for a bit, and head to where we decide to camp out.

I forgot to mention, but the Marines were back. And there were more. More on that later.

We end up on opposite sides of K, between New Jersey and North Capitol, right near the Greyhound. Apparently, a couple players left early, and 1 was not allowed to stamp people until 8:30. The players were officially released at 7:50. I wish I could provide a more accurate play-by-play, but I was following so many Twitter feeds that I had to delete my inbox twice. We don't get any action until closer to 9, I think. The Marines were moving fast, and we were told to try to get them as fast as possible.

Our team got separated, but we had each other's numbers, so it wasn't a big deal. I quickly found a group and chased them apart, separated another group, and went after others. Unfortunately, because I'm so terribly out of shape I couldn't chase them for long, but it was still fun. We patrolled from 2 to K, and as more player-chasers were made, more people were caught. Yasha chased a couple Marines towards some player-chasers, and 2 got caught.

After that, my timing gets a little messed up. We decided to move to between 4 and 5, but then we got a message from Jeremy to ease off and just intimidate players for a while, to find the lead players instead. We went to 4 anyway, where we met Kevin and a couple other Bros. We walked to 6, doing some chasing along the way. We make it to 6 in time to see the first players finish, 2 guys from Dem Boyz at 10. Yasha goes back out while I rest, and we later decide to go find Jason, who's up near 5.

On our way to 5, we help catch a ridiculously fast guy. Actually, all along 16th where we were walking we were chasing after people. Into traffic, too. There was one guy that we ended up surrounding, there were about 7 of us. He was really fast. He ran up a hill in front of a temple, and as he was coming down, I saw him heading towards me so I planted myself, all ready for him. He banked sharply before he got to me, cut between some newspaper boxes into the street, where Yasha got him. It was pretty sweet.

Bruce from the pillow fight was manning 5, dressed as Waldo, and recording videos of people's stories. Jason was a little up from 5, so we met up with him and decided to ignore the messages about intimidating only and headed to 14th between 4 and 5. We chased some, though I was really tired by then and couldn't do much running anymore. They caught a couple players that were hiding pressed against a wall, who took a little issue with us because they saw the message about not catching.

By then I was exhausted and aching all over. Each step I took shot pain up my legs from the balls of my feet, and I wished I had brought my running shoes. We decided to just head back to the car and leave, partially because of how dead we were and partially because Yasha had to deal with something with Heather. Somehow we made it back to the car and back home. Yasha fell asleep in the car. I got in right around 2.

Over 1150 players made it to 1, 512 through 2, 100 through 3, about 30 through 5. 12 teams were represented at 6. I wish I knew how the Bros did. I'm pretty sure Gabriel made it all the way through again.

Today, almost every muscle in my legs aches so bad I have trouble walking. My neck/shoulders aches too, probably remnants from carrying my bags around on Friday.

HOUSING!!!

2010-05-12T18:40:00.004-04:00

On Monday, Nicole and I went to look at a place on Grace (which turned out to be on Hell Block, but oh well). It's on the first floor of a large building, at the front with a little patio. The main room is really big, like as big as our kitchen and living room combined. The kitchen is really tiny though, but it has a gas stove. I'll deal, whatever. The front bedroom is pretty big, almost as big as my room now. The back bedroom is about as big as my dorm room. They're connected by a jack-and-jill bathroom. Water/trash/sewer and internet is included in the rent, so we would pay for the electricity and gas, and cable should we get a TV.

WE WENT FOR IT!!

It's really open and bright, there's a couple ceiling fans. Apparently the maintenance people are rather on top of things, which will be a nice change from Clachan. It's also more than where I am now, by about $80, but I'm hoping we'll be there for the next 2 years, and I can always help cover the rent if need be. I dropped off my half of the security deposit today, so it's just about as good as ours. It was funny; when we went on Monday, one of the guys there now got all excited when we said we wanted it, and he walked us over to the property manager's place to get started on everything.

Our current problem is the lack of furniture the place will have... I really only have a couple random chairs, plus my personal furniture. Nicole, apparently, has nothing. But our kitchen will be thoroughly stocked. I have that covered. As long as Nicole provides a toaster.

In other news: LOST!

OH GOD THERE'S ONLY ONE MORE EPISODE THEN THE EPIC FINALE EVENT AND I'M GOING TO CRY AND BE INCONSOLABLE FOR MONTHS AHHHH!!!

*ahem* Yesterday, we learned where Jacob and the Man in Black came from, and basically what the purpose of the island is. Also who 'Adam and Eve' from the caves were, and where the Black Smoke came from. IT WAS SO SAD!

It's also sad that Supernatural is ending tomorrow night. Not for good, because that would be way too much for me to handle, but for the season.

And since I apparently can't upload gifs, here's a bunny with a pancake on it's head.

dammit, hellzabeth!

2010-05-08T20:30:00.003-04:00

I'm going to kill myself.

Because that's the most terribly horrible cliffhanger I think she's left us with yet. WAY TO LEAVE MY FAVORITE COUNTRIES IN GRAVE PERIL GAHHHH!!

"Wait wait wait wait- you're joining the war?" America pointed at the screen. "I thought you guys declared neutrality!"

"And now we are declaring war." Ukraine said, her cheery voice covering something frighteningly like Russia that lurked beneath the surface. "Understand?"

Everybody gaped.

"Khoroshyy." she smiled. "You may all want to step away from Alfred and Matvey."

The ground shook.

The windows rattled.

Both brothers choked in unison, and coughed up blood onto the floor.

And then came the sound of destruction.

I was clawing at the screen.

And now I'm going to go watch Doctor Who and calm down. Hopefully...

my reaction.

the 70s were funkadelic

2010-05-08T15:02:00.003-04:00

Went to Kim's 70s party last night. It was pretty awesome. Emily had fun with my hair, I wore my gogo boots and my tube top and drank Mike's Hard.

Anna and Kim decorated Patrick's place with tons of Christmas lights, and real effort was put into the playlist this time, instead of the fail that was the 80s playlist. It was a really nice night, so it was no surprise the party moved to the roof soon after we got there, which was close to 11. I had a hot pocket for dinner when I got there.

And around 12-ish, when I had to go to the bathroom after my 2 Mike's, I realized it's really hard to walk in those boots while not sober. Especially on a slightly slanted roof. So I had to take them off before I stumbled my way right off the roof. Hasib got a bunch of Wendy's for whoever wanted some, and he introduced himself to me for, like, the fourth time.

Around 12:30 the police came. Apparently, Patrick's bitchy downstairs neighbors had called with a noise complaint, and then there was a robbery down the street. They played it off all nice and smooth, cooperating and such. I was kinda terrified. We had to basically stop the party after that, and about half the people left, but we hung around for a few more hours.

Cesley moved to the kitchen and didn't move for probably 2 hours, just drinking PBR. I took a nap on Tom's bed. At some point Patrick took out his bowl, and there was weird unplugged guitar jam session. Liz finally decided we should leave when Cesley got kinda delirious. Kim had to help her down the stairs and to the van. And I think I ended up being the most sober person in our group again, even if I had a bout of the spins and had to sit down for a while. After all, this was my first party since my birthday.

I'm kinda impressed with myself. I continue to manage to drink for a while, suddenly realize I'm getting tipsy and dizzy, and then I stop. And since we usually just hang out at these functions for hours, I get to spent 2-3 hours working off my buzz by nearly falling asleep. I hardly drank at all too. Ces was drinking for probably the whole time. She had a four loco and several PBRs. Crazy. I had a comb in my pocket that I would randomly pull out and use on other people (since my hair had hairspray and curls in it), and after a while of doing that to her she would just ask me to comb her hair. Weird...

Anyway, I should really get dressed and go to the studio to finish my textiles final. Which again will have no crit. Not cool...

ces = england. except not naked.
(though a couple guys did randomly strip to their underwear...)

lazy

2010-05-05T16:00:00.002-04:00

man, i had this epic thought process thing that i was doing as i wrote my paper yesterday, but i'm too lazy to post it now. oh well.

i was up for 34 hours straight, not counting the hour-ish dozing-nap i had around 6a. i drank a 12oz red bull and a 16oz jolt to help me write that paper, and jessica got me a 20oz mocha frap to keep me up through "the royal tenenbaums" which i thoroughly enjoyed. and then i walked my bike home and locked it under the deck because i knew i would fall over if i tried to ride it or carry it up the stairs. i went to bed at 6 last night, woke up around 6 this morning, and had bursts of pseudo-sleep till around 11:30. 34 hours awake, followed by about 14 hours of sleep. awesome.

TO DO TODAY:
- shower. i feel gross.
- eat.
- watch 'lost' since i slept through it.
- deliver rent.
- move my bike up to the deck.
- clean up my room.
- attempt some studio work.

well, it's 4 now, so i guess i should get started on all that...

idk. it's really hot... outside, i mean.

Procrastination's a bitch

2010-05-03T19:56:00.004-04:00

And yet I'm still doing it.

I have 17.5 hours left to write this English paper, but for some reason I'm terribly unstressed and not worried at all. It's a little distressing how unconcerned I am about this whole thing.

I've currently got almost 4 full pages, and I'm about to add onto something in the middle of all that - orthographic coding and spelling and such. I got a bit stuck on the 'learning disabilities' part, probably because I was trying to write it while Bayly was at the table with Anna and I. Of course nothing got done. I sorta stopped in the middle of a sentence and I have no idea where I was trying to go with it.

I got some stuff from Aunt Lynne about occupational therapy and such. I WAS SO HAPPY!! I should really go read those articles... I'm probably going to quote her a bit, and I asked her a couple questions that I'm waiting on responses for, which I kinda need for the next part of my paper. So I think I'm just waiting for her to get back to me.

Or maybe I just really really don't want to write this goddamn thing. That could be it.

I'm really happy, though, with my overall performance this semester and the progress I've made on all my other finals. I'm solid for a B in all 3 math classes, an A for textiles, likely a B for ceramics, an A in cinema, and as long as I don't completely bomb this paper at least a B but probably an A for English. I've finished my math final, I'm not worried about my cinema final. I finished glazing my stuff for ceramics, so that'll be done by Wednesday. I've done 6 scarves for textiles, and I'll get the other 4 done by Thursday evening, hopefully, and then I can spend the weekend thinking about how to present the damn things.

I AM UNSTOPPABLE!

And I just downloaded a really fantastically amusing and amazing FST. It's called "too sexy for your party," and it's for the Bad Touch Trio.
"Everybody" Backstreet Boys "The Bad Touch" Bloodhound Gang "Hips Don't Lie (cover)" The Fray "I'm Too Sexy" Right Said Fred "Highway to Hell" AC/DC "Daylight" Matt & Kim "Poker Face" Lady Gaga "Like A Boss" The Lonely Island "Stay Young" Oasis "Boys Don't Cry" The Cure "Love Machine" Arctic Monkeys "Fuck Her Gently" Tenacious D "All For Love" Bryan Adams

I'm listening to it to pump me up.

If my library wasn't so ginormous, I'd try to throw together a 'pump me up' playlist right now. I may just have to attempt a Genius concoction. It starts with "Daylight" and includes lots of Passion Pit, Cobra Starship, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Postal Service, and MGMT.

i feel like this is my mood right now... i'm hopped up on red bull, leemealone...

anyway...

2010-04-30T23:29:00.004-04:00

i have nothing to really talk about.

lately i've been online less. when refreshing the same pages and rereading bookmarked stories gets too repetitive, i tend to just put the comp to sleep, go upstairs and curl up on the sofa with a book. i'm already half way through "fool moon" and i just ordered "grave peril" and "darkly dreaming dexter" today. it makes me feel warm inside when shipping costs more than the books. i love buying used!

i've got a hot library date with anna sunday... and our english papers...

yesterday i looked at an apartment - finally! it was kinda not good though... nicole and i checked out another one today, and it was also a no-go. it's a little frustrating and off-putting for me that nicole has a bigger budget than i do. i'm looking at $1000 as the top of the range, so then split between two people. i feel like nicole might have higher expectations than i do, which is frustrating. but we'll find something. my goal is the end of may, though i guess realistically it would be by the end of my summer class.

anyway, i think i'm gonna go read some more. i put the book down right in the middle of a super climactic moment - a loup-garou is ravening the police station! ahhh!!

i have no idea...

bored...

2010-04-30T23:29:00.001-04:00

[ ] Lose a lover
or
[x] Love a loser

[x] Never see again
or
[ ] Never speak again

[x] Run 2 miles straight
or
[ ] Walk 8 miles

[ ] Go to the beach
or
[x] Have a milkshake

[x] Laugh when no one else is
or
[ ] Not laughing while everybody else is

[ ] Drink 10 cans of soda at once
or
[x] Never drink soda again

[x] Have your pants rip
or
[ ] Get thrown in a trash can

[x]Work at McDonald's
or
[ ] Join the army

[x] Kiss someone you don't like
or
[ ] Have someone kiss you who doesn't like you

[ ] Not take a bath for a week
or
[x] Take a bath in a lake

[ ] Be an only child
or
[x] Have 5 brothers

[x] Cry in front of 5000 strangers
or
[ ] Cry in front of your whole school

[x] Be able to rewind time
or
[ ] See the future

[x] Be hated for who you are
or
[] Be loved for something you're not

[x] Die the day after the best day of your life
or
[ ] Live to be 90 with everyday being 'okay'

[ ] Be absolutely gorgeous
or
[x] Have a really great personality

[ ] Go skydiving
or
[x] Go scuba diving

[x] Be loved by one person
or
[ ] Have 10 people who like you

[x] Have one absolutely amazing kiss
or
[ ] Have 40 okay kisses

[x] Love and lose
or
[ ] Never love at all

[x] Be friends with someone you absolutely hate
or
[ ] Give someone you love a dirty look

NAME YOUR:
-high school: Carver Center for Arts and Technology [I refuse to add 'George Washington' to the front...]
-junior high school: Sudbrook Magnet Middle School
-elementary school: Church Lane Elementary Technology School [hells yeah, 14 years of magnet schools!]
-favorite soda: Cheerwine
-favorite fruit: mango
-favorite season: winter

DO YOU:
-want a tattoo: Indeed
-want more piercings: Probably

LAST:
-talked to: Anna Pallotta
-shower: yesterday
-watched: South Park

FOR OR AGAINST:
-long distant relationships: for
-killing people: against
-teenage drinking: for

HAVE YOU EVER:
-ever cried over a girl or boy: no
-ever been arrested: no
-ever had a friend die: no
-ever dated a cousin: no!
-ever used a gun: just a bb gun
-ever finished a puzzle: yes
-ever got surgery: yes?
-ever got beaten up: no
-ever hated someone: no
-ever made a huge mistake: yes
-ever jogged a mile: probably
-ever broken someones heart: yeah...

NUMBER:
-favorite number: 69. heh...
-number of times you've have had your heart broken: 0!

LAST PERSON WHO:
-slept in a bed with you: whoa. I'm gonna go with Christian, even though that was back in... July, I think
-made you cry: probably a movie...

PICK ONE:
-blue or red?: blue
-spring or fall?: fall

RANDOM STUFF:
-criminal record?: none
-do you speak any other language: some bits of Italian (I've mostly forgotten it by now), random words in other languages, mainly swear words (oh, Finnish...)
-piercings?: 5, ears

YOU'RE:
-how old do you look: early 20s, I guess
-how old do you act: probably also early 20s
-do you have any pets: 2 kitties, though technically they're the family pets
-mood: content, getting sleepy

DO YOU HAVE THE FOLLOWING IN YOU'RE BEDROOM AT THE MOMENT:
Condoms: no
Cell phone: yes
Chair/stool: yes, several
Book shelf: yes!
Dresser: yes
Computer: yes. are you serious?
Pictures: yes
Mirror: yes
Skateboard: no
Bed: yes
Clothes on the floor: you have no idea... (yes)
Surfboard: no
Smoke detector: yes, but it's not actually in place... I should fix that...
Piano/keyboard/Guitar/bass/drums: no... just a flute
Locking door: yes
Bottle of water: yes?
Blacklight: no
Medals/ribbons: yes, just the KSR one
CDs: yes!
Flag: no
Stop sign/any sign: no
Real gun: no!
Empty bottles: too many...
Books: YES!
Stereo: no, just a boombox
Television: no
Lighter: yes
Gum: yea, like, 2 pieces...

How many windows do you have in your room? one
What color is your bed sheet? white
What's on your walls? random art from high school, a couple posters, about a zillion polaroids
Has the opposite sex been on your bed? yes
Has the opposite sex slept in your bed? nope
Do you like your bedroom? for the most part

1) Are your parents married or divorced? married
2) Vegetarian? nooooooo
3) Heaven? how do you expect me to answer this?
4) Come close to dying? no
5) What jewelry do you wear? my sweet dino watch, plain earrings, usually my class ring
6) Are you eating? no
7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? yes
8) Makeup? just on my eyes
10) Would you ever have plastic surgery? nope
11) What do you wear to bed? flannel pants, whatever tshirt i was wearing that day
12) Have you ever done anything illegal? yeahhhh
13) Can you roll your tongue? indeed
14) What kind of sneakers? all stars, man
15) Abortion? depends on the person and situation
16) Hair color? auburn
17) Future child's? what about them?
19) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? UK and NZ
20) Do you sleep with stuffed animal? used to, I still have her
21) If you won the lottery, what would you do first? get myself a car!
22) Gold or silver? silver
23) Hamburger or hot dog? hot dog
24) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? bagels, though I imagine I'd get sick of them... eventually
25) What was the last thing you touched? before my keyboard, I grabbed a hat and put it on
26) Where do you eat dinner? technically I haven't really... but the last 'meal' I ate was a boring salad and a slice of apple streusel bread
27) When's the last time you cried? uhh
28) Do you read blogs? yep
29) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? yeah, probably. I already wear boy pants
31) What's your favorite shampoo/conditioner and soap? Nature's Gate (it's all natural), Irish Spring
32) Do you talk in your sleep? I don't think so
33) Ocean or pool? pool
34) What's your favorite song at the moment? "Lucid Dreams" Franz Ferdinand (the original, not the extended album one)
35) What's your favorite color? green
36) Window seat or aisle? window
37) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life? for the most part
38) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut ? depends on how long it is, but I love twirling
39) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey? uhh...
40) Basketball or Football? football, i guess
41) 15 - 30 minutes? huh?
42) Do you drive a stick? not at the moment, but my dad's getting one for us kids to split over the summer
43) Cake or ice cream? ice cream
44) Self-conscious? indeed!
45) Have you ever given money to a bum? probably
46) When did you first fall in love? not yet
47) Where do you wish you were? with people and not cooped up in my basement...
48) Have you ever rode in an ambulance? nope
49) Can you tango? not really...
50) Last gift you received? uhh... Nicole bought me a frap today?
51) Last sport you played? does cycling count?
52) Things you spend a lot of money on? woot shirts
53) Where do you live? currently RVA, normally B'more
54) Last wedding attended? I have no idea
55) Favorite fast food restaurant? Five Guys!
56) Most hated food(s)? uhh...
57) Can you sing? indeed!
58) Last text? Anna: "Not a bad idea!"
59) What's your least fav. cleaning? bathrooms...
60) Favorite drink? tea
61) Current Crush? no one
62) Current thoughts of person posted this quiz before you? I wish he really existed...

buh-wuhhh?

2010-04-26T20:28:00.003-04:00

apparently, all it needed was to be restarted. because when i turned it back on, there was a little message about going through files before the login, and then i got a little message from mcafee saying it found and deleted a trojan.

I'M SO HAPPY I HAVE MCAFEE!!

completely unrelated: something must be wrong with me for deciding i should finally read the dr mengele fill. seriously. i know i'm going to be terrified and disgusted. but here i am. i'm going to take it slow, break up the chapters with other things. sorta like i did for SLK, only then it felt like nothing was happening so i kinda abandoned it. i also want to reread 'trials' for some reason...

[edit]
well, i'm glad it had a happy ending. i read the whole thing straight through. honestly, i was expecting more to be done to them. though i'm also glad it was just those few things, because i'm not sure if i could handle a lot of things. i still don't think i can handle the gangbang fill though, mainly because it's a pretty comic. i might be able to handle it if it was just words, but the images too might be too much. either way, i'm not ready for it.

it makes me feel better

fuuuuuuuuuuuck

2010-04-26T18:50:00.004-04:00

soooooo something's up with my laptop. it won't connect to the internet. every time i try, it says there's an issue with the network adapter drivers or hardware. so i tried to take it to the g2g help desk, since it's under warranty, but when i got there it was close to 6 and the stupid thing closes ridiculously early at 2. so i'll be dropping it off when i come to class tomorrow morning.

WHAT THIS MEANS is i will be online very little for the next week, possibly more. which is really not good for my english paper, but i have that backed up in, like, 2 other places so i should be good.

in other news, i completely finished 3 of my silk scarves and did the resist on 2 more. i finally have a sort of idea for my math final, though i have way too little time to do it in. i'm gonna try quilting a hypercube. we'll see... at least i have my own sewing machine, so i can work on it all night if i have to/no other idea comes to mind. i wish i had an iron though... also, maintenance finally came and put up this neat metal grid thing over my window so it won't get broken again, and they futzed around with the back gate so it actually swings.

NO PICTURE because yeah. i left my ehd at the house, and i'm in the library right now...

but hey, at least with no internet to distract me all the time i can get a ton of reading done!

uhh

2010-04-21T19:13:00.004-04:00

just wanted to share this bit.

“Will Shakespeare is not a murderer,” England snaps, and America’s heel hits the bedpost as he recoils. “For the love of—sweet fucking Christ, I knew the man, he’s no villain.”

“He writes a pretty convincing one.”

England scoffs. “And do you think Anthony Hopkins eats people on a regular basis?”

“Of course not,” America says, and adds, “that’s different.”

“Is it really.”

New topic.

from puella_nerdii's epic 'time travel and shakespeare and zombies' fanfic.

[to be edited with more things... probably...]

lulz, alfred trying to speak Elizabethan english...

“Have you lost your tongue, man?” one of the men behind him asks.

Right. America clears his throat, tries to grin even if it feels like he cracks his face when he does it. “Uh. Prithee, sirs! I, um. I cometh to—” Christ, he hasn’t talked like this in centuries, if ever. When do you use the –eth, again? “I cometh to attend—no, wait, to wait upon. Uh. Thy pleasure?”

The first guy looks nonplussed. “What manner of speech is this?” he asks.

“I know not,” says one of the guys in back. “I have not heard its like.”

Oops. America grins, holds his arms out to show he’s unarmed. (Ha, arms to show he’s unarmed—oh wow he’s cold.) “Lo, I am—I am a traveler! A traveler dicked around—I mean, cast down by fortune,” he’s sure he read that in one of Shakespeare’s plays, “and uh kind of strandedeth at the moment, so if you—” Crap, should he say thou instead? “Uh. If thou could point me to yon inn, I would be way grateful, because it is cold as balls out here.”

“His speech and dress are passing strange,” the third man says.

“Yeah, well, taketh one to knoweth one, buddy.”

“A traveler, sayest thou?” the lead guy asks. “Show thy papers.”

America grimaces, and not just because of the cold. “Papers?”

“Thou art a traveler, aye? Where are thy traveling papers?”

Jeez, England had bureaucracy this far back? “I, uh, left ‘em in the privy, but if you’ll giveth me one second—”

“Art thou a rogue, a madman, or both, sirrah?” asks the first, and the tip of his sword’s pointed at America’s neck. Not good. “The captain of the town watch bids thee speak, for no God-fearing man walks the streets at this hour.”

“I was walkingeth the alleyways, and did you just call me a hooker?”

The guy blinks, but doesn’t lower the sword.

“Never mind. Look, I apologize most humbly for the confusion, can you please let me go on my merry way, ‘cause uh, there art this other guy waiting for me, and he’s going to be most pissy with all of thou, if you know what I mean.”

-

“So uh,” he says, changes the subject. “You’re Shakespeare.”

“Ay.”

“Sweet.”

“Sweet?” Shakespeare frowns. “I’ve not had that appended to my name often.”

“No, no. Uh. Sweet means—cool.” Crap, he won’t know that either. “Awesome? Something you approve of?”

“Ah.” Now the soft smile’s back. America likes it. Less showy than what you’d expect from like the greatest writer of all time, but it looks like Shakespeare’s content enough with it and doesn’t want to force it further, and who’s America to argue? “You speak a most strange dialect, sir.”

“I guess so.” America cracks a grin of his own. “You guys sound strange to me.”

“Ay, that we must.”

-

“I’m from, uh. I’m from—Schnittelheim,” he says. It’s the most German thing he can come up with on short notice.
...
“Where is this Schnittelheim?”

“In Germany,” America says. “Way deep in Germany.”

“I had thought it Swedish, perhaps. Or Danish.”

“We’re pretty close to Denmark!” he says. “And we’ve got a lot of Swedes in the village.”

“The village of Schnittelheim.”

“Yeah. You like the way it sounds?”

Shakespeare doesn’t answer, just breathes in and echoes the word again. “It puts me in mind of clipping and scraping,” he says. “Marvelous qualities to evoke, truly.”

unrelated:BAWWWWW, JIN AND SUN FINALLY FOUND EACH OTHER!!!! i got a little teary. it made me incredibly happy.

and then i was promptly whiplashed by creepy not!locke.

also unrelated: doctor #11 and his showwwww. i love the internet. seriously. because 'the eleventh hour' just showed in america this past weekend, right after ep 3 showed in the uk. though, i couldn't watch either cuz i was at pawpaw's, but still. i watched ep 3 when i got back. and i couldn't stop giggling through the whole thing. and i completely lost it when the new daleks showed up. the first thing i thought of was "HOLY SHIT DALEK POWER RANGERS" and then molly said she thought of skittles: "TASTE THE EXTERMINATION." i love my nerdy friends.

GO GO DALEK RANGERS!

blinded by science

2010-04-21T18:58:00.004-04:00

last night was pretty sweet. even if i was up till 2:30 and felt wobbly in ceramics. totally worth it. i feel accomplished. one guy was totally bombed, sat there almost unconscious for, like, 3 hours. ces got pretty bombed too, didn't stop laughing for close to an hour. and i got cheerwine! and anna made a funfetti cookie penis.

silly potheads...

rawr

2010-04-19T23:05:00.002-04:00

heyyyy

sooo i forged on saturday.

and i have a summer/rest of 2010 reading list that's 19 books long, plus the 2 i'm in the middle of right now.
- the complete Dresden Files,13 books. i'm almost halfway through the first one
- the complete Hitchhiker's Guide, 5 books. i'm partway into the third
- the complete Dexter series, 5 books. i mistakenly bought the second one instead of the first...

oh, and i'm sad and angry. the author of "Screeching Bitches" has decided to quit because of too much criticism or something. some of it was just wank, but i'm really unhappy that she just decided to give up on it. i think it was almost done too. fuckers...

gosh, today was a pretty good day. i finally got to keep 2 of the cylinders i threw this morning, even if they were too short. i made progress on my first origami scarf, got all the resist down, and stretched a second one. we got out of that class early because andrea had a meeting to get to about her show. and when i got home my leatherman and random shirt were in the mailbox. yayy! the random shirt is cute: it's an apple, a banana, and an orange on bikes and skateboards, and it says "unstill life". i like it.

420 is tomorrow. i'm almost certain i'm gonna be celebrating. it'll be my first time smoking it though. it suddenly occurred to me earlier today that 'lost' is on when the partying will be happening. i think i'm gonna pick 420 over lost, because there's no way i'm watching lost stoned, that will freak me the fuck out. as chelsea said, "i can barely get lost when i'm sober".

i walked away and lost my train of thought... i should probably detail more of the fun forging weekend, but i'm feeling lazy...

romano in a dress. idk...

JOURNEYYYYY

2010-04-13T23:41:00.004-04:00

so, exciting news regarding journey. BFTW has been asked to be chasers because we're huge and awesome. wow, that sounds dirty...

THIS IS THE MOST EXCITING EMAIL I'VE GOTTEN IN, LIKE, MONTHS!! seriously, aside from all my ff.n alerts, the only emails i get are spam and order confirmations for all the shit i order online [still waiting for my tea from republic of tea and that random woot shirt. oh, and i ordered a leatherman multitool! god, i think i might have a problem...]

ANYWAY

wow, i think hoogily and his amusing blogs are rubbing off on me...

i did the first of that 30 days meme i found. favorite song = "lucid dreams" by franz ferdinand. so i drabbled, recorded myself air-drumming the whole song, and then posted both on dA.

also, i was up late last night working on my english paper, but i still only wrote 2 pages. because i'm terrible like that. and i meant to throw today too, but that didn't happen because i'm too lazy. i almost missed 'lost' because i was too caught up in being retarded with that meme thing. AND THAT WAS ALMOST A REALLY TERRIBLE THING BECAUSE I WOULD'VE MISSED HEARTWARMING HUGO/LIBBY AND DESMOND BEING SIMULTANEOUSLY AWESOME AND DOUCHEY. the dude was all zen, and then ran down wheelchair!locke in a school parking lot then drove off. but then he got thrown down a well by not-locke.

god, 'lost' makes absolutely no sense to someone who has either not watched it for any length of time. BUT OHMYGOD IT'S ALMOST OVER WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE WHEN IT ENDS!!

ok, i need to stop before i abuse my capslock key anymore than i already did...

yet more evidence of why i love candesceres. angel!portugal is grumpy.

blank 30 days meme

2010-04-13T19:18:00.001-04:00

day 01: your favorite song

day 02: your favorite movie

day 03: your favorite television program

day 04: your favorite book

day 05: your favorite quote

day 06: whatever tickles your fancy

day 07: a photo that makes you happy

day 08: a photo that makes you angry/sad

day 09: a photo you took

day 10: a photo of you taken over 10 years ago

day 11: a photo of you taken recently

day12: whatever tickles your fancy

day 13: a fictional book

day 14: a non-fictional book

day 15: a fanfic

day 16: a song that makes you cry (or nearly)

day 17: an art piece (drawing, painting, sculpture, etc)

day 18: whatever tickles your fancy

day 19: a talent of yours

day 20: a hobby of yours

day 21: a recipe

day 22: a website

day 23: a YouTube video

day 24: whatever tickles your fancy

day 25: your day, in great detail

day 26: your week, in great detail

day 27: this month, in great detail

day 28: this year, in great detail

day 29: hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days

day 30: whatever tickles your fancy

i didn't write this, i found it. i'm hoping to write little drabbles, or longer 'fics', for each one. i'll be filling this on my writing page, acenano.

i may have developed a dependancy...

2010-04-12T18:45:00.004-04:00

for every due date in english this semester, i've gone out and got red bull to keep me up the night before so i can actually meet that due date. although, the last 2 times i've gotten a 4-pack and stayed up all night. this time i only got 2, and i already drank one last night, and i won't be staying up all night. i'm so incredibly glad i don't have to have the entire paper for tomorrow. i can just write as much as i can and then stop. and finish it later. like, the day before it's due. i really hope i don't actually do that though...

i've gotten part way through the intro so far. go funnels! it's gone from "From almost the moment we are born until we die, our brains are constantly changing and developing" to "Once the process becomes second-nature, the brain can be free to concentrate on what is being said, rather than how to transfer thought to paper." still haven't gotten to my thesis yet... all in good time, i suppose. since this needs to be 13+ pages, i can take my sweet time getting there.

i'm actually rather happy with how the point-sentence outline turned out. real sentences and everything!

in other news, tomorrow i need to do some wheel practice to make up for almost a week of nothing, and figure out a better reason behind doing silk paintings of maritime signal flags besides "hey, this is cool!"

also, instead of going home this weekend for carver celebration, i'm letting heather take my ticket and going to paw-paw's to learn to weld instead. i'm still kinda mixed about it, but i feel kinda bad because i haven't seen him in probably close to 2 years. and i really do want to learn to weld.

oh, also! i planned out my course load for the next 2 years. i have a feeling i'll be stuck with 17 credits again in the fall, but only 14 by spring 2012. which hopefully will be awesome. i need to pick an english class and a random elective for the fall though. registration is next week.

saturday was fun. went to belle isle - finally! - with emily and 2 of her roommates. fun times mostly... a kid slipped into the river and went down some of the rapids before a couple guys fished him out. emily helped pull him out. it was pretty scary.

and then when we went to the intercultural festival, she embellished the story with more daring exploits, including delivering a baby, fighting off a polar bear, shooting a nazi, and riding unicorns. i wish my life was that exciting...

i don't think i've talked about a hetalia fic in a while. really there's nothing new... though i occasionally feel the need to rant about canada and french. so i will. because he doesn't speak french-french, he speaks french-canadian. which is completely different. so it always bothers me when some author has him speaking french-french, especially swear words. because it's really easy to find quebecois swear words. they're on wikipedia, for fuck's sake! and that's one of the reasons i so enjoy reading everything orangepencils writes. she lives in quebec and speaks quebecois and all her canadians speak quebecois, not metropolitan french. especially quebec. he only speaks quebecois. [well, not only, he just doesn't like english.] the only reason i remembered this today was because folie a plusiers has been updated recently [finally!] and canada speaks french-french. and suddenly i realized how much it bothered me, the use of french swears, rather than quebecois ones. but i'm worried the author would take it the wrong way if i suggested using quebecois, especially swears, rather than french. i wish i could find a for-real online translator... oh well...

unrelated: it's not even 8, and i'm almost finished that red bull. not cool.

rant-related. and because it's sexy.

feed me, seymour!

2010-04-06T22:54:00.004-04:00

except not really...

i've been sick today. as in, throwing-up sick, not sneezing sick. and it seems that i only throw up after i eat things that are not saltines. the first time was after half a pbj, a few cheez toast crackers, and a peach-mango fruit 2day drink. and the second time was oatmeal with maple syrup. i have no idea what's wrong.

yum. i'm in for a diet of saltines, ginger ale, and peptobismol.

but the good news about today: someone is coming to fix the leaky sink tomorrow, and 'lost' was full of win. lots of true love happenings in the flash-sideways, and desmond is all zen after a second run-in with mass amounts of electromagnetism. crazy.

BUT anyway. saturday. or, well, this past weekend.

friday i hung out with yasha and shelley. separately, but yeah. toured towson mall for the first time in probably a couple years. finally got me some orange eyeliner and some sweet gir slides for $10. hot topic can indeed be cool. got cheesecake from cheesecake factory. that was delicious.

but SATURDAY. OH MY GODDDDD! it was international pillow fight day, so yasha and i went down to dc for some festivities. we missed the first fight by the washington monument, but we played games at dupont circle. i got whacked pretty hard early on in the face and smashed my glasses into my eye. they got knocked off too many times to count. we ran into kevin and a bunch of other guys from BFTW. aside from the initial long brawl, which lasted for probably half an hour and included many charges, we played capture the pillowcase, zombie tag, and a championship elimination.

here's the flickr pool.

when i got back on sunday i threw with angela. i'm still having trouble with those cylinders. i can get the form right but not the height, or the height and not the form. maybe if i start with more clay i can get the height that i need while still keeping the form. i'll try that next time i go in. not sure if it'll be tomorrow or not, depends on my stomach.

not hetalia! me from the pillow fight. from the flickr pool.

dead

2010-03-30T09:22:00.003-04:00

i was up all night finishing that paper. i finished it just before 8, including re-typing the works cited page. i futzed with a bit of the spacing so it's more obviously 6 pages, even though technically it's just under 5.5. whatever, i don't care.

i'm gonna turn this thing in, stay conscious through whatever he has to say, and then go nap till 1:30. it'll be awesome.

english is gonna be the death of me...

2010-03-29T16:59:00.005-04:00

for serious, no joke. i have to write this entire review of research paper tonight. i'm expecting it to be an all-nighter, which is going to suck. at least i don't have math and i can sleep through cinema.

had my advising appointment today. nothing really new. i'm taking 2 summer classes this summer, and i calculated i can take 14-15 credits a semester for the next 2 years to get everything done. after this semester i'll have 61/123, and i'm taking 7 this summer. i'm really happy with the way the summer courses are organized. i'm taking 2 3-week long intensive courses: psych 101 and art of india. i have each for 3 hours a day, 5 days a week. psych at 9, history at 3. there's about a week between the end of finals and the start of summer classes, and my sessions are done by june 11. so i'll be going back to work later than usual, but oh well.

i really don't have anything else to talk about. i only have a few classes this week. no ceramics and no math, which is awesome, though i still have to go in and practice on the wheel. only 1 textiles class, and the usual cinema and english classes.

mmm, red bull.

ugh, this is going to kill me, isn't it...

i'm going home this weekend to attend a giant pillow fight in dc with yasha. i might be hanging out with shelley as well, which will be sweet. and i have to plan out when i'm taking what courses for the rest of college with dad. i'm already planning on taking 3 studios in the fall: two textiles and 1 drawing. i'm really excited about drawing, mainly because after the basic one i can take life drawing. that'll have to make up for the fact that apparently i can't take anatomy... maybe i can squeeze into anatomy for the dancer and fill my open electives.

grr, degree requirements are a bitch and a half to deal with...

fuck school, man...

a meme thing from cesley

2010-03-28T12:26:00.000-04:00

This is seriously going to get personal, you ready?
suuure

Gonna do anything new this year?
already done several new things, and hopefully more to come

The last time you felt honestly heart broken?
last week's "lost" was pretty heartbreaking...

Are you craving something?
bagel. whoa, hey, there's a bagel!

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
my meds... that would make everything so much easier...

Would you rather have ten kids, or none?
none

What's something not many people know about you?
not sure the internet is the way to go with revealing that kinda stuff...

Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
probably not

Have you ever swallowed a watermelon seed?
people haven't?

Do you currently have a hickey?
nope

Who did you last go out to eat with?
angelaaaa

Are you planning on watching New Moon?
i really just want to skip the end when they're in italy and forget about all that terrible angst...

Miss someone?
oh yeah

Be honest, do you like people in general?
not really

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
uhh

Now your cell phone, what color is it?
purple!

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
not yet, i just woke up

So, what do you want for your birthday?
a bass!

What is your mom saved as in your phone?
mom. but she has a pic of her motorcycle, so that's cool, right?

Do you tell your parent's everything?
psh

What do you like more, Fruits or Veggies?
fruits!

Who do you talk to the most about your problems?
yasha and angela

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
cigarettes, yeah, probably.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?
what kinda question is that? i'llprobably hurt myself trying to finish this english assginment...

Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
present and very near future, like this coming week

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
weekends tend to be around 12, weeknights tend to be around 5-6

Are you easy to get along with?
once i stop being shy and actually engaging, yeah i think so

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
no way

What was the last drink that you had?
water

When was the last time you were sick?
i have a feeling i'm constantly on a low simmer with colds... maybe it has to do with my basement room, but i'm sniffly all the time

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
yeah, but i don't think i will

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before

What's your favorite perfume/cologne?
i really don't wear perfume...

Do you have a good reputation?
i'd like to think so

Have you ever cheated?
not in relationships

Ever made someone cry and laughed?
at the same time? don't think so

Who do you wanna spend the rest of your life with?
no clue

How many jerks do you know?
a few? idk

Favorite color?
greens

Who made you mad today?
i really only just got up... but i was annoyed earlier by loud people outside my window at 8...

Are you upset?
not really

One question that's on your mind?
am i actually gonna do homework today?

Person you're trying to ignore?
no one

If you could kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
uhh, i can't even remember who that was...

Do you regret things?
i regret random little things, and they way i went about ending my last relationship.

Do you think anyone will read your answers?
probably not, but whatevs

Who do you trust?
yasha, definitely. and a couple others

Do you forgive easily?
generally, yeah

What's on your mind?
english... AHHHHHHH! and my silk painting, but that'll hopefully be fun. and classes...

If you could apologize to anyone right now, who would it be?
i'm sorry if it seems like i led you on. i didn't really understand myself at the time, and now that i do, i know i was kinda a bitch to do that to you. i'm glad, though, that you seem better now.

Are you honest?
i try to be

What are you listening to?
voxtrot, yeahh

Are looks important?
unfortunately, yeah

What flavor of chapstick did you last use?
burt's bees original. mmm

Where did you get the shirt that you're wearing?
my bro, and he from some little league

Is anybody in the room with you right now?
just me

Do your socks constantly mis-match?
nope

Have you ever been on fmylife.com?
i used to like it, but then i found mlia, and then i forgot about both

Aside from your own, whose house did you last set foot into?
angela's dorm? does that count?

Wishing you could have said something to someone when you had the chance?
yeah

Fess up, who was the last person you thought about kissing?
uhh...

Last picture comment was from?
shelley

Ever tackled someone to the ground?
not quite to the ground, we were at work. but yeahhh

How many people have you hugged in the past week?
quite a few, i can assure you

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
probably, but i have no idea who

Do you have both a loud side and a quiet side?
the quiet side is bigger, but sometimes i can be loud

Are you a stressed out person?
yesssss

Are your parents over the age of 40?
quite

How are you feeling?
cold, hungry, sleepy

Are you ready to get out of this town?
not quite yet, though i certainly don't plan on staying in this town

How important is trust?
extremely

Are you the youngest of your siblings?
nope

I bet someone's on your mind right now?
sure

Have you ever slapped someone?
not that i can think of

Will tomorrow be better than today?
no classes = yes. giant-ish english paper = no

Are you a naturally happy person? Or is the happiness forced?
naturally neutral, with a tendency towards happy

Has anyone ever drunk called/texted you?
a couple times, yeah. though generally it's more high than drunk. my friends are cool like that...

sound of a thousand whispering words

2010-03-22T22:38:00.004-04:00

[again with the song lyrics...]

today was a really good first day back. it was all around a complete success, though maybe not with regards to food...

i learned how to center and make a little cup-bowl on the wheel today. i made 6 in about an hour and a half and got to leave early. i also got incredibly messy. like, the knees of my pants were rather clay-y, as was my shirt. but it was fun and i was happy that i figured out how to do it so fast. i need to remember to bring a container for water wednesday though... but yeah, incredibly fun and satisfying.

not so fun inbetween period, though i ate some tasty soup. attempted to do my quilt patterns, but realized i didn't give myself nearly enough time so yeah. the walk to class was really fun though. literally, as soon as i stepped out of the door it started pouring like crazy, so i had to grab my umbrella before locking the door. between gilmer and goshen i discovered my shoes were soaked through completely. along goshen i took note of my state of wet from the waist down. and by the time i got to the classroom it had stopped raining. i took my shoes off and spent class barefoot, which was pretty fun. the floor of the dye room is strangely gritty though. and the hall to jewelry and fibers has a very warm floor.

i got all my silk painting on the 2 restisted parts done. they look pretty good, even though my shaky hands made my aim sorta wonky... my left palm is mostly covered in dye, green for the most part, as a result of icky bottle caps. oh well. more mess! the first quadrant is purple-y mainly, and the second one is greens. i'm not really sure how to go about the third one color wise... i'll figure it out wednesday.

after class i hit up rite aid and then went to anna's to get a haircut. we went for the angled bob, which looks pretty cool. i don't have any pictures yet, but anna took a couple. and i flipped her off brit-style in one because i was feeling weird. idk...

i hung out with anna, tay, and hassim for a few hours after that. we ate at 5 guys - or, they did, i brought my smoothie over. we went to coldstone and tay got emily to sing. we went to the top of the bookstore parking deck and just loitered for a while. it was really cold though, and windy, so we left. we cut through the fab and visited jenny in her studio. and then we went back to biggs. hassim is getting into film photography, so i talked to him a bit about it. it was nice to be able to still help someone with my vast knowledge of photography.

all in all, a good night. my shirt is really itchy though, even though i had a towel on my shoulders.

i'm not looking forward to tomorrow at all... i really need to write this english paper, but i really can't see that happening... i got a preemptive 4-pack of red bull. hopefully it won't come down to that though.

america with his most common partners. i really like this artist's style.

here comes the nighttime

2010-03-21T22:55:00.003-04:00

[rawr, matt & kim is awesome. are awesome? one of those...]

i got to work produce yesterday. it was kinda fun. and heavy. seriously, one bucket of just lettuce weighed so much! i had to get joe to get one such bucket down from where barret stashed it too high... but yeah. i ran produce for a good 4 or 5 hours. i thought i did a pretty good job. i ended up getting called to bag a lot around 5 or 6, and when i finally made it back produce was a mess. seriously, there were almost no bananas left. also, within an hour of me working it when i got there, when i was putting up bananas [we went through 5 boxes while i was there. no joke...] barret offered me a summer job at more than i make now. sooo yay! he said i had the hands for it, because i was being careful and specific with my banana placement, instead of just kinda tossing them up there. awesome.

i did my taxes last night. refunds all around!

drove back to rva today. exciting. i don't know what it is about 95, but it seriously always puts me to sleep. which is really bad when i'm driving... but yeah, i got in before 11, which was awesome. and then i sat around online til, like, 2 before showering... and then sitting around some more until close to 5 before getting some food. i ended up getting 5 guys and heading to the fab to finish my resisting. so that's done. none of the rest of my homework is though... i'm really terrible, and this week is going to suck.

i've got a paper due thursday morning and some sort of math creation due thursday afternoon. neither of which have even been started. actually, the document for english has the page number header coded in, my info blurb, and a title. but that's the easy part. god, i'm so totally screwed. i still need to find out current handwriting rehabilitation methods. i can tell this week is going to be terrible.

as for math, i know i want to do a narwhal tessellation. maybe something like this, only i have no idea what to put in the sky...

mmmmm, this is an amazing story. it makes me feel guilty for loving it so much...

i wish i brought my arnica...

2010-03-18T12:29:00.003-04:00

work work work

i always forget how sore it makes me, especially when i haven't done any real physical labor for a couple months now. and this is just after 2 days of working.

monday was fun in a pointless way. yasha and i went to arundel mills and just kinda wandered around. i bought us lunch, then ice cream. we didn't really do anything. we wandered around bass pro shops, looking at guns mostly, we went to dave and buster's to ask about his job, we looked through spencers. really, that's it. then we drove back, i bought him a couple gallons of gas, and he took me home. not exciting, but it beats sitting at home all day ignoring my homework...

work on tuesday. i basically spent all day bagging and fronting random things. quite boring, but oh well. it was money.

work on wednesday. i wore my green shirt. spent all day climbing on top of things and moving what was on top of the produce cooler and bathrooms to the new extra space, which we're just borrowing while the renovations are happening. i was confused as to why they had two of the smallest people, me and tim, climbing giant ladders and lifting heavy things. i finished up the last of it a little before 6.

it's been so nice these last couple of days. saturday was pretty gross, so was sunday. monday was okay, but tuesday and wednesday were so nice. i ate my lunch yesterday in the trunk of the wagon outside listening to the radio. i'm gonna do it again today.

also, i get to see will today!

well, i need to go attempt to pack a lunch before work. horray...

this needs no explanation. it's just absofuckinglutely amazing beyond all words.

break? what break?

2010-03-15T00:15:00.005-04:00

first of all: i have a weird combination of "love game" by lady gaga, "living in the sky with diamonds" by cobra starship, and "the bird and the worm" by owl city stuck in my head. it's so strange... it goes something like, "hold me and love me - if you're the bird - we're living in the sky with diamonds." now imagine it with the melodies. weird.

also: fala got a twitter, and after some unsuccessful searches we found each other. i'm sort of getting into twitter now. i can't say 'again' cuz i was never very into it before... but yeah.

i've got work over break. money-work. like, more than i was expecting. i'm working everyday tuesday thru saturday. i was hoping to leave saturday so i had all of sunday to futz around and do the stupid resist, but i'll have to go back sunday.

tues: 12-8p
wed: 10-6p
thurs: 1:30-9:30p
fri: 2:30-9:30p
sat: 12-8p

this throws a wrench in my yasha plans, so we're gonna do something tomorrow after he gets out of class. no idea what, but i offered him gas money since i know he never has enough of it. i'm hoping to work on my english paper tomorrow, but we'll see how that goes.

daylight savings time started. the sucky version, where i lost an hour. and i didn't even sleep very well last night. so, i was still laughing loudly at 11:30 before i remembered everyone else was in bed and i should really be quiet because it's not 10:30 like my body is convinced it is. so now i'm still rather awake. it's altogether unfortunate.

i did something i'm terribly ashamed of today. like you wouldn't believe. i need to remember to delete my history...

ok, awesome-fill-of-the-moment time. it's called "the screeching bitches" and so far it's pretty awesome. in general, it's about the awkward forming of a band. i have to say in general because the request is rather detailed and awesome. part of the reason i love it so is because of french-canadian!matthew because that is win.

full prompt:
Alfred is in a band with Arthur and Francis. Recently they lost their drummer in the Incident and now they need a new one. Francis drags his ex-military cousin from Quebec, Mattieu in for a session and the poor guy is basically strong armed into joining.

At first Mattie seems quiet and polite but Alfred realizes that the Canadian is a master of the art of stealth snark. Alfred and Mattie settle into something of a love/hate kind of friendship, but eventually it stirs up into something a little hotter and a lot deeper.

Must haves:
1. Mattie has ptsd, is an autodidact, is writing (poetry, short stories, novels, everything really) as he lives/wastes his life away on Francis's couch.
2. Alfred is an astrophysics doctorate student.

the filler is slightly off in her part numbering, but that's just me being ridiculous... i'm half convinced bay is the writer, but i think that's because i want her to be writing something i'm reading. she mentioned working on a new fill, so i'm just hoping i managed to find it because she's awesome.

matt told the rents he smokes. which slightly surprises me - the telling-the-rents part, not the smoking part. i knew he smoked a while ago. so whenever he 'goes for a walk' it's more obvious he's going out to smoke.

mom made fudge. it's delicious. and it's just chocolate chips, condensed milk, vanilla, and a bit of salt.

i've recently been going back through all my posts here and editing my tags. like, deleting the random ones that only have one use. i may just go back the beginning and retag everything, but i feel like that's pointless and will be really weird for me, rereading everything i've done since august 2008. because i did some strange things, like that pic-a-day thing back in like october 08. yeah.

and my spelling is sucking right now. i should probably just brush my teeth [which i'm making a point of doing every night starting with break], taking that melatonin, and and winding down.

complete crack. i have to say, the game is tailor-made for england, and has quite the potential for addiction.

and another one for today!

2010-03-13T23:09:00.003-05:00

i really wanted to write something, so i meditated on my hair. i'm not sure if 'meditated' is the right word, but i wrote a little piece about my hair and why i like it. i decided to turn my nanowrimo journal into a general writing journal so as to not clutter this one.

entry in 'the self'
dA entry

random: i really like the combination of purple and green. like, i once did my eyes like this: green eyes, purple liner, purple shadow, green mascara. and right now my nails are green and i tried to do a sort of french nails thing with purple, only it didn't really work. but my class ring is purple.

home again, home again, etc...

2010-03-13T15:54:00.003-05:00

took the greyhound home yesterday for break. exciting, as usual. mom picked me up because dad was working and yasha was on his way to new york with heather for the tim burton exhibit. and everyone who knows him is incredibly jealous. i know i am...

anyway, everything has been going well so far. i brought up the unfortunate housing situation over dinner at red lobster, and when we got home i walled nicole. so i am confident we'll be living together next year, which should be fun. seriously, no sarcasm there. hopefully it'll all work out, seeing as we're both rather prone to add... we should probably start looking for places soon.

matt didn't get into college park, but he did get into cua and pitt. we're still waiting for umbc, and i forget what's up with vt.

dad's going to cali [i think] for the week for work. which sucks for family time, but means there's less people fighting over cars. at least i got to see him some before he left. he's taking a red eye back next sunday. i'm not sure what this means for transport back. i do want to come back saturday because i've gotta work on my silk painting. i need to have all the resisting done by class on monday.

i've got work to do over break, which is unfortunate. i have to work on my review of research paper for english and figure out how my actual paper is going down. i need to come up with ideas for quilt patterns, though that should be pretty easy. i have to do my math final, which i'm pretty sure is going to be some sort of narwhal tessellation. just because. and i may be working-working, though dan hasn't gotten back to me.

and i've got some half-baked [heh] plans for st patty's day with yasha. we're hanging out during the day, because he's got plans with heather for the evening/night. over im we proposed plans, which led to a really weird conversation involving cross-dressing [that's saved as a draft here so i can remember it forever], but i'm realizing i'm not sure exactly how the pre-plan is going to work out. he needs to acquire things. i hope he does. because yeah. [slightly related: i'm hoping 420 pans out for me as well...]

recently i broke down and downloaded a shit-ton of owl city. stupid fsts getting me interested in stuff i normally wouldn't be... like german industrial rock. and french rap - wait, that was jenny. anyway... yeah, i have owl city, which led to me breaking down and getting mgmt, because dammit, it's catchy. which reminded me to download matt & kim, even though they're not related to mgmt at all. oh, my musical escapades...

oh god, i almost started talking about this incredible fic i finished reading, but then i remembered exactly how incredibly inappropriate it is. because it really is. it makes me feel terrible and giddy at the same time, and i love it. grr. stupid guilty pleasures putting me on trains to hell...

uhh... i want to keep talking, but i have no idea what else to say...

well, i just finished blood-winged amazing story, "at the end of all things." and i'm terribly sad that it's over. wahhhh, i don't want it to be over! also, i want her to write more prucan, but that's really beside the point... i'm so sad, i'm rereading the whole thing. or i'm just really bored and craving me some prucan...

idek... pixiv is cool.

cooking adventures!

2010-03-10T19:00:00.003-05:00

i had such a hard time cooking my fish and baking some sticky buns...

first, the fish wasn't thawed so i had to mess around with running it under water for a while... but by the time i was ready to cook it, it still wasn't really thawed. i went ahead anyway. not surprisingly, i found some raw-ish bits near the skin. i flipped it over at one point, and when it landed i got attacked by hot oil. i'm not burned, thank goodness, but i had to clean it off the floor and such. not cool...

then, [or, simultaneously] i couldn't open the sticky bun tube, because kroger sucks. i arranged them in my brownie pan with the goo and the nuts, then remembered i had a bread pan. so i moved them over, and instead of it being too big, it was too small. and i had to bake it for an extra 12 minutes because our oven sucks. oh well, i've got breakfast.

i need to head back to the fab soon to fix my silk so it'll stop being retarded. i'm bringing my hammer and my ambition. i might do some more resist, depends on how bored i'm feeling.

i've started french braiding my bangs down the side of my head and behind my ear. because they're annoying. i think i'm gonna try braiding some fuzzy yarn in with it to make it longer for no reason.

also, aced my film midterm and the embroidery project and my bibs. awesome.

i've got one class left till i'm on break. yay! also, we've got water again at home! double yay!

i have no idea, i just picked it. but it's hilarious.

i needa title for these shoes...

2010-03-06T20:37:00.005-05:00

so, last night i watched 'the fountain'. and i kept associating hugh jackman with a canadian lumberjack, thanks to wolverine, and then i would remind myself he's actually australian, and then i thought of how good he is with accents.

anyway.

i finished the trees and got them mostly attached to the shoe. but i decided my time would be better spent doing the river, so i started it.

movies watched:
- the fountain
-the darjeeling limited
- franklyn

in other [depressing] news, my period hit hard today. i spent a couple hours curled up dozing and trying to ride out the cramps. it's really annoying how sometimes i have ridiculously debilitating cramps, and sometimes i've got almost none. last semester i left jewelry early they were so bad. today i stayed in bed, and then i went to make a sandwich cuz i was starving, i ended up spending at least half an hour semi-conscious on the sofa.

i'm seeing "alice in wonderland" tomorrow with angela. hopefully it'll be awesome. after the movie i'm gonna watch the oscars.

and i need to stop messing around and get back to work. i've done about 2.5 sq in on the river, and i need to kick up the pace.

related: switzerland as alice. ok, maybe it's just crack...

what is this?!

2010-03-06T19:26:00.003-05:00

just... it blew my mind with awesome.

writeranon/readeranon

seriously. as the first commenteranon said, "you had me at 'I'll F your 5, bitch.'"

fucking win.

anyway... back to the movies and the embroidery.

and some original himaruya! i think that's the first appearance of mochimerica. maybe the second... i forget...

tweeking

2010-03-05T23:01:00.005-05:00

not really, though.

but yeah. yesterday i ended my sleep-fast. 38 straight hours of not sleeping. i was doing that awkward droopy-eye sleep thing in math, though. it's no wonder i took no notes. but i get to make a for real tessellation for class tuesday, as well as my ambigram. ehh, i'll do that monday night.

but starting around 9 last night i started to get kinda loopy. and then i kept twitching my legs and fidgeting. and then i realized it was that same body-high from new years. well, first i left loopy messages on angela's wall about burn notice and sent yasha a couple loopy texts. and put in my status something about grammar not being real.

went to bed at 10, started gaining consciousness again close to noon. and those 14 hours were amazing.

i went to kroger, just because. got some fruit and a bunch of drinks and some ben & jerrys. and i remembered why i might've purposely lost my first pairs of ipod headphones: the right one never stays in my ear because for some reason that ear canal is smaller than my left one. so, while i get better sound quality and volume with those ones, i'll be switching to my other ones that actually stay on my head.

i made mac & cheese for dinner and mixed in some leftover alfredo 'sauce' that was kinda just cheesey-cream with melted butter. it had separated and looked funny but tasted yummy.

in other news, i finished the first embroidery! i just need to attach it to the shoe and do the detail work.

the first large part was on angela's wall. the rest is mine. and then that's the texts at the bottom. go paint!

sleep is for the carefree

2010-03-03T17:44:00.008-05:00

putting the pic at the beginning today. evil!steampunk!arthur by annie. it really is quite amazing.

i got a 4-pack of red bull after textiles. opened the first one at 5:05. it's really the only energy drink i can stand to drink. i am fully expecting to be up literally all night working on these bibs. it's going to suck, yes. and how done i am by about 9 determines whether i'll be going to class or not.

first order of business: finish the one from last week. 3 pages left to summarize, and it's done.

i'll do a couple books after that, considering they'll take the longest to 'read'. i'm just going to skim, but still. and i'll periodically check my hetalia pages for a bit of a distraction. i'll have to get food at some point. i've got my music playing, and i can sort through it for what to put on the new ipod. i got through q last night, though that leaves the giant sections of shiny toy guns and tegan & sara to go.

i'll update my progress here.

6:37p
mmmm. when i drink red bull, my tummy feels warm.

7:00p
so, with most of the first one gone, i certainly have energy, though i seem to be lacking in the focus department...

7:30p
finally finished that bib from last week. short intermission, maybe a sandwich, and on to new things.

8:08p
made myself a sandwich. ces was making her dinner too. she's also making coffee to aide in the writing of bibliographies, in the same way i have red bull. i'm not sure if anyone in this house will be sleeping tonight.

8:41p
finished the first red bull. jeez, that took me almost 4 hours to drink! i'm gonna wait a little before getting another. i started one of the book sources.

8:55p
opened red bull #2.

9:09p
hey, i found the usb for my ipod! related: i'm pretty sure my new ipod came today, only they needed a signature and no one was here so i have to pick it up from the post office tomorrow.

9:42p
so the first book i picked is more about composition than handwriting, so i scrapped that. new book is short and has illustrations! but i can't find anything about the author, which really sucks. also, i feel like little!alfred on my itunes is cheering me on. i can do this! yeah!

10:56p
i'm awake, but i feel tired. like, i'm kinda sleepy, but i know i can't actually sleep. and i just suddenly had the wild idea to write a paper about energy drinks, except that's dumb and it's way too late to change my idea.

11:04p
gosh, i miss the olympics. also, my left eye is acting up. grr

11:39p
finished the second red bull. still have 3 sources to go...

11:42p
i just discovered a couple pics on my camera itself, not the card. there's one that's really cool, a night shot with light blurs, but i have no way of getting it off. sad...

12:08a
finally finished one! time to get another red bull and go through the other book...

12:21a
knowing i won't be sleeping make me feel like i have plenty of time to finish. i have basically 9 hours till it's due, though really that's probably about 8 hours of actual working time, since i'll need breakfast, time to change, time to walk there and to print. i might be able to make it, but i'm not sure. i think i'm gonna do the short pdf in a bit. i need some random first... still haven't opened the third, though it's sitting here waiting.

12:31a
here goes number 3. i'm actually feeling a bit dizzy and hot, which is worrying. i turned off the heat a little while ago, and i've got my heater going on my feet. i really hope my heart doesn't explode or something. i think my heartbeat might be a little slow. i feel mentally exhausted, but physically awake. and it's only 12:34. i think i'm going to take a short break and sit on my bed for a little. the red bull is staying at the desk.

1:02a
my eyes are starting to have trouble focusing. my body is falling asleep. but i can't sleep yet. cesley is nearly done, though will be up for a while more with all that coffee she drank. time to get back to work. also, i'm not sure if my choice in fun-reading was good... i reread some of the hetaliaspotting/requiem for a nation drabbles, which are really depressing and dark. i feel like i should read something more ridiculous to wake me back up before attempting more english. but i really should just drink some more red bull and knuckle down. next between-reading break then.

1:39a
i managed to find an article about how to help adults recover from traumatic brain injuries that was referenced in a similar article about adolescents. unfortunately, i'm having trouble getting to it for free, which is really sucky. i figured it would be better to use the original version, since i'm comparing child brains to adult brains, but it's looking like i'll have to take the teens...

1:48a
yes i found it! awesome! i think i'll use the teen one too.

2:17a
man, i would love to not be doing this. seriously. but i need to finish it at some point today, and the more i get done while i'm forced awake the less i'll have to do later when i'm exhausted from not sleeping and stressed by other assignments. i've allotted thursday to be spent on this in some fashion, with the rest of the weekend being embroidery. i need to do this, or i risk failing. yasha really is right about that. i can't fail this. i won't let myself. having to take this class again would be even worse, and i'd really hate myself. i'm half tempted to take a full hour to disengage my brain and do something else, but i'm not sure if i really have the time.

2:51a
i'm hungry. i'm gonna get some cereal in a bit. i'm having trouble really focusing on what i'm reading. i'm reading it out loud, but it's not really registering. i guess it's probably time for another break...

3:39a
i really don't want to go back to work. but i have to. fuuuuuck. also, i'm slightly worried about my heater. it's been on for hours now and smells slightly of melting plastic...

3:47a
finished the third red bull. i'm definitely going to hold off on the fourth one for as long as i can. i'm slightly worried that i drank those 3 in under 11 hours. i really hope i don't die...

4:04a
holy crap, my feet are so warm! also, i feel like i'd be better off just sorta skimming this article. i really can't concentrate for long on all this science and psychology and neurology... also, ces is done. she finished a while ago, but i forgot to mention it. not sure if she'll be able to fall asleep though. liz is doing laundry. i'm not sure why she always does it late at night. and no, i don't think i'll be able to finish in the next 4.5 hours. my new goal: noon! that's 8 hours.

4:32a
i feel like my attention is wandering more and more. i have a feeling i would be better served to stop working for a while, maybe even leave my laptop, and do something completely unrelated. then again, i keep doing basically that, and nothing is helping. i think i'm going to lie down in bed and mess with music and play games, rather than do any form of reading. i hope this works... i'm definitely not going to class...

6:03a
i spent the last hour and a half organizing the playlist for my nano. i got all the way through tegan and sara, and it's 13.5G so far. i figure i've got about 2G left. i may have to go back through it again and ditch some things to make sure what i want will fit. i'm really excited. i'm about ready to start up again. i'm gonna work from my bed where it's toasty and comfy. when i go up for breakfast at 8 i'm gonna make tea and turn the heat on. i figure i'll save the last red bull for when i start to fade during the day.

6:21a
it's getting to sunrise. my first ever true all-nighter was somewhat successful. i'm not sure if i'm happy i did it, because the whole process was rather unhealthy, but it was beneficial. mostly. as it is, i have a feeling i'm going to be spending all the free time i have finishing...

6:46a
i definitely feel more productive now than i did at 4:30. that break definitely helped me get some focus back.

6:55a
whoa. i feel weirdly tingly all over and i think i'm starting to fall asleep. i think i'm gonna get breakfast and tea now, probably take a caffeine pill later.

7:20a
finally finished! only 2 left. i'm hoping i can get one more done before math, and the last one after math. ok, food and tea for real now.

8:16a
ok, food consumed, tea mostly gone, time to get cracking again. not looking forward to this...

8:37a
i hear maintenance starting the digging work outside of my closet. horray! yesterday they even fixed the front porch light! i'm excited!

9:24a
i'm having a little trouble staying awake now. at least the article i'm reading is written as if for people unfamiliar with the subject, so there's a lot of explanation. mmmmmy bed is toasty.

10:30a
and done with that one! only one to go, but i'm gonna wait to start it. i really need to rest my brain, even though i was on a roll with that one.

slow down, life!

2010-03-02T22:43:00.008-05:00

i am seriously fucked.

i'm really tempted to say i slept in thursday and email the final bib later in the day, like after math. which, i keep remembering, i have to create an ambigram for.

as it is, i'm going to be up till at least 2 tonight meeting my goal of finishing the half i started yesterday, and 2 more. and then i get to skim books to write the other 2 tomorrow. i just remembered i have to finish my design for my silk painting by 2 tomorrow, and i really wish i could skip ceramics but i don't want to fall behind on something else. i don't think i'll be sleeping tomorrow night. and i won't be sleeping through class, i'll be finishing these god-awful bibliographies.

so. things to do this week:
- silk painting design: due 2p 3/3
- 4 and 2 halves annotated bibliographies: due 9:30a 3/4
- ambigram of some word: due 12:30p 3/4
- the rest of ansel embroideries [finish 1, entire other]: due 1-2p 3/8

at least i have the weekend for the embroideries. because i have to completely ignore that until i finish english.

times to work:
3/2: now-2a [bibs]
3/3: 12-2p [bibs, silk design, shower?], 5p-?? [bibs, ambigram?]
3/4: 2p-1a [embroidery]
rest of the weekend for embroidery

and i haven't even had time to shower. i feel so gross, but i don't feel like i can spare the time. i'm going to try between class tomorrow.

i feel slightly better having written exactly what i need to do. slightly. i really shouldn't have baked brownies today, or gone through itunes for what to put on my new ipod when it comes, or even watched 'lost'. because that was 3 hours right there.

i am so totally fucked.

red bull and 5 hour energy are going to be my best friends from now until monday. or, well, from when i get some till monday...

something ridiculous to make me feel better. from the kink meme.

ETA:
i've also managed to chew a part of my lip rather raw. it feels funny on my mug...

[again]
oh god. it's 1, and i'm reading out loud, and hearing myself read what my eyes are seeing, but my brain is not interpreting anything that's going on. i managed to schedule out my life from tomorrow morning till sunday night, though i'm already planning on changing it. i have a feeling i'm going to 'sleep through' english, and am already composing an email to lodge regarding sending him my finished bib by thursday night. i'm going to be watching so many movies this weekend... at least 10. good thing i've got 15 unwatched ones saved...

[again again]
it's 2:30 and i finally finished the one i started yesterday [meaning monday]. fuck i'm in such deep shit with this. i'm done for the night though. so i'm winding down and waiting for the melatonin to set in. yeah, i'm totally screwed...

sadness...

2010-03-01T19:18:00.007-05:00

soooo the olympics are over now. and i don't know what to do with myself.

saturday's curling gold medal game was pretty fun. mainly because of the pants. sadly, they weren't the red-white-blue ones, but the red-white-grey ones. still. there was someone from canada who had an air horn and blew it a few of the times norway was shooting [or whatever it's called...]. he got booed by the fans for being a rude ass. and then when canada won i sang the random parts of their national anthem i know.

but holy shit sunday's hockey gold medal game was so intense! seriously. canada got 2 in the first period, but us scored once in the second and again no even a minute before the end of the third. oh god! i was trying to do my embroidery while watching, but by then i had pretty much abandoned it. way too intense. so, SUDDEN DEATH OVERTIME!! AND CANADA SCORED!!!! god i was so excited!!! i was following a spam thread on the hetalia com, filled with strange and random bouts of national pride. but, alas, i was deleted. stupid mods... i knew, though, that if canada lost they would be the most depressed silver medalists in the history of forever.

and then i made myself celebratory pancakes. i put a little hot chocolate mix in and poured the rest of the maple syrup in the microwave bottle. i used the last of the bisquick to make 3 giant pancakes of delicious. and the 'canada' on facebook enjoyed my antics.

the closing was so fucking weird. william shatner and michael j fox talked about being canadian, there were dancing mounties, giant inflatable beavers, a kid dressed as a hockey puck, and i had no idea what i was watching. at all. it was just so weirdly amazing. except nbc sucks... but i missed he nickelback/avril lavgne concert, which is totally okay with me.

in other news, i'm desperately procrastinating on my bibliographies. like nobody's business. it's really bad, but i just can't motivate myself to work. and i would skip the class they're due, except we don't really have class next week, only one-on-one meetings. so i have 5 to do by class thursday. i need to just bookmark my hetalia pages and close the windows...

in other news, yasha is back to being communicable! [i'm not sure if that's the right word... though nicole may argue he is an easily-spreadable disease...] he got a new phone that works finally, and we had fun conversations last night. it made me very happy to have him back. not that he went anywhere...

i managed to successfully cook salmon for dinner today. the flesh-y side was nice and crispy golden brown, and all the flesh was cooked. and i even had a salad!

i ordered a new-ish ipod today. i got a light green 16G nano, 4th gen. not the most recent, the one with the camera, cuz i don't like that green. hopefully it'll be here by the end of the week, monday at the latest. and i pre-ordered "lord sunday" because garth nix has finally gotten his act together and finished the series! it makes me quite excited. i'm gonna have to re-read at least "superior saturday" over break, for it'll be waiting for me when i get back.

i'm angry at my laptop. i'm getting better at making the space bar work, though it tends to skip when i type 'gold medal' [whoa i didn't that time!]. the t has been giving me rouble [grr], and the middle thumb-button for scrolling has stopped working for some reason. very annoying... i keep intending to take it to the help desk, at least to get a new battery, but i'm lazy.

i guess i should do one more round of F5, and then get started on these bibs...

i love you, blue. seriously. she did both pics i have today. it's highly amusing that in men's and women's hockey it's canada-usa-finland.

I FORGOT THE FINAL MEDAL COUNT!

United States: 9 gold, 15 silver, 13 bronze: 37 [winter olympic record]
Germany: 10 gold, 13 silver, 7 bronze: 30
Canada: 14 gold, 7 silver, 5 bronze: 26 [winter olympic record gold]

nerd...

2010-02-25T16:12:00.004-05:00

sometimes i worry about how much of a total hetalia freak i am...

now all i need is a flele... and i actually am highly tempted to download it...

though i do thoroughly enjoy having alfred perch on itunes. he yells "HEY YOU GUYS!!" when you click him.

adventures:
he's cheering for the mittens! too bad they're sold out or something on that site... I WANT THEM SO BAADDD!!

cheering for how cold it is?

ANYWAY CANADA GOT GOLD IN WOMEN'S HOCKEY!!! i have never seen more depressed medal winners than the us team when they got silver.

hockeyyyy

2010-02-24T22:36:00.006-05:00

i feel like every time i go to the blogger home page, i have to log in. annoying, but whatevs.

so, canada played russia in hockey. i couldn't watch, as i was attempting to do annotated bibliographies [more on that later...] but i had the 'live' olympic page on. i wanted to stream it live, but i would need to log in to comcast, which i can't do. i was sad. but we [lol, i so wish i was canadian...] beat russia 7-3. i'm hoping they'll make it to the bronze game, but i have no clue. i'm optimistically predicting canada will sweep in hockey and curling, getting at least some medal in all four. the women's hockey team will definitely get gold or silver, as that game is canada v us. I AM SO WATCHING THAT, I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO SEE IT. both curling teams are in the semifinals, so either way they'll be contending for some medal.

more on the russia game at the bottom...

anyway, annotated bibliographies! i decided to just do a google scholar search for some brain damage articles, since i was finding nothing in the databases. i found a really comprehensive one about how diseases and injuries leave traces in handwriting, like a stroke or parkinson's. it's pretty cool. i'm so glad i did that search! i just need to find a second article... i'm gonna be up late, i know it. if only i knew we would be doing nothing in class tomorrow except handing these in, i'd skip again. but we've got a reading due [which i won't do, as usual], and we're going over making claims and how to go about supporting them. so i kinda need to be there. so, little sleep for me tonight. i just took a caffeine pill anyway, as i was falling asleep.

last night pat, anna, tay, and their friend asim [?] came over to smoke with liz. i was feeling sorry for myself, wishing i could partake, as the first time was awesome. but alas, i don't like the feel of smoke in me. that and, by the time i figured out what they were doing, it was gone. so i hung out with them in the kitchen as they feasted. i embroidered. it was kinda nice. i'm really hoping 420 will end up panning out for me in that regard - and for that matter, st patrick's day will involve the associated consumption. 2010 is definitely a good year for me becoming "a real college student". stupid yasha...

yesterday was free pancake day at ihop. so i convinced nicole to drive us out to glen allen for dinner. it was me, her, angela, and nicole's friend anthony. unfortunately, nicole ended up leaving because she had class at 7. she came and got us after and got food to go. i got a purple lap desk as michael's while waiting for her to get back. i ended up missing lost - we spent almost 5 hours on this adventure - but that's okay cuz i watched it today. and claire has totally flipped her shit. jack also had a bout of anger, but that's not really surprising considering him. in the au, he has a son, which confuses me. i'm gonna have to comb my brain for how the island being blown up would result in him having a son, because i'm still at a loss...

anyway, i should get back to that bibliography. i need to come up with some sort of shorthand for that, because 'annotated bibliography' is forever long...

beautiful fanarts resulting from the canada-russia game today. apparently, it was violent. i'm sad i missed it...

ETA:
and i just refreshed the 'results' page to find canada got 3 more medals!

1st: america, 28
2nd: germany, 24
3rd: norway, 18
4th: canada, 15
5th: russia, 13

there's still one more medal event to go today, which is going on now.

EATA:
no new developments, really. i'm endlessly amused by the bronze and gold medal games for women's hockey: finland v sweden for bronze, america v canada for gold/silver.

anyway!

this is win. i just found the vancouver olympics tag on pixiv, and blue did this. i'm really sad i missed that game now!!

unrelated: i finished my bibs for tomorrow. the second one is fail because i stupidly picked a source that was a sort of overview of a study, and it was done by a student, so i can't use it. i'll have to do 3 sources for the next due date then...

i'm also slightly concerned about my mental state because i took that caffeine pill around 9, and i just finished a melatonin lozenge. and my chest feels weirdly tight. i need to go to bed...

bibliographies? what are those?

2010-02-23T01:08:00.004-05:00

procrastinating like nobody's business...

i did something in odosketch today. because i haven't in a while.

thusly

i ordered a woot shirt today. it's a tv that says 'read' and under it says 'a book'. not sure why i did that...

i decided it was finally time to upgrade the ipod. partially because i have way more music i would want to listen to than will fit on 3.77G. partially because i lost the usb cable again and can't change the music. partially because i'm feeling unsatisfied with the functions of the mini. so i stuck a green nano in my amazon wish list to buy once it's march. because i have 5 transfers already, and that thing is $160, and i still need to paypal utilities to liz.

so, last night someone broke my window. i feel like i've explained this way too much... but yeah. i was going down the front stairs on my way to ceramics and noticed a large hole in one of the panes. i called the office during class, and when i got back they had duct taped over the hole until they can replace the pane. which they were supposed to do today, but i guess the rain delayed them. bullshit. but what scares me the most is that no one noticed the window breaking during the night. i slept right through it, liz was up all night and didn't hear anything, and ces is basically right above it and heard nothing. luckily nothing was taken, but still.

shay is making a whale in the lobby of the fab tomorrow - i mean today. the structure was up yesterday, and it was pretty sweet. i've got class during the construction time, so i'm going to cut through the fab to and from my afternoon classes to see the before and after. AND THEN I'M GOING TO IHOP WITH ANGELA AND NICOLE FOR FREE PANCAKES!! awesome.

grosse-averse has returned! there was a new chapter in le lys & la rose-verse, and a new chapter in 'into the face of the beguiled.' i was excited! gosh, i've missed her writings.

i had veal at shafer today. it was tasty.

and i really don't want to do this annotated bibliography, which is why i'm still typing. i'm trying to finish the one i started that was due last thursday that i skipped because i wanted to sleep. and i've got 2 more due this thursday. why is this so hard for me to do? grr...

usa beat canada at men's hockey last night. i wanted to cry. at least the women's team is doing awesome, as is both canadian curling teams. and canada just got another gold today for ice dancing, a first for them.

ok, for serious. time to do work.

gosh, that's a lot of links today.

completely unrelated to anything. but pretty!

insurance?

2010-02-21T02:33:00.002-05:00

just in case i suddenly just pass out, i want to say i took 2 melatonin pills. i don't expect it to make me just... fall over asleep, but i'm not sure what exactly will happen.

i've been having bouts of insomnia this past week, which really sucks, especially since i feel absolutely no urge to do my embroidery homework, which i'm worried i will get really behind on, or my annotated bibliographies, which i totally skipped on thursday. i did one, and decided, "fuck it, i'm sleeping through class."

and i accidentally hit the 'back' button and lost the paragraph i had written...

i need to get one shoe done in embroidery for class on monday so i don't fall behind and get totally screwed over for the crit. i've got over a week till the crit, and i'm surprised at how fast i'm going, but still. that would be just like me...

i did almost absolutely nothing today. i woke up at noon, got my bagel, crocheted some while reading fics and watching 'community.' i finally took a shower [since wednesday... eww...] around 8 so i could go out in public and have dinner with angela at chili's. which was fun and tasty. i ate all my food [except the over-herbed rice...] before angela. i was so proud! then i sat around some more and watched some more 'community' and did a little more embroidery. and yeah.

on the main com today i discovered the epic-ness that will be the canada-america men's hockey game tomorrow. even though i refresh the olympics main page obsessively every few hours, i missed that. i need to watch it. i set an alarm on my phone. it's happening.

oh yeah, the tegan and sara concert. i went with liz, laura, adrienne, and a couple other girls they knew that i met in line. my feet were frozen by the time the doors opened, and it wasn't even all that cold out. we ended up somewhat more forward than the middle. it wasn't too bad. though, there was someone near us that had gas literally the entire show. not cool. and i got pushed and ended up next to a crazy barely-teen fan. i seriously looked over at her more than a couple times and was convinced she would burst into tears of absolute joy. and she only knew songs from 'the con' and 'sainthood', which i found terribly sad. if you're such a crazy fan, learn all their songs. i knew most of the songs, except for a couple of the new ones because i just put my music on random and tune in occasionally.

i was excited to learn one of the openers was steel train. when i told matt he was incredibly jealous. they were pretty good live. i was happy they played a couple songs i knew ['firecracker' and 'kill monsters in the rain']. the other opener was holly miranda, who for some reason had their bass turned up more than you'd expect. the singer had a really nice voice though. i'd definitely check out their music.

as for t+s, i quite enjoyed the show. there wasn't as much banter as i was expecting, but they were still fun. they even did a few songs basically acoustic as a sort of encore, which i thought was really cool. they did 'back in your head' with guitar and xylophone, they styled the lighting of 'feel it in my bones' after the vid. overall, it was a good show.

i wonder if my seat number on my ticket, 39, indicates what number i was in purchasing my ticket... and if that shows how much of a nerd i can be... probably...

well, i need to get to bed if i intend to get up before noon and at least make an attempt at being productive. i'm determined to get a lot done on at least one shoe. i really am. movie marathon anyone?

no fics to report on today. i did find a good one today of a post-ww2 human!au though. germany/america, not something i'd read normally. but it was very good and had a hopeful ending.

blue-fox's fanart for 'die buchhandlung'

4 8 15 16 23 42

2010-02-16T23:31:00.004-05:00

OH MY FUCKING GOD LOST YOU ARE BLOWING MY MIND I CAN'T EVEN THINK AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ahem

so. tonight we finally learned the meaning of the numbers. and the lists. and i flipped out.

not-locke takes sawyer to a cave in a cliff side [what an interesting trip that was, going down the cliff] to show him why he's on the island. written on the walls and ceiling of an inner cave are last names with numbers next to them. most of them are crossed out, except for 6. guess which 6. and next to those 6 are one of the numbers. jack was 23, sun and jin were 42 [it's by last name, so 2 for one], hurley was 8 [i think], sayid was 16, sawyer was 15, which leaves kate as 4. all the names are candidates for someone to replace jacob as the guru, now that he's dead.

i flipped the fuck out and started hyperventilating. total shock.

in other news!

i finally had to get a membership to mediafire so i could send fala 'boondock saints 2'. which, by the way, also had a "WTFAHHH" ending. because of fucking willem dafoe. he came back at the end, and it was open to a 3rd, if they so choose. the boys ended up in prison, but it looks like it'll be okay and not sucky and bitch-y and such, but smecker was talking about breaking them out or something. though, greenly and noah died, soo...

thursday is gonna be awesome. not the morning, but i don't count that. we start tessellations in math, which should be fun. and then. TEGAN AND SARA with STEEL TRAIN as one of the openers. YESSS!!!! excitement.

the fic-of-the-moment this time is from the USUK com by semebay, who wrote the epic canada-serial killer fill that i fell in love with. this is an AU with arthur as a recluse [sorta] who lives with the fae and sort-of[-but-not-really] controls them and who does random little magicks and herbal healing and just cool shit. and alfred is a semi-hero [he's got enhanced abilities] who keeps trying to be friends with arthur. and it's adorable at times, but dark and real. i love bay's voice and the way she writes arthur as a believable brit, not some american throwing in those random stereotypical words. fifteen chapters in and the fae have all escaped arthur's tenuous control and are wreaking havoc and killing people. cliffhanger: the last fae that still liked arthur has decided that alfred has to die since he was supposed to but arthur saved him and just GAHH.

thusly. [well, chapter 1. click 'next entry' for the next chapters]

olympics! germany is at the top right now with 9 medals, then america with 8, france with 7, canada with 5, and south korea with 4. both canadian hockey teams are kicking ass: the women whooped slovakia hard 18-0 a few days ago, switzerland yesterday 10-1, and the men just beat norway 8-0. is it weird that i'm cheering for canada more than america? sometimes i really wish i was canadian. i was practicing my accent at random times today. it was fun.

i decided to treat myself to some good quality bagels today. so i spent the rest of my birthday cash on a baker's dozen plus 2 tubs of cream cheese from panera. i can't wait! i made french toast for dinner. yummy cinnamon french toast.

my converse came for my embroidery project. they fit and all. i traced the open spaces on both so i know specifically how much i have to work with. i gridded my reference photos yesterday and will be gridding the print cloth and possibly the shoes [for placement purposes] tomorrow, along with at least laying out the large shapes. i am the master of the grid!

unrelated pic is unrelated. kinda. but mainly it's cute.

fuzz

2010-02-14T23:38:00.003-05:00

i decided to try and clean my keyboard. so i systematically removed the tops of entire rows of keys and brushed out the insides. it still didn't fix my space bar problem.

and for some reason i had a really hard time spelling that correctly...

i added a couple more movies to my list. haven't downloaded them yet though.

yesterday i watched "the imaginarium of doctor parnassus" and "mirrormask". the sound ended up being off on 'parnassus', but i wasn't really watching the whole time so it didn't bother me as much as it would have otherwise. i found the cameos rather hilarious. so, heath ledger was tony, but when he went in the imaginarium with someone else, he became that someone else's version of him. so he was johnny depp, and jude law, and colin farrel.

i followed that up with 'mirrormask' because they are related in a sense: a different version of reality with the same people just different. it made sense in my head, ok?

i started my math final. i was going to cross stitch the whole thing, but realized how much work that's going to be. so i'm cross stitching some of it, then stitching that to the canvas and painting in the rest and drawing the tracks on top. hopefully it'll be awesome.

today i watched "wristcutters." which reminded me of "the lovely bones" so i had to torrent that. haven't watched it yet. the actor who was mr nick in 'parnassus' was also in 'wristcutters' as a similarly influential/powerful character, which i found pretty funny. and it took me the longest time to place the main actor, and finally had to look him upon imdb. he was paul trout in 'white oleander'. also, gogol bordello was featured quite prominently in the soundtrack, which made me quite happy.

happy valentine's day, i guess. first time alone in quite a few years. or am i misremembering the breakup with emily... probably... either way. the fills for the prucan exchange were due last night, and they've been posted all day. it made me happy to read all that sweetness and such.

which reminds me of why it can be fun to be friends with rpers on facebook. the canada i'm friends with has been being bro-tastic with an america, and i've been stalking their conversations. related: CANADA GOT IT'S FIRST GOLD WHEN HOSTING THE OLYMPICS! the other 2 olympics that have been in canada [calgary winter, montreal summer], they didn't get a single gold. but today they got gold in men's freestyle skiing. which is what the weird bro-ness started out being about and divulged into petting. weird.

i raided pixiv for olympics!canada pics. it made me happy, especially since annie had one.

i'm not sure if i was going to say anything else...

oh. my horrible procrastination habits are getting worse... that math final is due tuesday at 12:30 and it's barely started. i haven't printed the refs i need for ceramics or textiles. i'm avoiding those annotated bibliographies like the plague. the only productive thing i managed to do with weekend was laundry and my embroidery sample. i want to be able to start the shoes soon, but that's entirely dependent on when i actually get the shoes. hopefully tomorrow, because this is ridiculous...

man, i need to eat that caramel apple...

annie, why are you so awesome?

movie-downloading weekend!

2010-02-12T16:11:00.007-05:00

i found [ok, joe etzine invited me] a site that lets you download movies for cheap. it's not free, not even the trial day, though that's only 99cents. so i was surfing through it for movies to download and found out the trial restrictions: only movies made before 2008 and in divx format. which is still a lot of movies. and those i can't download there i'm torrenting. and vary rapidly as well, which is awesome. i found about 7 movies to download from the site, and 5 more that i'm torrenting. it's quite a few lesser-known, kinda foreign films. foreign in the sense they're not american, though still in english. like canadian or british movies.

so, after all this downloading, my movie collection will be:
- 9
- Airplane!
- Angels and Insects
- Battle Royale
- Boondock Saints
- Boondock Saints 2
- Born of Hope
- Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
- The Darjeeling Limited
- The Devil's Brigade
- The Emperor's New Groove
- Fire and Ice
- Franklyn
- The Hunt for Red October
- The Imaginarium of DoctorParnassus
- Inglorious Basterds
- Ink
- King Arthur
- The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, Extended Edition
- The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, Extended Edition
- The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, Extended Edition
- MirrorMask
- Monty Python and the Holy Grail
- Nightwatching
- Passchendaele
- Perfect Creatures
- Phone Booth
- Pineapple Express
- The Prestige
- Puffball
- Requiem for a Dream
- The Secret of Kells
- Steamboy
- Tideland
- A Viking Saga
- Wristcutters

and that's quite an eclectic collection of movies.

as far as ficage, i found a fill that started out as what would happen if the UK broke apart: N Ireland went back to Ireland, and Scotland separated, but Wales stays. and now it's become WW3. and there's a lot of BAMF stuff going on, and an enjoyable assortment of OC nations. candesceres draw a few things for it, and i just picture her versions of the countries when i read it. it makes me incredibly happy that RoI is a girl and so is Mexico. there's sort of 2 versions of Israel too: Jacob, 'real' Israel, and Sarah, all the displaced jews around the world. the first parts are here and it's continued here and IT WAS JUST UPDATED SO NOW I MUST GO READ IT.

RELEVANT! Northern Ireland [male] and Republic of Ireland [female] by candesceres for 'Family Ties.'

ETA

wow, hetalia makes the olympics so much better! they were just pimping canada, and it was way more entertaining than i would have found it before. they even had kennedy's quote about the relationship between canada and the us. also, harper went before the parliament to encourage canadians to be loud and patriotic for their athletes, and they would apologize for their rudeness later. i loled.

ski jumping is on now. not the opening ceremony, for some reason. oh well, it's coming.

also, depressingly, someone died on the luge track this morning. a luge athlete from georgia [the country] lost control and flew off the track. they showed the footage.

mash-ups

2010-02-10T23:13:00.005-05:00

"gold lion" yeah yeah yeahs
+
"boulevard of broken dreams" green day
+
"wonderwall" oasis
=
AMAZING

i found this fantastic mash-ups station on itunes radio. and it's been blowing my mind all day. seriously.

snowday today. when i left home for campus, it was just a tornado outside. i made it to the fab so i could at least check my email [it's doing that thing where it won't load on my laptop], and i was sitting in class, waiting for the crit, when debbie comes in and tells us campus is closed.

i was unhappy that i walked to class in that horrible white-out, only to be told, "nope, nevermind."

oh well. now i have time to figure out how exactly i'm gonna go about my embroidery final. which is hopefully gonna be awesome. i'm embroidering ansel adams photos onto a pair of white converse. i got a ton of floss in every shade i could find from black to white. some are brown-ish and some are blue-ish, but hopefully it won't be a big deal. i ordered the shoes monday, and they should be here this weekend. i really think it's gonna be awesome.

and i'm currently procrastinating on my annotated bibliographies. i finally finished one, after working on it since 5. i just started the second one, and then i got distracted [shocking, i know...] but this one is much shorter than the other one, so it should be easier. hopefully.

i still want there to be no class tomorrow morning, even though i know there will be.

there's over 4 feet of snow at home now. fucking whoa. no school for anyone - big surprise. i'm sad we don't have as much because connor figured out how to make elaborate tunnels in the snow and now i want to turn out back yard into a warren. but that's a lot of missed class, and a lot of snow that just won't leave. seriously, it just keeps snowing. today was the fourth major snowfall this winter: before christmas, the last weekend of january, the weekend of my birthday, and today. and it's supposed to snow again monday. snow is awesome and all, but i think everyone is really sick of it by now.

in other news, i finally gave in and started reading "seven little killers." i've got some theories, but who knows. i'm almost completely sure america is one of the killers, thanks to hoogily spoiling things, and i'm fairly confident canada is one too. possibly hungary, but that's just random speculation. i really like how each chapter is named after a serial killer. i've got a wiki tab open next to the fic so i can learn about the featured killer with each chapter.

relevant pic is relevant! i swear! it's by hoogily...
yayyy prucan!

mind reader!

2010-02-09T18:49:00.002-05:00

i just needto sharethisbit of awesome.

grrr, my space bar hatesme...

ANYWAY!

i was just reading a spamano doujin [something about spanking, idk, it's in japanese...] and my itunes decides to spit out a song from a spamano fst... called "i can't read yr mind."

yes you can, itunes! yes you can!

relevant pic is relevant... or something...

lalala

2010-02-07T19:06:00.006-05:00

friday was awesome. though around 1 i started to sober up, and then i realized everyone was pretty much in couples and doing that grinding, and i felt awkward and then angry and depressed. so i went to bed. but other than that, it was awesome. so much better than that 80s party. the jungle juice was delicious, though it had no everclear since you can't get that in va. i only had a cup and a half. cesley had probably 4, definitely 3. robertino, i'm fairly sure, drank an entire 12 pack of pbr, and tommy drank a bottle of wine by himself, plus some beer.

but yeah. i danced the whole "cotton eyed joe" dance with emily, and i headbanged to "smells like teen spirit" [my neck is still paying for that one...], and i fell over after a couple songs. but it was awesome.

and then i did absolutely nothing yesterday. seriously. i stayed in bed, only getting up to find food. we finally got the place mostly cleaned up today. there's a lot of recycling, good thing that gets picked up wednesday. and a lot of trash too.

in other news, i decided to try odosketch. it's pretty cool. i really like the color palate they have, even if it is limited. i'm surprised at my ability to use it, considering it's my first ever foray into the world of flash drawing, and considering i only have my touch pad. i've done a couple random experiments and a couple drawings. i realized when i was looking at my stuff there that i draw the same, whether it's on paper or on a computer. which doesn't bother me, i quite like my sketchy drawing style. i drew a couple cans, and they came out pretty well considering. i wish i had more control over my little brush, but it's hard with the touch pad. i'd like to be able to refine my lines better and get neater curves, but oh well. practice, i guess.

also, it was snowmageddon this weekend. not so much here, but there was close to 3 feet of snow at home. obama called it snowmageddon. it snowed for about 6-8 hours friday, then it rained all night, and started snowing again sometime around 10. we've only got about 6-7 inches here. i'm very glad we didn't get snowed in like everyone north of us. snow is awesome and all, but i'm personally ready for it to be spring already, even if it's only the second week of february.

HOLY GOD, I FORGOT TO RANT ABOUT THE PREMIERE OF LOST LAST WEEK!!BECAUSE IT BLEW MY MIND!! i was sitting there, especially at the end, going, "OH GOD WHY MUST YOU TORTURE ME WITH NEW QUESTIONS!!" several characters died in the episode, and there's apparently a parallel world now, instead of time traveling. because that makes a lot more sense. OH GOD the parallel world scenes were so gahh! so, season 5 ends with the white out of the bomb exploding. and season 6 started with THE PLANE SCENES FROM THE SEASON 1 PREMIERE, EXCEPT THE PLANE DOESN'T CRASH!! and i was in shock. so, if oceanic 815 doesn't crash: the airlines lost the casket with christian, jack offers to help john with his back, charlie gets arrested for his heroin, kate tries to escape again and steals claire's cab, shannon didn't even get on the plane, jin is taken by customs because of a ton of money he didn't declare, and DESMOND WAS ON THE PLANE!! back in 'reality', the islanders are back in the correct time period where they were before: the hatch has exploded after desmond turned the key, but juliet is in the bottom because that's where she fell in '77. she ends up dying, and so does sayid. but then they get taken by a different group of [the same] others, which includes the stewardess from the flight, and somehow sayid COMES BACK TO LIFE. oh, and THE MAN IN BLACK IS THE SMOKE MONSTER IS PRETEND-LOCKE!! OH GOD WHY MUST THERE BE SO MUCH AWESOME?!?!

i've been craving some super bros in my hetalia readings lately. because for real, america and canada are the best bros ever. no joke.

relevant pic is relevant. i love how one pixiv artist, annie, draws them. her style and her characterizations are awesome. broooooooosss~

i keep forgetting...

2010-02-01T23:39:00.004-05:00

i meant to post an update about that 80s party but forgot...

basically, the playlist was only 40 songs, so that got old quick. there was a lot of pbr, so i finally tried some. it tasted ok at first, probably because i had been drinking smirnoff. i had 2 bottles of smirnoff and about 2/3 of a can of pbr. i was kinda drunk. i ended up falling asleep on patrick's couch around 1, and then another guy fell asleep on the part i wasn't on and ended up sleeping on my ass. i got up around 3, had a long and weird conversation with newbie, and went home. that nap helped me work off the alcohol i had, so saturday was nothing.

now: this past weekend. because it was epic.

THURSDAY
i went to anna's around 5:15 to drop off my sleeping things for their sleepover because thursday's are tv night with angela. i spent over an hour there talking, and helped her hang a blanket on her wall.

oh, but before that! maintenance came! there were 4 guys, plus one of the administrators for the company to look at the mold problems and hash out what to do about it. they're going to dig down around the back closet wall and fill it back in higher, so it slopes away. that should clear up the problem inside, and then they'll come in and clean up the walls there. this should be done by the end of the week, but i'm not so sure.

anyway. tv night was fun. angela got an hd tv for her room, so we watched there because the step team was practicing downstairs. i took the escort to anna's, and got there really late, which sucked. i missed all the food. we watched some movies, drank a little [i only had sips], played apples to apples, then i fell asleep. around 4 a friend of taylor's came in, already drunk, and was loud. i yelled. fell back asleep.

FRIDAY
i woke up for good around 10-10:15. i was really bored and contemplated just leaving around 10:30, got as far as the stairs, then came back. i had some ice cream, sat around. finally left for some real breakfast closer to noon. i honestly forget what else i did that day, since i had no class. i ended up staying up watching season 1 of LOST, trying to catch up for the PREMIERE OF THE FINAL SEASON TOMORROW NIGHT. it started snowing close to 2.

SATURDAY
campus was closed. no surprise. when i woke up there was already a good 6". i took a shower and walked to kroger to get stuff for a crock pot dinner. mom had been texting me about it for a couple hours, so i figured why not. the walk wasn't too bad. i walked in the tire tracks in the street. i am so glad i had my good boots and not just my rain boots. seriously. i got chicken, herbs, broth, milk, chocolate chips, shortening, and food for lunch. came back, set up the crock pot, sat around.

i think it was around 3 that the roomies and i headed out to bother nicole. btw, it was still snowing. we threw snowballs at her window until she came outside. she had no boots, just her converse, so she went back in and wrapped her feet in plastic bags. we walked to the park, pretending it was a nuclear winter/zombie apocalypse and nicole had been bitten. we saw some other students constructing a fort for a snowball fight, so we decided to make one of our own. we tried... but it ended up being a whale. some freshie kid helped us.

we went to shafer to thaw and ended up eating. we eventually decide to head back, but side track to rite aid and get things for smores. we come back, i turn off the crock pot, and we set up scrabble. part way through, we eat the chicken. nicole pwned us all with 72 points on "quote". the stupid 10-point Q was on a double-letter, and the whole thing got a triple-word. we make the smores and go up to liz's room to watch 'eraserhead' on the projector. we watch 'amelie' too. nicole ruined the end by shouting "YASHA" at the end when they're doing the kissing thing.

we sit around, and i start talking to cesley, and us two decide we should make a fort. so we end up making a fort [btw, it was still snowing]. we bring chairs and sofa cushions up, and i grab about 4 blankets from my room. we construct it between liz's bed and desk, and put the projector inside. we lay there, watching the visualizations for about an hour. eventually we fall asleep.

SUNDAY
when i wake up, i'm on a different part of the floor next to nicole, liz is in her bed, and ces has gone back to her own. i take my blanket downstairs and get my laptop and wait for everyone to wake up. eventually i take everything back downstairs, and settle in on the couch. at some point i make cookies. i watch LOST. i stayed on that couch pretty much all day. i don't even take my stuff to my room until i'm ready to go to bed. classes are canceled for monday.

MONDAY
wake up late. eventually get dressed for a snowball fight jenny organized in the park. we roomies leave together. we're the first ones there, then courtney [anne frank], then tempest, then jenny & laura. we eventually have 11 people, and pick teams like middle school. angie and tempest are team captains. we fight. it eventually ends up being all of us standing in a giant circle, randomly throwing at each other. no one can hit me. then again, i can't really hit anyone...

we end up stopping and then decide to make a giant snow vagina next to the giant snow penis someone else made. it ends up being pretty good, even has pubes. angie stood in it to make the vaginal passage itself. taylor and anna show up, cesley leaves for the gym. we take pictures. tom shows up, then anna sees nick, and everyone pretty much disperses. me, liz, anna, tay, and tom go to the commons and get ice cream. we go out to the plaza and take jumping pictures. we go back to biggs.

we watch 'the office' and nicole shows up. finally... eventually we're hungry, so me, liz, nicole, and anna go to the village. holy shit, that was delicious. we go back, nicole leaves, anna gets cold stone. we come back to our place.

and yeah. that was my weekend. i tried to do homework, only finished my math work before i started typing this. i kinda gave up on my english reading. i really don't want to go to class tomorrow. mainly, i just want morning classes to be canceled. i really don't want to go to english...

also, my birthday party is this friday. it's a 90s party. it's going to be amazing. not sure if i'll be able to actually put it here... i had to promise yasha to text him every 1-2 hours so he knows i'm conscious. yeah.

completely unrelated and rather depressing...
"so, a baby seal walks into a club..."

first week!

2010-01-22T19:13:00.004-05:00

first week! doneeee. well, it was done yesterday, but whatevs...

lessee.

english is pretty cool, i guess. jenny had lodge last semester and said he's pretty laid back and cool. there's a former soldier [i forgot which branch] in the class, he was in afghanistan. bryce and krystal are also in it. i'm slightly worried my topic will end up being german expressionism, which is cool and all [it's my favorite art movement], but i think i'm gonna end up bored with it. one of my other ideas was handwriting and how people develop their own styles. i know there's, like, personality tests or whatever based on how a person writes. i also thought of the specific importance and significance of bass lines in music, and the evolution of jazz into other music forms. and deep sea creatures, though i have no idea where i would go with that...

math is pretty fun. jenny is in my class, and theresa from textiles last sem, and krissy and corey. dude, thursday, i learned why perspective happens. and it blew my mind. like whoa. it's hard to explain, but it has to do with planes and how they intersect with your eye as a point in space and yeah. intense. it kinda blew my mind. and our first homework was to take a piece of plastic, tape it to a window, and trace what we see out of it. i did mine from the one window in the craft bathroom, looking across at the parking deck and the corner of rams hall. i thought it was pretty cool, but we'll see.

cinema seems like it'll be fun. jessica is in my class, so i sat with her. we watch a film noir, which was pretty cool up until, like, the last half hour-45 mins, when i was just confused. but still. i'm excited because we get to watch 'vertigo' and 'the royal tenenbaums' and some other movies i was excited about.

which reminds me: i need to 'rent' "the devil's brigade" from itunes. that trailer was hilarious, even though it wasn't meant to be. sometimes i'm such a history nerd...

ceramics may prove troublesome. i'm not terribly excited about it. our first assignment will be to sculpt a boot. maybe 'sculpt' isn't he right word, but yeah. it's also due on my birthday, so i really hope mine doesn't suck because that would be a terrible birthday present. no one i know in that class though...

and textiles. both mollys are in it, which should prove entertaining, along with one of the emilys. i'm definitely excited for that class. we're starting with some intense embroidering. it's structured basically the same as the other semester: one specific project on one technique, then the final which can be anything.

i finally got my bus pass today, so i shall FINALLY be venturing to ben franklin tomorrow. molly b mentioned a quilting shop next to ben franklin, so i'll have to check that out too.

today, being a completely free day of nothing has been interesting. i laid in bed, hitting snooze, for almost an hour. i had some toast, and stayed in bed till a little after 2 when i went to get my bus pass. when i got back, us 3 [me, liz, nicole] went to the gym to check out the pool. it's pretty sweet. there's a vortex, a slide, and a hot tub/jacuzzi, plus quite a few lap lanes. the process to get in for the first time was really confusing though, but hopefully it won't be so terrible next time. then we got 5 guys, which, if we had actually been working out, would have pretty much negated any exercise we got.

and then i took a shower and blow dried my hair with my new round brush. because i'm going to an 80s party at patrick's. i'm excited. i've got a tube top and wedges, which are pretty much the most 80s things i own. though i feel like my hair is more 60s than 80s... oh well. it's byob, so drinks i'll like will be slim pickin's, if at all. i'm not sure how to get liz to get 'bitch beers' for nicole and i. they may be almost alcohol-less, but they sure are delicious.

i wish i had 80s jewelry...

bros...

food diary!

2010-01-18T20:26:00.005-05:00

i've just started a food diary.

because it depresses me how little i eat, and maybe keeping a written record of what i eat when will convince me to eat more.

hopefully.

in other news, the schedule for english 200 is scary. like, for real. i have 2 weeks to come up with a topic and research question. i need 8-12 sources in an annotated bibliography. but i know for sure the final paper is due may 4. i moved my calendar from the wall where it was to above my sewing table where i can more readily get to it and see it.

for some reason vuze is being dumb and not downloading things. it's only uploading 13 kB/s, which is low. i'm trying to download 9, but so far i've got nothing. and it's been trying for the last hour. there's only 4 in the swarm, so maybe that's it? i have no idea...

and i'm reconfiguring my battery bar, so it charged fully and is now in the uncharging cycle. i may just need to get a whole new battery soon, because this is ridiculous...

also, 'Trials' ended today. i finally commented/reviewed, starting with my utter inarticulateness at the fact that it ended. i wanted it to keep going! but alas. the authornon will be de-anoning in the coming week, possibly adding a couple more chapters, so that's good. i might have to go re-read it because i've got separation anxiety and don't want it to be over.

i fried some salmon for dinner. i had to put it back on, though, because it was undercooked at first. but it was tasty. i ate the whole thing, skin and all. i really should eat more fish. i may start getting fresh from the fish counter at kroger and freezing it to eat later. because i forgot how tasty fish is until today. it was jsut salmon, but still. mmmmm

i'm not sure if these entries are disjointed and confusing because each new paragraph i start is a new topic. at least i'm kinda consistent.

i got my textbooks today. my cinema one is used, and you can tell. the spine was broken at about the middle and it looks like the front half is about to come completely away from the binding. it was still $71, which is bullshit. at least my other one, for english 200 was only $17. and i got some cheap-not-moleskins for notebooks, only to realize they're squared and not plain lined. oh well. now math will be easier.

i spent over 2 hours last night sewing. it was awesome. the vest turned out pretty ok, though i'm not very happy with the neckline. oh well. i turned the sleeves into pockets and it's still pretty cool. i hope i get around to actually wearing it...

boobs. lolwut? idk...

so good to be back!

2010-01-17T18:19:00.004-05:00

finally back and moved in! gosh, it's so awesome.

mom went with me to come back. i drove the whole way, which doesn't really bother me, since i know she'll have to drive the whole way back herself. but then she insisted we set up the crock pot to make a pot roast stew thing, then go to kroger, then to lowes. and so now i have some random food things, but not, like, bagels. and i just used the last of my shortening to make brownies which are practically glued to the pan. i had a hard time getting one 'piece' out with a fork. it's pretty much just crumbles.

i've been feeling rather domestic today. i cleaned up my mess from last night and made brownies to sorta apologize for nicole eating most of the roast from last night. i changed my sheets and put my nice flannel ones on. i finished that fleece hoodie mom started forever ago - and now i jsut have this urge to sew things. so i looked through the jean book, intending to start something, but i need so many notions for everything...

so i decided to make something with those extra tshirts anna found last year, only i sniffed them and they smell like man. so i have to wash them before i can do anything with them. and i almost typed 'warsh' there...

so now i'm waiting for the dryer to finish so i can start sewing again. i just really want to sew! i'm planning on making a shirt with the border of a bandana on it for a neckline. and i hope it looks cool... i might just make it a vest or something cuz i have 5 mediums and 1 small.

i have a closet again! it's awesome. mom let me have the hanging rack that was in her sewing area since my actual closet is pretty much unusable. it fits perfectly in the indent where rachel's poster is. only now you can't really see the poster... i hung up all my senior invites next to shelley's painting above my sewing table. looking through them makes me happy, especially because i have a mini copy of ben guthorn's bawlmer hon.

i suddenly feel like talking about my most favoriteest fill ever. it's ongoing, and is updated about twice a day, which is really nice. the prompt was this:

Matthew and Alfred say their farewells, promising to meet the next day for lunch, and they depart in their own directions, each heading for home. Matthew walks happily, not really taking in his surroundings, and turns down an alley he always uses as a shortcut home.

And then, he feels the knife in his body. He looks up, and into a face he does not know, the details burning into his mind before the killer slashes again, this time more fatally. Matthew falls to darkness.

And wakes, the sent of plywood and diesel around him. It's pitch dark, and he is flat on his back. He reaches up to realize he is trapped on all sides by wood, and he panics. He screams, knowing no one can hear him, and pounds on the wood, sobbing, vainly trying to reign in his terror.

And then, he can hear them. The voices of the others. The other victims of this killer, all buried like he is now, buried in the Canadian wilderness.

What I would like is a fleshing out of this, please. How is he found? What would be the consequences if he is never found, and he is trapped in an airless box, doomed to forever die of asphyxiation, and come back again, only to die over and over again?

it apparently came to OP in a dream, which is pretty terrifying. and at first i didn't want to read it, but for some reason i decided to give it a try. and boy am i glad i did. because it's amazing. and kinda terrifying at times, and very dark. but i love it. there's 41 parts right now. and it's nowhere near done. currently, Alfred and Matt are going around Canada and digging up the other victims and placing Canadian flags at their heads, then calling the police to find them. Matt was in that box for about 3 and a half months, so he's a little 'off' now.

read it here~

not that anyone will... i'm not even sure why i take the time to rant about these things here...

in other news, ces is planning to hit the gym tomorrow [for a real work out, not just to check it out] and i'm tempted to go with. because this new place sounds amazing.

also, i now have about a zillion pills to take. i'm trying the natural approach to dealing with my ADD, which means fish oil, omega-3, and DHA! fred recommended this one pill that's highly concentrated omega-3 and DHA, and when i opened the bottle they're gel-filled capsules. like, i can see the gel and it moves a bit. weird. they also smell vaguely of fish, and gave me slight fish breath for a while. in addition to that, i've got a vitamin, a B + C + iron pill [that looks like sprinkles in a capsule], and zyflamend for my stupid ankle. and at night i'm going to start taking melatonin to help me sleep better.

after this past more-than-a-month of going to bed around 10 and getting up by 9 at the latest has completely thrown off my 'normal' school cycle. so i went to bed around 12:30, and finally couldn't stay in bed at 9:30. though i had been more or less awake since around 8-8:30. which i guess is good because my classes start at 9:30 at the latest. it's just a little weird because i was so used to staying up late and sleeping in at least a little bit. stupid work...

idek... crossdressing!maid!America and Canada!

music fiend!

2010-01-14T21:31:00.006-05:00

lately i've been more actively thinking about my attempts at making an fst. i've been sorta collecting random songs from "my music" [as in, not from any other fst's] for the past month or two, and i've noticed a slight pattern to them: they're either indie or classic rock.

so my new goal is to create 2, with those as guidelines. i've got a fair list going in total:

"Skipping Hearts" MR RUSSIA [belarus]
"Stuck on Repeat" Little Boots [pre-revolution]
"shoulders" 13ghosts [canada]
"Billy Brown" Mika [england, due to a fic...]
"One Week" Barenaked Ladies [2 nations fighting]
"The Boys Are Too Refined" the Hush Sound [girls]
"Wine In the Afternoon" Franz Ferdinand [drunk arthur]
"Lumberjack Song" Monty Python [canada]
"Where Did Our Love Go" the supremes [post-revolution]
"Backstabber" dresden dolls [angry!revolutionary!england]
"Womanizer" franz ferdinand [france]
"Let Me In" siriusmo [belarus]
"Le Disko" Shiny Toy Guns [all the girls]
"Magazine" millimeters mercury [america]
"fortunate Son" CCR [america]
"Brand New Day" NPH [cold war america]
"We Didn't Start the Fire" Billy Joel [everyone]
"Angel of Mercy" Shy Child [everyone]
"When I Was a Boy" The How [colonial!america]
"Ballroom Blitz" Sweet [meetings]
"Legend of Zelda Theme" System of a Down [america]
"Changes (Borderline Remix)" Tahiti 80 [prussia]
"Fashion" Rogue Traders [poland]
"Filthy/Gorgeous" Scissor Sisters [poland]
"Farm Land" The Never [austria & hungary]
"Guitar vs Piano" Gokusan [prussia & austria]
"Let's Go To The Mall" Robin Sparkles [temporarily-canadian-poland]
"Letter From God to Man" Dan Le Sac vs Scroobius Pip [everyone sorta]

i have a feeling the indie one is going to work out better [and faster] so i started actively looking for songs by little-known artists. which reminded me that i should really check out 3hive again...

as far as the indie one goes i've got:

"Skipping Hearts" MR RUSSIA [belarus]
"Stuck on Repeat" Little Boots [pre-revolution]
"shoulders" 13ghosts [canada]
"The Boys Are Too Refined" the Hush Sound [girls]
"Wine In the Afternoon" Franz Ferdinand [drunk arthur]
"Womanizer" franz ferdinand [france]
"Let Me In" siriusmo [belarus]
"Le Disko" Shiny Toy Guns [all the girls]
"Magazine" millimeters mercury [america]
"Brand New Day" NPH [cold war america]
"Angel of Mercy" Shy Child [everyone]
"When I Was a Boy" The How [colonial!america]
"Changes (Borderline Remix)" Tahiti 80 [prussia]
"Fashion" Rogue Traders [poland]
"Farm Land" The Never [austria & hungary]
"Guitar vs Piano" Gokusan [prussia & austria]
"Let's Go To The Mall" Robin Sparkles [temporarily-canadian-poland]
"Letter From God to Man" Dan Le Sac vs Scroobius Pip [everyone sorta]

with "Legend of Zelda Theme" System of a Down [america] as a bonus.

i'm still determined to find at least one t&s song that fits somewhere. i can't use "come on" because i found that one in a liet/pol one. but i can't figure out how to make the song i really want to work ["feel you in my bones"].

i decided that for a cover i was going to futz with a photo i had. so i surfed my belle isle album for things that would be ambiguous and clever and 'indie' and edited them in picnik.

9 so far. multiples of some. once i figure out the specific songs and how to zip/rar the folder up and such, i can title it and add the title to one of the images.

in other news, yasha turned 20 today. scary. he was going to celebrate at bourbon street, and something about me needing a dress and getting me hooked up with some chick... idk. but anyway, that fell through and instead he's having a get together tomorrow afternoon at his house. i think that's much better, especially considering my recent revelation.

thing is, christian is going to be there.

and i haven't seen or talked to him since we broke up in august.

yasha says he says he's fine with it, and i hope so. i know i'm going to be awkward for a bit because i just am. but i really do want him to be okay with it, because i still feel bad about the whole thing. mainly because of my recent revelation. i finally figured out why specifically i was uncomfortable with it, aside from him being in love with me and me not. well, the two are connected.

so yeah, i'm nervous about it. i want it to work out. i don't want to ruin yasha's party with our issues. i'm hoping i get there before he does, or at least that we don't get there at the same time...

today was my last day of work. it was a pretty good day, considering it was also payday. yayy! my before-tax total was $666, which i laughed at, but i got $615 out of it - even with my exemptions. stupid medicare and social security... but in addition to that i ended up winning My Oh My and a $25 gift card. My Oh My is basically all the department heads getting together and deciding which employee was the most involved and helpful and all around best for the week. i'm slightly surprised i won, but not really. i wasn't even aware of how the winner was picked until mom told me. i know ellie and dan had been very glad i was there. i really helped wellness get things straightened and able to hire a 'real' employee. i did the grunt stocking work to the regular people could focus on the customers and the busy work. it was hard - my back was not very forgiving - but it worked out well.

and i added to my repertoire of skills at MOMs.

i spent my $25 on some omega-dha pills to help with my add, a delicious chocolate protein drink [mmm odwalla] and an amazing raspberry blood orange. god, that's my new favorite fruit. it wasn't as sour as oranges [and especially blood oranges] are, and you could taste the raspberry right at the end. amazing. i might have to get mom to stop by saturday when we go back to rva so i can grab 6 and bring them back with me. i know ces wants to try one.

anyway, i think i'm going to go to bed now.

oh! i just remembered an awesome thing i discovered about vista yesterday. when i have 4 firfox windows and 8 apps open in my bottom bar and vista compresses the 4 firefox tabs into one, i can right click it and tell it to display all stacked. and then i've got all 4 in quadrants in my screen. they're tiny, but that's okay. when i need to access one i just fullsize it.

and i found the most amazing fill ever on the kink meme. the prompt was something about canada being killed by a serial killer and how being a nation plays into that and the awesome twin-ness between him and america. and at first i thought it was going to be dark and depressing - actually it totally is for the first 20 or so parts - and i didn't want to read it. but then i did and it's fantastic. it really is. even though it is depressing and crazy and it just doesn't matter. it's over here.

okay, bed for real now.

i found this on dA...

2010-01-12T19:36:00.002-05:00

You win backstage passes to meet the Jonas Brothers, you....?
mail the tickets to my cousin...

You've locked yourself outside and no-one will be home for a few hours you:
call yasha and see what he's doing

You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?
HOLYSHITWHATTHEFUCK!! well, now i know what i look like...

Have you ever kicked a wall, door, etc.?
totally

What are you wearing?
clothes. several layers of them cuz it's freezing outside

What are you excited for?
SATURDAY AND THE RETURN TO RVA!

Do you like to cuddle and snuggle?
quite

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
see: yasha [that's a yes...]

Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
mother

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
yeah

Do you want your tongue pierced?
NO

Are you listening to music right now?
that i am. my itunes is getting really huge...

Are you wearing makeup?
yeah

Do you tend to waste a lot of your money?
i used to kinda, but i'm working on not

Do you find smoking unattractive?
depends on the person

Where is the person you miss the most right now?
i don't really miss a person... i miss a place...

Your parents split; would you want to live with your mom or dad?
i'd probably spend more time with my dad, but i'd figure out how to live on my own since i'm almost 20

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
probably, though i think he's mostly gotten over it by now [it's been almost 5 months, get over it...]

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
psh, as if. i was angry at myself for not going to bed earlier...

Does anyone like you at the moment?
possibly? idk... if he pursues me, i'm denying him straight up. though i doubt he will...

What would you say if someone told you they were in love with your brother?
"really? ooooook..."

Two days from now this time, where will you be?
probably the same place i am now: on my bed online...

What's the worst thing to happen to you today?
i woke up. not to say the whole day was bad, just the fact that i had to wake up was bad.

Is there a certain person that makes you feel safe?
most of the time, he does. and sometimes he calls me to say he's coming to get me so we can do donuts in the snowy/icey deserted mall parking lot. and then i freak out a bit. [see pic at end]

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
nope, i don't really hate

Do you hate the last girl you were text messaging?
nope

What was on your mind mostly today?
"wow, i was an idiot for staying up that late last night..."

Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
hardly.... mainly the horizontal ones like ^_^

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
yeah

Are you wasting your time on someone?
nope

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
don't think so

Have you kissed anyone in the past 2 days?
nope. though i was bitten and licked last night... not like that!

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
uhhh..... i was next to yasha when i took my last picture, but neither of us were in said picture...

Will tomorrow be better than today?
possibly

Do you hate when people smoke around you?
only if the smoke is blowing in my face and that's all i'm breathing...

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
lately i've been so dead that i don't. but i sometimes have that problem

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
i don't think so. because even my bestest friends have their moments. wait. i think anna would be nothing but fun, even with her diabetes

Is your hair up or down right now?
down

Do you like hugs and kisses?
hugs: yes; kisses: depends

Think back to September were you in a relationship?
nope, had just gotten out of one

Do you feel like you have life figured out?
nope

How's your heart right now?
good, why?

Do you ever bite your lip?
sometimes, i guess. cuz i like the pain of it. seriously. and then it gets too chapped so i put chapstick on.

Do you think two people can last forever?
if they have a balance, yeah

Where do you go when you want to be alone?
my room

Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
yep

So, what if you married and had kids with the last person you kissed?
i don't even remember who that is...

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
rva... god, i'm so ready to go back...

What is your current annoyance?
stupid early work hours...

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a C?
yep. first and last name

Are you a bad influence?
psh

Do you get called baby, babe, or honey most?
hun, actaully

When did you last cry?
saturday night. i flipped out.

Do you have a favorite number?
69. heh. i blame laura.

Do you bite your nails?
nope, i tend to grow them out. though it's hard with my major...

If you could spend more time with someone you used to be very close with, would you?
probably

When will your next kiss be?
no clue

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
stocking...

---

i was gonna say something here, but i totally forgot...

but i just remembered something else! i read a fill last night about Canada being asexual and the other nations trying to get into his pants... but that's not important. what was important was the website resources linked at the end. and it made me feel so much better about my own asexual-ness. because that's pretty much what i am.

sex itself hold no interest for me. i have no real desire to participate in it. which i'm sure is part of the reason christian didn't work out: i know he wanted to have sex with me, though he never went out and said it. but i really didn't. not just cuz it was him, but in general. and it only ever bothered me 3 times that i can recall: telling bri about how i'd never done anything beyond kissing with emily, telling jenny the same thing, and being with christian in general. and when yasha gets it in his head that i need to hook up with someone [generally of the female persuasion, which would probably be preferable anyway].

the site

and it's not that reading that fill and finding that site made me realize and put into words that i'm asexual. i figured that out a while ago, back when i was with emily. but that site helped me understand what it means specifically and figure out 'to what degree' i guess. cuz i do masturbate. gosh it feels weird to admit that someplace people i know can find...

anyway, the promised pic from the meme:

so perfect!

post 100... what a subject to use...

2010-01-09T18:54:00.003-05:00

so i just checked my wachovia accounts. i was going to transfer a bit over so i could get a nice top for bourbon street next thursday. but when i logged in, this is what i see:

something has been charged or whatever on my account of $710, and i have no fucking clue what it is. so i, apparently, have -$700. and it really sucks because i'm home alone right now and it's saturday, meaning the bank will be closed tomorrow. and i realized that that whatever is dated jan 11, which is monday, not today. i have no clue what the fuck is going on and i'm freaking out. i ended up curled up in a ball on the sofa crying for a few minutes. i can't even begin to describe how totally fucked up this all is. seriously.

ok, gotta think about positives.

i've got the internet with which to distract me. and i shall soon be watching 'doctor who' and working on cesley's scarf. i just baked some [hopefully] delicious banana nut bread.

maybe i'll find some smut to read and browse my [disturbingly extensive] doujin collection...

these runts are tasty, at least...

these bros always make me happy... so bro-tastic...

meme!

2010-01-07T21:18:00.008-05:00

i got bored and found this meme in my dA watchers list. my answers:
1- twenty i have no idea what that is... something to do with ww2...]
2- glasgow, scotland!
3- bed [that's a pretty sweet bed, btw]
4- tea
5- shrimp scampi
6- lolcats
7- green [that woman is kinda terrifying...]
8- bawlmer, merlin, hon!
9- rva
10- abigail [breslin]
11- emily [strange]
12- yoshi! [i hope he doesn't get offended lol]
13- jellybean [though only my parents call me that]
14- eleanor [mustang... which i'm starting to kinda want...]
15- geneva [switzerland]
16- fisher [otter?]
17- internet...
18- cheese cutter [seriously.]
19- nancy
20- fiber arts
tag- i hate my touch pad...

btw, work was long and sucky today. it's supposed to snow some tonight, and dan predicted we'd get a lot of business today as a result of everyone in baltimore running around and freaking out. it was true... those last 2 hours, which i think were technically overtime, were brutal... i crashed in the car ride home. seriously. i vaguely remember mom getting out at bob's for her part, and then we were at berrymans and reisterstown and i had no idea how we even got there.

last night i was watching part of the 25th anniversary concert for the rock and roll hall of fame. the general format is one band sets up and does a song or two, they have several random guests come out and join them for other songs, and repeat. almost everyone was an inductee [fergie and will.i.am certainly aren't]. aretha franklin had just finished singing with annie lennox. that was cool i guess [honestly i fast forwarded through it...]. the next band out, though, was metallica, just inducted this past year. and one of their 'guests' was ozzy. and i was amazed at that whiplash genre change. seriously.

i felt kinda bad fast forwarding through so much. i felt like it was my history in a weird way, and i was being disrespectful by skipping huge chunks. then again, the whole thing was over 4 hours long, with no commercials. there's no way i'm sitting through all that.

the bits around my fingernails are weird...

2010-01-06T19:37:00.002-05:00

no idea about the title. but the little bits of skin right next to where my fingernails come out of the skin are really itchy on both my middle fingers. and i need to pick at them. it happens sometimes...

so, yesterday was hell. i really don't like tuesdays at work.

regular tuesdays are truck days, so i get to unpack 10-20 randomly packed boxes of shit. normally it's not that bad. my first tuesday had the largest order they've had in a long while: 21 boxes. nothing so bad since. i had 14 yesterday.

tuesdays are also leadership meeting days, so ellie has to leave for that at 11. and i get to run the department - which i know next to nothing about - by myself for 1-2 hours. it's usually not too bad. customers tend to be nicer and forgiving of my lack of knowledge when i say i'm just helping out and the other person is in a meeting.

now, why yesterday was a really sucky tuesday. in addition to those 14 boxes there were also a couple other shipments that had come in the day before, one of which was a rather large and tedious vitamir [our house brand of supplements] order. it didn't help that i had slept kinda bad the night before. [though not as bad as jan 1-2, where i'm not sure if i actually slept because i spent the night twitching and convincing myself i was high even though i knew i wasn't but my body felt the same and it really sucked]

today was kinda sucky too. i wasn't originally scheduled to work today, but on saturday instead.

i ended up putting 2 carts worth of endcap stuff into backstock. mom helped me, we spent a couple hours rearranging and adventuring into the storage over the bathroom.

new year's-ish

2010-01-02T13:59:00.002-05:00

NEW YEAR'S KISS - CASIOTONE FOR THE PAINFULLY ALONE

woke up with fingers crossed
in a boy's bed with your pants off
after polite declines of coffee and toast
walked home itching in last night's clothes

passed a phone booth and a beauty bar
the broken windows of your neighbor's cars
in through the back door, to a message from sis
asking "who was your new year's kiss?"

it took the afternoon to piece it all
plus a half a dozen phone calls
crashed a party with larissa and chris
in pursuit of a new year's kiss

not the way that you'd imagined it
on the balcony with champagne lips
but in the pantry 'gainst the pancake mix
you had your new year's kiss
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that's unrelated to everything else i'm going to write, but it's been in my head for the last couple of days and i had to write it down somewhere. i really like that song!

anyway...

my basic new year's plans were eat dinner with angela and her dad downtown, then go to stella's party at her house near mica.

the rest i'm not sure i want to put on the internet...

fan-netherlands [before the official version] + canada = stoned...

icons...

2009-12-28T19:33:00.011-05:00

so i'm sitting here, debating whether or no to impose some sort of organization on my roughly 500 hetalia pics, and i realized something: there's no way i'll ever be able to post them all here. then again, there are some nsfw ones that i have no intention of posting here or anywhere. anyway...

i decided, after sorting out himaruya's actual art from the fan stuff, to post all the icons i have. because i have quite a few. so here goes!

one of them won't show up for some reason... the quotes on flags are from a meme a while ago of "101 things alfred is not allowed to do during meetings". the teen!canada with kumajirou is my lj icon.

christmas tiiiiiime is heeereeeee

2009-12-27T18:51:00.004-05:00

well, christmas is actually over now, but whatever.

[brief unrelated thing i just remembered: i had this weird feeling that i've acquired a slight accent, probably southern, but my family didn't notice it. but when i mentioned it to yasha last night he totally did. weird.]

dude, the last two days of work last week were surprisingly fun in a hectic way. wednesday i counted the storage backstock and snacked on our holiday potluck food. syeda's samosas were very good, even though najib ate about half of them... cedric smoked a whole turkey and it was tasty, though cold. mom made chili and brought some of our christmas cookies. there were some vegan foods too - tim's cookies were really good, which somehow surprised me. not because he made them, but because i wouldn't think of vegan food tasting that good for some reason... idk...

christmas eve was busy but fun. there was still a lot of random food to be had: liz brought munchkins, there were some leftover cookies from the party the day before, syeda brought 2 dozen donuts, and then dan ordered 9 pizzas. yeah, plenty of food. jt ate 8 donuts plus he leftover chili and a couple slices of pizza. jay ate a ton of pizza too. dan hid one of the boxes of vegan pizza in the office for people who were actually vegan because it's so good non-vegans eat a lot. though fred had probably at least 4.

those are the only 2 days i didn't really feel any ill-effects of not taking a break.

went to bed ridiculously early christmas eve: around 10:15. it really hasn't felt like christmas at all. i think that might be because we've only implemented some of our traditional christmas things, not everything. so there was no mug rotation, hardly a table covering rotation, no hunting for a real tree to go with the fake one, no combined shopping trips, no listening to the same old christmas cds. i think we were kinda lazy this year regarding our traditions. we did our same decorating rituals, we set up the nativity [even though we're hardly religious about this anymore], dad finally got the moravian star to go together correctly.

matt was actually the last one up christmas morning. mom made multi-berry coffee cake and i had my yummy kiwi-pear tea. my presents: lucy-the-sewing-machine back in october, $50 cash-money, "jean therapy" book, "easy one dish meals" book, an old pair of jeans of dad's. not bad. matt: "where the wild parties at?" shirt, knit hat, $50 cash-money, 'modern warfare 2' for 360, probably something else i forget... dad: tbd jerry garcia tie, knit hat, chalk mug with pen, uhh.... [it was a couple days ago, i forget...] mom: yummy dessert cookbooks, giant map of us for mapping motorcycle trips, a bunch of eyeglass-keeper pins, chalk mug with pen, boombox with double headphone cord.

then we headed over to poppop's! it was a super informal dinner, as aunt anne had brought short sugar's barbecue. so i wore my free kitten shirt. the cousins were at the murphey's to give poppop a break from having to deal with ben and nancy, which was nice of anne. so us older people sat around talking and such. and waiting. and finally we call over and find out it'll still be a little while [there's a backup in the shower] so we decide to go ahead and eat. mmmmmmmmmmm

finally everyone gets there and it's hella loud... like whoa... we open presents. nothing really remarkable. kat really liked the stuff i made her and the hoodie mom made for her. poppop gave all the families pretty much the same thing: a wind chime his neighbor made out of old kitchen utensils and a rotary belgian waffle maker. i played some guitar hero and then kat coerced a slew of people into playing taboo. dad kicked ass cuz he's mister media. if i'm ever on a game show or in the cash cab, he's my lifeline, no question. it was pretty fun.

pawpaw and carole came on boxing day. we talked for a while, matt opened his presents cuz he and andy were hitting sales [and no doubt other things...]. he got a really nice knife, sand circles for a nice power tool. i'm not sure what specifically it was... dad got a few ties and a set of giant reusable zip ties. mom got a twisty note pad and something else... i got a twisty note pad and a giant mug. we ate cold ham [yummm] and pawpaw went to pick up carole from somewhere off 97. she got here and we opened the rest of the presents. mom got a rubber shoe door prop and a measure conversion magnet. dad got a wheely shop chair. i got a person pot coaster and a nice glass wall clock for the house.

then i ran off to have fun with yasha. i helped him fold his laundry. we went to dinner with his dad, alla, and his grandparents at don pablos. i ate my entire plate of enchiladas! i was so proud and so stuffed! then we left them and decided to hang out with harry. not really sure why... we picked him up and drove all the way down eastern ave from middle river to the city. then we parked in fells point and walked from there to harborplace and back. when we passed the wtc i had to take the time to try and name all the flags. i did pretty good. thank you, hetalia! and so we drove back home and such.

and yeah, that was pretty much my christmas. i recorded the doctor who special, as i was out with yasha at the time, and i watched it when i got home from work today.

HOLY GOD!!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA EXPLODE!!! RTD, YOU ARE FUCKING AMAZINGGG!!!

part 2 premieres next saturday. I CAN'T FUCKING WAITTTTT!!!

also, i have no idea wtf my internet is doing right now. seriously.

anyway, a pic!

drawn for me by jessica! yayyy!!