food diary!

i've just started a food diary.

because it depresses me how little i eat, and maybe keeping a written record of what i eat when will convince me to eat more.

hopefully.

in other news, the schedule for english 200 is scary. like, for real. i have 2 weeks to come up with a topic and research question. i need 8-12 sources in an annotated bibliography. but i know for sure the final paper is due may 4. i moved my calendar from the wall where it was to above my sewing table where i can more readily get to it and see it.

for some reason vuze is being dumb and not downloading things. it's only uploading 13 kB/s, which is low. i'm trying to download 9, but so far i've got nothing. and it's been trying for the last hour. there's only 4 in the swarm, so maybe that's it? i have no idea...

and i'm reconfiguring my battery bar, so it charged fully and is now in the uncharging cycle. i may just need to get a whole new battery soon, because this is ridiculous...

also, 'Trials' ended today. i finally commented/reviewed, starting with my utter inarticulateness at the fact that it ended. i wanted it to keep going! but alas. the authornon will be de-anoning in the coming week, possibly adding a couple more chapters, so that's good. i might have to go re-read it because i've got separation anxiety and don't want it to be over.

i fried some salmon for dinner. i had to put it back on, though, because it was undercooked at first. but it was tasty. i ate the whole thing, skin and all. i really should eat more fish. i may start getting fresh from the fish counter at kroger and freezing it to eat later. because i forgot how tasty fish is until today. it was jsut salmon, but still. mmmmm

i'm not sure if these entries are disjointed and confusing because each new paragraph i start is a new topic. at least i'm kinda consistent.

i got my textbooks today. my cinema one is used, and you can tell. the spine was broken at about the middle and it looks like the front half is about to come completely away from the binding. it was still $71, which is bullshit. at least my other one, for english 200 was only $17. and i got some cheap-not-moleskins for notebooks, only to realize they're squared and not plain lined. oh well. now math will be easier.

i spent over 2 hours last night sewing. it was awesome. the vest turned out pretty ok, though i'm not very happy with the neckline. oh well. i turned the sleeves into pockets and it's still pretty cool. i hope i get around to actually wearing it...

boobs. lolwut? idk...

so good to be back!

finally back and moved in! gosh, it's so awesome.

mom went with me to come back. i drove the whole way, which doesn't really bother me, since i know she'll have to drive the whole way back herself. but then she insisted we set up the crock pot to make a pot roast stew thing, then go to kroger, then to lowes. and so now i have some random food things, but not, like, bagels. and i just used the last of my shortening to make brownies which are practically glued to the pan. i had a hard time getting one 'piece' out with a fork. it's pretty much just crumbles.

i've been feeling rather domestic today. i cleaned up my mess from last night and made brownies to sorta apologize for nicole eating most of the roast from last night. i changed my sheets and put my nice flannel ones on. i finished that fleece hoodie mom started forever ago - and now i jsut have this urge to sew things. so i looked through the jean book, intending to start something, but i need so many notions for everything...

so i decided to make something with those extra tshirts anna found last year, only i sniffed them and they smell like man. so i have to wash them before i can do anything with them. and i almost typed 'warsh' there...

so now i'm waiting for the dryer to finish so i can start sewing again. i just really want to sew! i'm planning on making a shirt with the border of a bandana on it for a neckline. and i hope it looks cool... i might just make it a vest or something cuz i have 5 mediums and 1 small.

i have a closet again! it's awesome. mom let me have the hanging rack that was in her sewing area since my actual closet is pretty much unusable. it fits perfectly in the indent where rachel's poster is. only now you can't really see the poster... i hung up all my senior invites next to shelley's painting above my sewing table. looking through them makes me happy, especially because i have a mini copy of ben guthorn's bawlmer hon.

i suddenly feel like talking about my most favoriteest fill ever. it's ongoing, and is updated about twice a day, which is really nice. the prompt was this:

Matthew and Alfred say their farewells, promising to meet the next day for lunch, and they depart in their own directions, each heading for home. Matthew walks happily, not really taking in his surroundings, and turns down an alley he always uses as a shortcut home.

And then, he feels the knife in his body. He looks up, and into a face he does not know, the details burning into his mind before the killer slashes again, this time more fatally. Matthew falls to darkness.

And wakes, the sent of plywood and diesel around him. It's pitch dark, and he is flat on his back. He reaches up to realize he is trapped on all sides by wood, and he panics. He screams, knowing no one can hear him, and pounds on the wood, sobbing, vainly trying to reign in his terror.

And then, he can hear them. The voices of the others. The other victims of this killer, all buried like he is now, buried in the Canadian wilderness.

What I would like is a fleshing out of this, please. How is he found? What would be the consequences if he is never found, and he is trapped in an airless box, doomed to forever die of asphyxiation, and come back again, only to die over and over again?

it apparently came to OP in a dream, which is pretty terrifying. and at first i didn't want to read it, but for some reason i decided to give it a try. and boy am i glad i did. because it's amazing. and kinda terrifying at times, and very dark. but i love it. there's 41 parts right now. and it's nowhere near done. currently, Alfred and Matt are going around Canada and digging up the other victims and placing Canadian flags at their heads, then calling the police to find them. Matt was in that box for about 3 and a half months, so he's a little 'off' now.

read it here~

not that anyone will... i'm not even sure why i take the time to rant about these things here...

in other news, ces is planning to hit the gym tomorrow [for a real work out, not just to check it out] and i'm tempted to go with. because this new place sounds amazing.

also, i now have about a zillion pills to take. i'm trying the natural approach to dealing with my ADD, which means fish oil, omega-3, and DHA! fred recommended this one pill that's highly concentrated omega-3 and DHA, and when i opened the bottle they're gel-filled capsules. like, i can see the gel and it moves a bit. weird. they also smell vaguely of fish, and gave me slight fish breath for a while. in addition to that, i've got a vitamin, a B + C + iron pill [that looks like sprinkles in a capsule], and zyflamend for my stupid ankle. and at night i'm going to start taking melatonin to help me sleep better.

after this past more-than-a-month of going to bed around 10 and getting up by 9 at the latest has completely thrown off my 'normal' school cycle. so i went to bed around 12:30, and finally couldn't stay in bed at 9:30. though i had been more or less awake since around 8-8:30. which i guess is good because my classes start at 9:30 at the latest. it's just a little weird because i was so used to staying up late and sleeping in at least a little bit. stupid work...

idek... crossdressing!maid!America and Canada!

oh yeahhh

gosh, it's been a while...

NEWS!
i've developed an unhealthy obsession with 'Hetalia.' like, seriously. it's starting to disturb me just how much i'm into it...

i feel like part of my major! making progress on my assignments, though i was just assigned 100 thumbnails for textiles, and i've done 17... though my first felting is going well!

for some dumb reason i've been staying up past 2, sometimes even till 3. this bit me in the ass today as i had to get up at 7:30 for bio. so i was almost falling asleep in all my classes...

MWF library nap times are wonderful! i go up to the 4th floor, find a chair in the back, and practically pass out. still didn't help much today...

cesley ate the last cookie i made. but it's okay, cuz i ate the last banana fritter she made. also, liz needs to step up her cooking.

ces and i are planning a shrimp day. i'm gonna make scampi, or else just saute some shrimp with OLD BAYYYY and maybe cook some fun noodles... not sure what she's gonna do...

i really need to get around to riding my bike. it would probably be very easy MWF at 8:30 cuz there won't be a lot of traffic - people or cars.

i was humiliated today. nicole came over and so we played 4-person games: super smash bros and pokemon stadium 1 & 2 [just the mini games]. i was last place in everything.

i've decided to turn that valance curtain i got at lowes into a little bag. it'll be awesome! i'm thinking of lining it cuz the fabric is so thin, which means another curtain or a trip to BF...

i recently discovered an amazing website: mylifeisaverage.com. it makes me want to build forts and make dumb harry potter references and be a general dork.

today i realized what i want my first tattoo to be of: a narwhal. now i just have to figure out where to put it...

it was decided last week by the roomies [under the influence of a 1am trip to 7-11] that i would get completely smashed on jello shots.

yasha has made me promise to not get smashed on jello shots until he can be there. i'm half-tempted to try 1 or 2 before then, so i have some idea of what i'm getting myself into.

damn, i really want some jello now. cuz it's pretty fucking awesome.

i think i'm falling behind in english 215. i keep not reading what we're supposed to, in favor of my continued 'Hetalia' obsession. this really needs to change or i'll be in trouble for those tests...

the basement storage leaks when it rains. and once it rained really hard and some water managed to get into my room, under my desk. maintenance came, but have yet to do anything...

sometimes i think about christian and what he thinks of me now. but i'm too afraid to ask yasha, though i'm not really sure why...

i get to dissect a fetal pig in bio lab. for 2 weeks straight. not really looking forward to that...

yesterday i renamed my recycle bin 'narnia' after a MLIA about renaming it 'hell'. now when i recycle stuff i won't feel guilty cuz it gets to go to narnia. [not that i felt guilty...]

i have orange hair. and it's pretty awesome. when i run out of the color i got, i may ask yasha for the other half of his. but maybe he wants it...

either way, i'm waiting for this to fade almost completely before redying it. that way i help save my hair from a horrible over-dyed death.

i think i'll go to bed now. or at least lie in bed listening to my ipod. which i re-renamed 'silvia' yesterday.