fuuuuuuuuuuuck

soooooo something's up with my laptop. it won't connect to the internet. every time i try, it says there's an issue with the network adapter drivers or hardware. so i tried to take it to the g2g help desk, since it's under warranty, but when i got there it was close to 6 and the stupid thing closes ridiculously early at 2. so i'll be dropping it off when i come to class tomorrow morning.

WHAT THIS MEANS is i will be online very little for the next week, possibly more. which is really not good for my english paper, but i have that backed up in, like, 2 other places so i should be good.

in other news, i completely finished 3 of my silk scarves and did the resist on 2 more. i finally have a sort of idea for my math final, though i have way too little time to do it in. i'm gonna try quilting a hypercube. we'll see... at least i have my own sewing machine, so i can work on it all night if i have to/no other idea comes to mind. i wish i had an iron though... also, maintenance finally came and put up this neat metal grid thing over my window so it won't get broken again, and they futzed around with the back gate so it actually swings.

NO PICTURE because yeah. i left my ehd at the house, and i'm in the library right now...

but hey, at least with no internet to distract me all the time i can get a ton of reading done!

dead

i was up all night finishing that paper. i finished it just before 8, including re-typing the works cited page. i futzed with a bit of the spacing so it's more obviously 6 pages, even though technically it's just under 5.5. whatever, i don't care.

i'm gonna turn this thing in, stay conscious through whatever he has to say, and then go nap till 1:30. it'll be awesome.

english is gonna be the death of me...

for serious, no joke. i have to write this entire review of research paper tonight. i'm expecting it to be an all-nighter, which is going to suck. at least i don't have math and i can sleep through cinema.

had my advising appointment today. nothing really new. i'm taking 2 summer classes this summer, and i calculated i can take 14-15 credits a semester for the next 2 years to get everything done. after this semester i'll have 61/123, and i'm taking 7 this summer. i'm really happy with the way the summer courses are organized. i'm taking 2 3-week long intensive courses: psych 101 and art of india. i have each for 3 hours a day, 5 days a week. psych at 9, history at 3. there's about a week between the end of finals and the start of summer classes, and my sessions are done by june 11. so i'll be going back to work later than usual, but oh well.

i really don't have anything else to talk about. i only have a few classes this week. no ceramics and no math, which is awesome, though i still have to go in and practice on the wheel. only 1 textiles class, and the usual cinema and english classes.

mmm, red bull.

ugh, this is going to kill me, isn't it...

i'm going home this weekend to attend a giant pillow fight in dc with yasha. i might be hanging out with shelley as well, which will be sweet. and i have to plan out when i'm taking what courses for the rest of college with dad. i'm already planning on taking 3 studios in the fall: two textiles and 1 drawing. i'm really excited about drawing, mainly because after the basic one i can take life drawing. that'll have to make up for the fact that apparently i can't take anatomy... maybe i can squeeze into anatomy for the dancer and fill my open electives.

grr, degree requirements are a bitch and a half to deal with...

fuck school, man...

i needa title for these shoes...

so, last night i watched 'the fountain'. and i kept associating hugh jackman with a canadian lumberjack, thanks to wolverine, and then i would remind myself he's actually australian, and then i thought of how good he is with accents.

anyway.

i finished the trees and got them mostly attached to the shoe. but i decided my time would be better spent doing the river, so i started it.

movies watched:
- the fountain
-the darjeeling limited
- franklyn

in other [depressing] news, my period hit hard today. i spent a couple hours curled up dozing and trying to ride out the cramps. it's really annoying how sometimes i have ridiculously debilitating cramps, and sometimes i've got almost none. last semester i left jewelry early they were so bad. today i stayed in bed, and then i went to make a sandwich cuz i was starving, i ended up spending at least half an hour semi-conscious on the sofa.

i'm seeing "alice in wonderland" tomorrow with angela. hopefully it'll be awesome. after the movie i'm gonna watch the oscars.

and i need to stop messing around and get back to work. i've done about 2.5 sq in on the river, and i need to kick up the pace.

related: switzerland as alice. ok, maybe it's just crack...

tweeking

not really, though.

but yeah. yesterday i ended my sleep-fast. 38 straight hours of not sleeping. i was doing that awkward droopy-eye sleep thing in math, though. it's no wonder i took no notes. but i get to make a for real tessellation for class tuesday, as well as my ambigram. ehh, i'll do that monday night.

but starting around 9 last night i started to get kinda loopy. and then i kept twitching my legs and fidgeting. and then i realized it was that same body-high from new years. well, first i left loopy messages on angela's wall about burn notice and sent yasha a couple loopy texts. and put in my status something about grammar not being real.

went to bed at 10, started gaining consciousness again close to noon. and those 14 hours were amazing.

i went to kroger, just because. got some fruit and a bunch of drinks and some ben & jerrys. and i remembered why i might've purposely lost my first pairs of ipod headphones: the right one never stays in my ear because for some reason that ear canal is smaller than my left one. so, while i get better sound quality and volume with those ones, i'll be switching to my other ones that actually stay on my head.

i made mac & cheese for dinner and mixed in some leftover alfredo 'sauce' that was kinda just cheesey-cream with melted butter. it had separated and looked funny but tasted yummy.

in other news, i finished the first embroidery! i just need to attach it to the shoe and do the detail work.

the first large part was on angela's wall. the rest is mine. and then that's the texts at the bottom. go paint!

sleep is for the carefree

putting the pic at the beginning today. evil!steampunk!arthur by annie. it really is quite amazing.

i got a 4-pack of red bull after textiles. opened the first one at 5:05. it's really the only energy drink i can stand to drink. i am fully expecting to be up literally all night working on these bibs. it's going to suck, yes. and how done i am by about 9 determines whether i'll be going to class or not.

first order of business: finish the one from last week. 3 pages left to summarize, and it's done.

i'll do a couple books after that, considering they'll take the longest to 'read'. i'm just going to skim, but still. and i'll periodically check my hetalia pages for a bit of a distraction. i'll have to get food at some point. i've got my music playing, and i can sort through it for what to put on the new ipod. i got through q last night, though that leaves the giant sections of shiny toy guns and tegan & sara to go.

i'll update my progress here.

6:37p
mmmm. when i drink red bull, my tummy feels warm.

7:00p
so, with most of the first one gone, i certainly have energy, though i seem to be lacking in the focus department...

7:30p
finally finished that bib from last week. short intermission, maybe a sandwich, and on to new things.

8:08p
made myself a sandwich. ces was making her dinner too. she's also making coffee to aide in the writing of bibliographies, in the same way i have red bull. i'm not sure if anyone in this house will be sleeping tonight.

8:41p
finished the first red bull. jeez, that took me almost 4 hours to drink! i'm gonna wait a little before getting another. i started one of the book sources.

8:55p
opened red bull #2.

9:09p
hey, i found the usb for my ipod! related: i'm pretty sure my new ipod came today, only they needed a signature and no one was here so i have to pick it up from the post office tomorrow.

9:42p
so the first book i picked is more about composition than handwriting, so i scrapped that. new book is short and has illustrations! but i can't find anything about the author, which really sucks. also, i feel like little!alfred on my itunes is cheering me on. i can do this! yeah!

10:56p
i'm awake, but i feel tired. like, i'm kinda sleepy, but i know i can't actually sleep. and i just suddenly had the wild idea to write a paper about energy drinks, except that's dumb and it's way too late to change my idea.

11:04p
gosh, i miss the olympics. also, my left eye is acting up. grr

11:39p
finished the second red bull. still have 3 sources to go...

11:42p
i just discovered a couple pics on my camera itself, not the card. there's one that's really cool, a night shot with light blurs, but i have no way of getting it off. sad...

12:08a
finally finished one! time to get another red bull and go through the other book...

12:21a
knowing i won't be sleeping make me feel like i have plenty of time to finish. i have basically 9 hours till it's due, though really that's probably about 8 hours of actual working time, since i'll need breakfast, time to change, time to walk there and to print. i might be able to make it, but i'm not sure. i think i'm gonna do the short pdf in a bit. i need some random first... still haven't opened the third, though it's sitting here waiting.

12:31a
here goes number 3. i'm actually feeling a bit dizzy and hot, which is worrying. i turned off the heat a little while ago, and i've got my heater going on my feet. i really hope my heart doesn't explode or something. i think my heartbeat might be a little slow. i feel mentally exhausted, but physically awake. and it's only 12:34. i think i'm going to take a short break and sit on my bed for a little. the red bull is staying at the desk.

1:02a
my eyes are starting to have trouble focusing. my body is falling asleep. but i can't sleep yet. cesley is nearly done, though will be up for a while more with all that coffee she drank. time to get back to work. also, i'm not sure if my choice in fun-reading was good... i reread some of the hetaliaspotting/requiem for a nation drabbles, which are really depressing and dark. i feel like i should read something more ridiculous to wake me back up before attempting more english. but i really should just drink some more red bull and knuckle down. next between-reading break then.

1:39a
i managed to find an article about how to help adults recover from traumatic brain injuries that was referenced in a similar article about adolescents. unfortunately, i'm having trouble getting to it for free, which is really sucky. i figured it would be better to use the original version, since i'm comparing child brains to adult brains, but it's looking like i'll have to take the teens...

1:48a
yes i found it! awesome! i think i'll use the teen one too.

2:17a
man, i would love to not be doing this. seriously. but i need to finish it at some point today, and the more i get done while i'm forced awake the less i'll have to do later when i'm exhausted from not sleeping and stressed by other assignments. i've allotted thursday to be spent on this in some fashion, with the rest of the weekend being embroidery. i need to do this, or i risk failing. yasha really is right about that. i can't fail this. i won't let myself. having to take this class again would be even worse, and i'd really hate myself. i'm half tempted to take a full hour to disengage my brain and do something else, but i'm not sure if i really have the time.

2:51a
i'm hungry. i'm gonna get some cereal in a bit. i'm having trouble really focusing on what i'm reading. i'm reading it out loud, but it's not really registering. i guess it's probably time for another break...

3:39a
i really don't want to go back to work. but i have to. fuuuuuck. also, i'm slightly worried about my heater. it's been on for hours now and smells slightly of melting plastic...

3:47a
finished the third red bull. i'm definitely going to hold off on the fourth one for as long as i can. i'm slightly worried that i drank those 3 in under 11 hours. i really hope i don't die...

4:04a
holy crap, my feet are so warm! also, i feel like i'd be better off just sorta skimming this article. i really can't concentrate for long on all this science and psychology and neurology... also, ces is done. she finished a while ago, but i forgot to mention it. not sure if she'll be able to fall asleep though. liz is doing laundry. i'm not sure why she always does it late at night. and no, i don't think i'll be able to finish in the next 4.5 hours. my new goal: noon! that's 8 hours.

4:32a
i feel like my attention is wandering more and more. i have a feeling i would be better served to stop working for a while, maybe even leave my laptop, and do something completely unrelated. then again, i keep doing basically that, and nothing is helping. i think i'm going to lie down in bed and mess with music and play games, rather than do any form of reading. i hope this works... i'm definitely not going to class...

6:03a
i spent the last hour and a half organizing the playlist for my nano. i got all the way through tegan and sara, and it's 13.5G so far. i figure i've got about 2G left. i may have to go back through it again and ditch some things to make sure what i want will fit. i'm really excited. i'm about ready to start up again. i'm gonna work from my bed where it's toasty and comfy. when i go up for breakfast at 8 i'm gonna make tea and turn the heat on. i figure i'll save the last red bull for when i start to fade during the day.

6:21a
it's getting to sunrise. my first ever true all-nighter was somewhat successful. i'm not sure if i'm happy i did it, because the whole process was rather unhealthy, but it was beneficial. mostly. as it is, i have a feeling i'm going to be spending all the free time i have finishing...

6:46a
i definitely feel more productive now than i did at 4:30. that break definitely helped me get some focus back.

6:55a
whoa. i feel weirdly tingly all over and i think i'm starting to fall asleep. i think i'm gonna get breakfast and tea now, probably take a caffeine pill later.

7:20a
finally finished! only 2 left. i'm hoping i can get one more done before math, and the last one after math. ok, food and tea for real now.

8:16a
ok, food consumed, tea mostly gone, time to get cracking again. not looking forward to this...

8:37a
i hear maintenance starting the digging work outside of my closet. horray! yesterday they even fixed the front porch light! i'm excited!

9:24a
i'm having a little trouble staying awake now. at least the article i'm reading is written as if for people unfamiliar with the subject, so there's a lot of explanation. mmmmmy bed is toasty.

10:30a
and done with that one! only one to go, but i'm gonna wait to start it. i really need to rest my brain, even though i was on a roll with that one.

slow down, life!

i am seriously fucked.

i'm really tempted to say i slept in thursday and email the final bib later in the day, like after math. which, i keep remembering, i have to create an ambigram for.

as it is, i'm going to be up till at least 2 tonight meeting my goal of finishing the half i started yesterday, and 2 more. and then i get to skim books to write the other 2 tomorrow. i just remembered i have to finish my design for my silk painting by 2 tomorrow, and i really wish i could skip ceramics but i don't want to fall behind on something else. i don't think i'll be sleeping tomorrow night. and i won't be sleeping through class, i'll be finishing these god-awful bibliographies.

so. things to do this week:
- silk painting design: due 2p 3/3
- 4 and 2 halves annotated bibliographies: due 9:30a 3/4
- ambigram of some word: due 12:30p 3/4
- the rest of ansel embroideries [finish 1, entire other]: due 1-2p 3/8

at least i have the weekend for the embroideries. because i have to completely ignore that until i finish english.

times to work:
3/2: now-2a [bibs]
3/3: 12-2p [bibs, silk design, shower?], 5p-?? [bibs, ambigram?]
3/4: 2p-1a [embroidery]
rest of the weekend for embroidery

and i haven't even had time to shower. i feel so gross, but i don't feel like i can spare the time. i'm going to try between class tomorrow.

i feel slightly better having written exactly what i need to do. slightly. i really shouldn't have baked brownies today, or gone through itunes for what to put on my new ipod when it comes, or even watched 'lost'. because that was 3 hours right there.

i am so totally fucked.

red bull and 5 hour energy are going to be my best friends from now until monday. or, well, from when i get some till monday...

something ridiculous to make me feel better. from the kink meme.

ETA:
i've also managed to chew a part of my lip rather raw. it feels funny on my mug...

[again]
oh god. it's 1, and i'm reading out loud, and hearing myself read what my eyes are seeing, but my brain is not interpreting anything that's going on. i managed to schedule out my life from tomorrow morning till sunday night, though i'm already planning on changing it. i have a feeling i'm going to 'sleep through' english, and am already composing an email to lodge regarding sending him my finished bib by thursday night. i'm going to be watching so many movies this weekend... at least 10. good thing i've got 15 unwatched ones saved...

[again again]
it's 2:30 and i finally finished the one i started yesterday [meaning monday]. fuck i'm in such deep shit with this. i'm done for the night though. so i'm winding down and waiting for the melatonin to set in. yeah, i'm totally screwed...

bibliographies? what are those?

procrastinating like nobody's business...

i did something in odosketch today. because i haven't in a while.

thusly

i ordered a woot shirt today. it's a tv that says 'read' and under it says 'a book'. not sure why i did that...

i decided it was finally time to upgrade the ipod. partially because i have way more music i would want to listen to than will fit on 3.77G. partially because i lost the usb cable again and can't change the music. partially because i'm feeling unsatisfied with the functions of the mini. so i stuck a green nano in my amazon wish list to buy once it's march. because i have 5 transfers already, and that thing is $160, and i still need to paypal utilities to liz.

so, last night someone broke my window. i feel like i've explained this way too much... but yeah. i was going down the front stairs on my way to ceramics and noticed a large hole in one of the panes. i called the office during class, and when i got back they had duct taped over the hole until they can replace the pane. which they were supposed to do today, but i guess the rain delayed them. bullshit. but what scares me the most is that no one noticed the window breaking during the night. i slept right through it, liz was up all night and didn't hear anything, and ces is basically right above it and heard nothing. luckily nothing was taken, but still.

shay is making a whale in the lobby of the fab tomorrow - i mean today. the structure was up yesterday, and it was pretty sweet. i've got class during the construction time, so i'm going to cut through the fab to and from my afternoon classes to see the before and after. AND THEN I'M GOING TO IHOP WITH ANGELA AND NICOLE FOR FREE PANCAKES!! awesome.

grosse-averse has returned! there was a new chapter in le lys & la rose-verse, and a new chapter in 'into the face of the beguiled.' i was excited! gosh, i've missed her writings.

i had veal at shafer today. it was tasty.

and i really don't want to do this annotated bibliography, which is why i'm still typing. i'm trying to finish the one i started that was due last thursday that i skipped because i wanted to sleep. and i've got 2 more due this thursday. why is this so hard for me to do? grr...

usa beat canada at men's hockey last night. i wanted to cry. at least the women's team is doing awesome, as is both canadian curling teams. and canada just got another gold today for ice dancing, a first for them.

ok, for serious. time to do work.

gosh, that's a lot of links today.

completely unrelated to anything. but pretty!

post 100... what a subject to use...

so i just checked my wachovia accounts. i was going to transfer a bit over so i could get a nice top for bourbon street next thursday. but when i logged in, this is what i see:


something has been charged or whatever on my account of $710, and i have no fucking clue what it is. so i, apparently, have -$700. and it really sucks because i'm home alone right now and it's saturday, meaning the bank will be closed tomorrow. and i realized that that whatever is dated jan 11, which is monday, not today. i have no clue what the fuck is going on and i'm freaking out. i ended up curled up in a ball on the sofa crying for a few minutes. i can't even begin to describe how totally fucked up this all is. seriously.

ok, gotta think about positives.

i've got the internet with which to distract me. and i shall soon be watching 'doctor who' and working on cesley's scarf. i just baked some [hopefully] delicious banana nut bread.

maybe i'll find some smut to read and browse my [disturbingly extensive] doujin collection...

these runts are tasty, at least...

these bros always make me happy... so bro-tastic...