mail the tickets to my cousin...
You've locked yourself outside and no-one will be home for a few hours you:
call yasha and see what he's doing
You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?
HOLYSHITWHATTHEFUCK!! well, now i know what i look like...
Have you ever kicked a wall, door, etc.?
totally
What are you wearing?
clothes. several layers of them cuz it's freezing outside
What are you excited for?
SATURDAY AND THE RETURN TO RVA!
Do you like to cuddle and snuggle?
quite
Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
see: yasha [that's a yes...]
Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
mother
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
yeah
Do you want your tongue pierced?
NO
Are you listening to music right now?
that i am. my itunes is getting really huge...
Are you wearing makeup?
yeah
Do you tend to waste a lot of your money?
i used to kinda, but i'm working on not
Do you find smoking unattractive?
depends on the person
Where is the person you miss the most right now?
i don't really miss a person... i miss a place...
Your parents split; would you want to live with your mom or dad?
i'd probably spend more time with my dad, but i'd figure out how to live on my own since i'm almost 20
Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
probably, though i think he's mostly gotten over it by now [it's been almost 5 months, get over it...]
Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
psh, as if. i was angry at myself for not going to bed earlier...
Does anyone like you at the moment?
possibly? idk... if he pursues me, i'm denying him straight up. though i doubt he will...
What would you say if someone told you they were in love with your brother?
"really? ooooook..."
Two days from now this time, where will you be?
probably the same place i am now: on my bed online...
What's the worst thing to happen to you today?
i woke up. not to say the whole day was bad, just the fact that i had to wake up was bad.
Is there a certain person that makes you feel safe?
most of the time, he does. and sometimes he calls me to say he's coming to get me so we can do donuts in the snowy/icey deserted mall parking lot. and then i freak out a bit. [see pic at end]
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
nope, i don't really hate
Do you hate the last girl you were text messaging?
nope
What was on your mind mostly today?
"wow, i was an idiot for staying up that late last night..."
Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
hardly.... mainly the horizontal ones like ^_^
Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
yeah
Are you wasting your time on someone?
nope
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
don't think so
Have you kissed anyone in the past 2 days?
nope. though i was bitten and licked last night... not like that!
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
uhhh..... i was next to yasha when i took my last picture, but neither of us were in said picture...
Will tomorrow be better than today?
possibly
Do you hate when people smoke around you?
only if the smoke is blowing in my face and that's all i'm breathing...
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
lately i've been so dead that i don't. but i sometimes have that problem
Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
i don't think so. because even my bestest friends have their moments. wait. i think anna would be nothing but fun, even with her diabetes
Is your hair up or down right now?
down
Do you like hugs and kisses?
hugs: yes; kisses: depends
Think back to September were you in a relationship?
nope, had just gotten out of one
Do you feel like you have life figured out?
nope
How's your heart right now?
good, why?
Do you ever bite your lip?
sometimes, i guess. cuz i like the pain of it. seriously. and then it gets too chapped so i put chapstick on.
Do you think two people can last forever?
if they have a balance, yeah
Where do you go when you want to be alone?
my room
Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
yep
So, what if you married and had kids with the last person you kissed?
i don't even remember who that is...
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
rva... god, i'm so ready to go back...
What is your current annoyance?
stupid early work hours...
Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a C?
yep. first and last name
Are you a bad influence?
psh
Do you get called baby, babe, or honey most?
hun, actaully
When did you last cry?
saturday night. i flipped out.
Do you have a favorite number?
69. heh. i blame laura.
Do you bite your nails?
nope, i tend to grow them out. though it's hard with my major...
If you could spend more time with someone you used to be very close with, would you?
probably
When will your next kiss be?
no clue
What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
stocking...
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i was gonna say something here, but i totally forgot...
but i just remembered something else! i read a fill last night about Canada being asexual and the other nations trying to get into his pants... but that's not important. what was important was the website resources linked at the end. and it made me feel so much better about my own asexual-ness. because that's pretty much what i am.
sex itself hold no interest for me. i have no real desire to participate in it. which i'm sure is part of the reason christian didn't work out: i know he wanted to have sex with me, though he never went out and said it. but i really didn't. not just cuz it was him, but in general. and it only ever bothered me 3 times that i can recall: telling bri about how i'd never done anything beyond kissing with emily, telling jenny the same thing, and being with christian in general. and when yasha gets it in his head that i need to hook up with someone [generally of the female persuasion, which would probably be preferable anyway].
the site
and it's not that reading that fill and finding that site made me realize and put into words that i'm asexual. i figured that out a while ago, back when i was with emily. but that site helped me understand what it means specifically and figure out 'to what degree' i guess. cuz i do masturbate. gosh it feels weird to admit that someplace people i know can find...
anyway, the promised pic from the meme:
so perfect!
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