03 March 2010

sleep is for the carefree


putting the pic at the beginning today. evil!steampunk!arthur by annie. it really is quite amazing.

i got a 4-pack of red bull after textiles. opened the first one at 5:05. it's really the only energy drink i can stand to drink. i am fully expecting to be up literally all night working on these bibs. it's going to suck, yes. and how done i am by about 9 determines whether i'll be going to class or not.

first order of business: finish the one from last week. 3 pages left to summarize, and it's done.

i'll do a couple books after that, considering they'll take the longest to 'read'. i'm just going to skim, but still. and i'll periodically check my hetalia pages for a bit of a distraction. i'll have to get food at some point. i've got my music playing, and i can sort through it for what to put on the new ipod. i got through q last night, though that leaves the giant sections of shiny toy guns and tegan & sara to go.

i'll update my progress here.

6:37p
mmmm. when i drink red bull, my tummy feels warm.

7:00p
so, with most of the first one gone, i certainly have energy, though i seem to be lacking in the focus department...

7:30p
finally finished that bib from last week. short intermission, maybe a sandwich, and on to new things.

8:08p
made myself a sandwich. ces was making her dinner too. she's also making coffee to aide in the writing of bibliographies, in the same way i have red bull. i'm not sure if anyone in this house will be sleeping tonight.

8:41p
finished the first red bull. jeez, that took me almost 4 hours to drink! i'm gonna wait a little before getting another. i started one of the book sources.

8:55p
opened red bull #2.

9:09p
hey, i found the usb for my ipod! related: i'm pretty sure my new ipod came today, only they needed a signature and no one was here so i have to pick it up from the post office tomorrow.

9:42p
so the first book i picked is more about composition than handwriting, so i scrapped that. new book is short and has illustrations! but i can't find anything about the author, which really sucks. also, i feel like little!alfred on my itunes is cheering me on. i can do this! yeah!

10:56p
i'm awake, but i feel tired. like, i'm kinda sleepy, but i know i can't actually sleep. and i just suddenly had the wild idea to write a paper about energy drinks, except that's dumb and it's way too late to change my idea.

11:04p
gosh, i miss the olympics. also, my left eye is acting up. grr

11:39p
finished the second red bull. still have 3 sources to go...

11:42p
i just discovered a couple pics on my camera itself, not the card. there's one that's really cool, a night shot with light blurs, but i have no way of getting it off. sad...

12:08a
finally finished one! time to get another red bull and go through the other book...

12:21a
knowing i won't be sleeping make me feel like i have plenty of time to finish. i have basically 9 hours till it's due, though really that's probably about 8 hours of actual working time, since i'll need breakfast, time to change, time to walk there and to print. i might be able to make it, but i'm not sure. i think i'm gonna do the short pdf in a bit. i need some random first... still haven't opened the third, though it's sitting here waiting.

12:31a
here goes number 3. i'm actually feeling a bit dizzy and hot, which is worrying. i turned off the heat a little while ago, and i've got my heater going on my feet. i really hope my heart doesn't explode or something. i think my heartbeat might be a little slow. i feel mentally exhausted, but physically awake. and it's only 12:34. i think i'm going to take a short break and sit on my bed for a little. the red bull is staying at the desk.

1:02a
my eyes are starting to have trouble focusing. my body is falling asleep. but i can't sleep yet. cesley is nearly done, though will be up for a while more with all that coffee she drank. time to get back to work. also, i'm not sure if my choice in fun-reading was good... i reread some of the hetaliaspotting/requiem for a nation drabbles, which are really depressing and dark. i feel like i should read something more ridiculous to wake me back up before attempting more english. but i really should just drink some more red bull and knuckle down. next between-reading break then.

1:39a
i managed to find an article about how to help adults recover from traumatic brain injuries that was referenced in a similar article about adolescents. unfortunately, i'm having trouble getting to it for free, which is really sucky. i figured it would be better to use the original version, since i'm comparing child brains to adult brains, but it's looking like i'll have to take the teens...

1:48a
yes i found it! awesome! i think i'll use the teen one too.

2:17a
man, i would love to not be doing this. seriously. but i need to finish it at some point today, and the more i get done while i'm forced awake the less i'll have to do later when i'm exhausted from not sleeping and stressed by other assignments. i've allotted thursday to be spent on this in some fashion, with the rest of the weekend being embroidery. i need to do this, or i risk failing. yasha really is right about that. i can't fail this. i won't let myself. having to take this class again would be even worse, and i'd really hate myself. i'm half tempted to take a full hour to disengage my brain and do something else, but i'm not sure if i really have the time.

2:51a
i'm hungry. i'm gonna get some cereal in a bit. i'm having trouble really focusing on what i'm reading. i'm reading it out loud, but it's not really registering. i guess it's probably time for another break...

3:39a
i really don't want to go back to work. but i have to. fuuuuuck. also, i'm slightly worried about my heater. it's been on for hours now and smells slightly of melting plastic...

3:47a
finished the third red bull. i'm definitely going to hold off on the fourth one for as long as i can. i'm slightly worried that i drank those 3 in under 11 hours. i really hope i don't die...

4:04a
holy crap, my feet are so warm! also, i feel like i'd be better off just sorta skimming this article. i really can't concentrate for long on all this science and psychology and neurology... also, ces is done. she finished a while ago, but i forgot to mention it. not sure if she'll be able to fall asleep though. liz is doing laundry. i'm not sure why she always does it late at night. and no, i don't think i'll be able to finish in the next 4.5 hours. my new goal: noon! that's 8 hours.

4:32a
i feel like my attention is wandering more and more. i have a feeling i would be better served to stop working for a while, maybe even leave my laptop, and do something completely unrelated. then again, i keep doing basically that, and nothing is helping. i think i'm going to lie down in bed and mess with music and play games, rather than do any form of reading. i hope this works... i'm definitely not going to class...

6:03a
i spent the last hour and a half organizing the playlist for my nano. i got all the way through tegan and sara, and it's 13.5G so far. i figure i've got about 2G left. i may have to go back through it again and ditch some things to make sure what i want will fit. i'm really excited. i'm about ready to start up again. i'm gonna work from my bed where it's toasty and comfy. when i go up for breakfast at 8 i'm gonna make tea and turn the heat on. i figure i'll save the last red bull for when i start to fade during the day.

6:21a
it's getting to sunrise. my first ever true all-nighter was somewhat successful. i'm not sure if i'm happy i did it, because the whole process was rather unhealthy, but it was beneficial. mostly. as it is, i have a feeling i'm going to be spending all the free time i have finishing...

6:46a
i definitely feel more productive now than i did at 4:30. that break definitely helped me get some focus back.

6:55a
whoa. i feel weirdly tingly all over and i think i'm starting to fall asleep. i think i'm gonna get breakfast and tea now, probably take a caffeine pill later.

7:20a
finally finished! only 2 left. i'm hoping i can get one more done before math, and the last one after math. ok, food and tea for real now.

8:16a
ok, food consumed, tea mostly gone, time to get cracking again. not looking forward to this...

8:37a
i hear maintenance starting the digging work outside of my closet. horray! yesterday they even fixed the front porch light! i'm excited!

9:24a
i'm having a little trouble staying awake now. at least the article i'm reading is written as if for people unfamiliar with the subject, so there's a lot of explanation. mmmmmy bed is toasty.

10:30a
and done with that one! only one to go, but i'm gonna wait to start it. i really need to rest my brain, even though i was on a roll with that one.

02 March 2010

slow down, life!

i am seriously fucked.

i'm really tempted to say i slept in thursday and email the final bib later in the day, like after math. which, i keep remembering, i have to create an ambigram for.

as it is, i'm going to be up till at least 2 tonight meeting my goal of finishing the half i started yesterday, and 2 more. and then i get to skim books to write the other 2 tomorrow. i just remembered i have to finish my design for my silk painting by 2 tomorrow, and i really wish i could skip ceramics but i don't want to fall behind on something else. i don't think i'll be sleeping tomorrow night. and i won't be sleeping through class, i'll be finishing these god-awful bibliographies.

so. things to do this week:
- silk painting design: due 2p 3/3
- 4 and 2 halves annotated bibliographies: due 9:30a 3/4
- ambigram of some word: due 12:30p 3/4
- the rest of ansel embroideries [finish 1, entire other]: due 1-2p 3/8

at least i have the weekend for the embroideries. because i have to completely ignore that until i finish english.

times to work:
3/2: now-2a [bibs]
3/3: 12-2p [bibs, silk design, shower?], 5p-?? [bibs, ambigram?]
3/4: 2p-1a [embroidery]
rest of the weekend for embroidery

and i haven't even had time to shower. i feel so gross, but i don't feel like i can spare the time. i'm going to try between class tomorrow.

i feel slightly better having written exactly what i need to do. slightly. i really shouldn't have baked brownies today, or gone through itunes for what to put on my new ipod when it comes, or even watched 'lost'. because that was 3 hours right there.

i am so totally fucked.

red bull and 5 hour energy are going to be my best friends from now until monday. or, well, from when i get some till monday...


something ridiculous to make me feel better. from the kink meme.

ETA:
i've also managed to chew a part of my lip rather raw. it feels funny on my mug...

[again]
oh god. it's 1, and i'm reading out loud, and hearing myself read what my eyes are seeing, but my brain is not interpreting anything that's going on. i managed to schedule out my life from tomorrow morning till sunday night, though i'm already planning on changing it. i have a feeling i'm going to 'sleep through' english, and am already composing an email to lodge regarding sending him my finished bib by thursday night. i'm going to be watching so many movies this weekend... at least 10. good thing i've got 15 unwatched ones saved...

[again again]
it's 2:30 and i finally finished the one i started yesterday [meaning monday]. fuck i'm in such deep shit with this. i'm done for the night though. so i'm winding down and waiting for the melatonin to set in. yeah, i'm totally screwed...

01 March 2010

sadness...

soooo the olympics are over now. and i don't know what to do with myself.

saturday's curling gold medal game was pretty fun. mainly because of the pants. sadly, they weren't the red-white-blue ones, but the red-white-grey ones. still. there was someone from canada who had an air horn and blew it a few of the times norway was shooting [or whatever it's called...]. he got booed by the fans for being a rude ass. and then when canada won i sang the random parts of their national anthem i know.


but holy shit sunday's hockey gold medal game was so intense! seriously. canada got 2 in the first period, but us scored once in the second and again no even a minute before the end of the third. oh god! i was trying to do my embroidery while watching, but by then i had pretty much abandoned it. way too intense. so, SUDDEN DEATH OVERTIME!! AND CANADA SCORED!!!! god i was so excited!!! i was following a spam thread on the hetalia com, filled with strange and random bouts of national pride. but, alas, i was deleted. stupid mods... i knew, though, that if canada lost they would be the most depressed silver medalists in the history of forever.

and then i made myself celebratory pancakes. i put a little hot chocolate mix in and poured the rest of the maple syrup in the microwave bottle. i used the last of the bisquick to make 3 giant pancakes of delicious. and the 'canada' on facebook enjoyed my antics.

the closing was so fucking weird. william shatner and michael j fox talked about being canadian, there were dancing mounties, giant inflatable beavers, a kid dressed as a hockey puck, and i had no idea what i was watching. at all. it was just so weirdly amazing. except nbc sucks... but i missed he nickelback/avril lavgne concert, which is totally okay with me.

in other news, i'm desperately procrastinating on my bibliographies. like nobody's business. it's really bad, but i just can't motivate myself to work. and i would skip the class they're due, except we don't really have class next week, only one-on-one meetings. so i have 5 to do by class thursday. i need to just bookmark my hetalia pages and close the windows...

in other news, yasha is back to being communicable! [i'm not sure if that's the right word... though nicole may argue he is an easily-spreadable disease...] he got a new phone that works finally, and we had fun conversations last night. it made me very happy to have him back. not that he went anywhere...

i managed to successfully cook salmon for dinner today. the flesh-y side was nice and crispy golden brown, and all the flesh was cooked. and i even had a salad!

i ordered a new-ish ipod today. i got a light green 16G nano, 4th gen. not the most recent, the one with the camera, cuz i don't like that green. hopefully it'll be here by the end of the week, monday at the latest. and i pre-ordered "lord sunday" because garth nix has finally gotten his act together and finished the series! it makes me quite excited. i'm gonna have to re-read at least "superior saturday" over break, for it'll be waiting for me when i get back.

i'm angry at my laptop. i'm getting better at making the space bar work, though it tends to skip when i type 'gold medal' [whoa i didn't that time!]. the t has been giving me rouble [grr], and the middle thumb-button for scrolling has stopped working for some reason. very annoying... i keep intending to take it to the help desk, at least to get a new battery, but i'm lazy.

i guess i should do one more round of F5, and then get started on these bibs...


i love you, blue. seriously. she did both pics i have today. it's highly amusing that in men's and women's hockey it's canada-usa-finland.

I FORGOT THE FINAL MEDAL COUNT!

United States: 9 gold, 15 silver, 13 bronze: 37 [winter olympic record]
Germany: 10 gold, 13 silver, 7 bronze: 30
Canada: 14 gold, 7 silver, 5 bronze: 26 [winter olympic record gold]