lazy

man, i had this epic thought process thing that i was doing as i wrote my paper yesterday, but i'm too lazy to post it now. oh well.

i was up for 34 hours straight, not counting the hour-ish dozing-nap i had around 6a. i drank a 12oz red bull and a 16oz jolt to help me write that paper, and jessica got me a 20oz mocha frap to keep me up through "the royal tenenbaums" which i thoroughly enjoyed. and then i walked my bike home and locked it under the deck because i knew i would fall over if i tried to ride it or carry it up the stairs. i went to bed at 6 last night, woke up around 6 this morning, and had bursts of pseudo-sleep till around 11:30. 34 hours awake, followed by about 14 hours of sleep. awesome.

TO DO TODAY:
- shower. i feel gross.
- eat.
- watch 'lost' since i slept through it.
- deliver rent.
- move my bike up to the deck.
- clean up my room.
- attempt some studio work.

well, it's 4 now, so i guess i should get started on all that...

idk. it's really hot... outside, i mean.

Procrastination's a bitch

And yet I'm still doing it.

I have 17.5 hours left to write this English paper, but for some reason I'm terribly unstressed and not worried at all. It's a little distressing how unconcerned I am about this whole thing.

I've currently got almost 4 full pages, and I'm about to add onto something in the middle of all that - orthographic coding and spelling and such. I got a bit stuck on the 'learning disabilities' part, probably because I was trying to write it while Bayly was at the table with Anna and I. Of course nothing got done. I sorta stopped in the middle of a sentence and I have no idea where I was trying to go with it.

I got some stuff from Aunt Lynne about occupational therapy and such. I WAS SO HAPPY!! I should really go read those articles... I'm probably going to quote her a bit, and I asked her a couple questions that I'm waiting on responses for, which I kinda need for the next part of my paper. So I think I'm just waiting for her to get back to me.

Or maybe I just really really don't want to write this goddamn thing. That could be it.

I'm really happy, though, with my overall performance this semester and the progress I've made on all my other finals. I'm solid for a B in all 3 math classes, an A for textiles, likely a B for ceramics, an A in cinema, and as long as I don't completely bomb this paper at least a B but probably an A for English. I've finished my math final, I'm not worried about my cinema final. I finished glazing my stuff for ceramics, so that'll be done by Wednesday. I've done 6 scarves for textiles, and I'll get the other 4 done by Thursday evening, hopefully, and then I can spend the weekend thinking about how to present the damn things.

I AM UNSTOPPABLE!

And I just downloaded a really fantastically amusing and amazing FST. It's called "too sexy for your party," and it's for the Bad Touch Trio.
"Everybody" Backstreet Boys "The Bad Touch" Bloodhound Gang "Hips Don't Lie (cover)" The Fray "I'm Too Sexy" Right Said Fred "Highway to Hell" AC/DC "Daylight" Matt & Kim "Poker Face" Lady Gaga "Like A Boss" The Lonely Island "Stay Young" Oasis "Boys Don't Cry" The Cure "Love Machine" Arctic Monkeys "Fuck Her Gently" Tenacious D "All For Love" Bryan Adams

I'm listening to it to pump me up.

If my library wasn't so ginormous, I'd try to throw together a 'pump me up' playlist right now. I may just have to attempt a Genius concoction. It starts with "Daylight" and includes lots of Passion Pit, Cobra Starship, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Postal Service, and MGMT.

i feel like this is my mood right now... i'm hopped up on red bull, leemealone...

anyway...

i have nothing to really talk about.

lately i've been online less. when refreshing the same pages and rereading bookmarked stories gets too repetitive, i tend to just put the comp to sleep, go upstairs and curl up on the sofa with a book. i'm already half way through "fool moon" and i just ordered "grave peril" and "darkly dreaming dexter" today. it makes me feel warm inside when shipping costs more than the books. i love buying used!

i've got a hot library date with anna sunday... and our english papers...

yesterday i looked at an apartment - finally! it was kinda not good though... nicole and i checked out another one today, and it was also a no-go. it's a little frustrating and off-putting for me that nicole has a bigger budget than i do. i'm looking at $1000 as the top of the range, so then split between two people. i feel like nicole might have higher expectations than i do, which is frustrating. but we'll find something. my goal is the end of may, though i guess realistically it would be by the end of my summer class.

anyway, i think i'm gonna go read some more. i put the book down right in the middle of a super climactic moment - a loup-garou is ravening the police station! ahhh!!

i have no idea...

fuuuuuuuuuuuck

soooooo something's up with my laptop. it won't connect to the internet. every time i try, it says there's an issue with the network adapter drivers or hardware. so i tried to take it to the g2g help desk, since it's under warranty, but when i got there it was close to 6 and the stupid thing closes ridiculously early at 2. so i'll be dropping it off when i come to class tomorrow morning.

WHAT THIS MEANS is i will be online very little for the next week, possibly more. which is really not good for my english paper, but i have that backed up in, like, 2 other places so i should be good.

in other news, i completely finished 3 of my silk scarves and did the resist on 2 more. i finally have a sort of idea for my math final, though i have way too little time to do it in. i'm gonna try quilting a hypercube. we'll see... at least i have my own sewing machine, so i can work on it all night if i have to/no other idea comes to mind. i wish i had an iron though... also, maintenance finally came and put up this neat metal grid thing over my window so it won't get broken again, and they futzed around with the back gate so it actually swings.

NO PICTURE because yeah. i left my ehd at the house, and i'm in the library right now...

but hey, at least with no internet to distract me all the time i can get a ton of reading done!

JOURNEYYYYY

so, exciting news regarding journey. BFTW has been asked to be chasers because we're huge and awesome. wow, that sounds dirty...


THIS IS THE MOST EXCITING EMAIL I'VE GOTTEN IN, LIKE, MONTHS!! seriously, aside from all my ff.n alerts, the only emails i get are spam and order confirmations for all the shit i order online [still waiting for my tea from republic of tea and that random woot shirt. oh, and i ordered a leatherman multitool! god, i think i might have a problem...]

ANYWAY

wow, i think hoogily and his amusing blogs are rubbing off on me...

i did the first of that 30 days meme i found. favorite song = "lucid dreams" by franz ferdinand. so i drabbled, recorded myself air-drumming the whole song, and then posted both on dA.

also, i was up late last night working on my english paper, but i still only wrote 2 pages. because i'm terrible like that. and i meant to throw today too, but that didn't happen because i'm too lazy. i almost missed 'lost' because i was too caught up in being retarded with that meme thing. AND THAT WAS ALMOST A REALLY TERRIBLE THING BECAUSE I WOULD'VE MISSED HEARTWARMING HUGO/LIBBY AND DESMOND BEING SIMULTANEOUSLY AWESOME AND DOUCHEY. the dude was all zen, and then ran down wheelchair!locke in a school parking lot then drove off. but then he got thrown down a well by not-locke.

god, 'lost' makes absolutely no sense to someone who has either not watched it for any length of time. BUT OHMYGOD IT'S ALMOST OVER WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE WHEN IT ENDS!!

ok, i need to stop before i abuse my capslock key anymore than i already did...

yet more evidence of why i love candesceres. angel!portugal is grumpy.

i may have developed a dependancy...

for every due date in english this semester, i've gone out and got red bull to keep me up the night before so i can actually meet that due date. although, the last 2 times i've gotten a 4-pack and stayed up all night. this time i only got 2, and i already drank one last night, and i won't be staying up all night. i'm so incredibly glad i don't have to have the entire paper for tomorrow. i can just write as much as i can and then stop. and finish it later. like, the day before it's due. i really hope i don't actually do that though...

i've gotten part way through the intro so far. go funnels! it's gone from "From almost the moment we are born until we die, our brains are constantly changing and developing" to "Once the process becomes second-nature, the brain can be free to concentrate on what is being said, rather than how to transfer thought to paper." still haven't gotten to my thesis yet... all in good time, i suppose. since this needs to be 13+ pages, i can take my sweet time getting there.

i'm actually rather happy with how the point-sentence outline turned out. real sentences and everything!

in other news, tomorrow i need to do some wheel practice to make up for almost a week of nothing, and figure out a better reason behind doing silk paintings of maritime signal flags besides "hey, this is cool!"

also, instead of going home this weekend for carver celebration, i'm letting heather take my ticket and going to paw-paw's to learn to weld instead. i'm still kinda mixed about it, but i feel kinda bad because i haven't seen him in probably close to 2 years. and i really do want to learn to weld.

oh, also! i planned out my course load for the next 2 years. i have a feeling i'll be stuck with 17 credits again in the fall, but only 14 by spring 2012. which hopefully will be awesome. i need to pick an english class and a random elective for the fall though. registration is next week.

saturday was fun. went to belle isle - finally! - with emily and 2 of her roommates. fun times mostly... a kid slipped into the river and went down some of the rapids before a couple guys fished him out. emily helped pull him out. it was pretty scary.

and then when we went to the intercultural festival, she embellished the story with more daring exploits, including delivering a baby, fighting off a polar bear, shooting a nazi, and riding unicorns. i wish my life was that exciting...

i don't think i've talked about a hetalia fic in a while. really there's nothing new... though i occasionally feel the need to rant about canada and french. so i will. because he doesn't speak french-french, he speaks french-canadian. which is completely different. so it always bothers me when some author has him speaking french-french, especially swear words. because it's really easy to find quebecois swear words. they're on wikipedia, for fuck's sake! and that's one of the reasons i so enjoy reading everything orangepencils writes. she lives in quebec and speaks quebecois and all her canadians speak quebecois, not metropolitan french. especially quebec. he only speaks quebecois. [well, not only, he just doesn't like english.] the only reason i remembered this today was because folie a plusiers has been updated recently [finally!] and canada speaks french-french. and suddenly i realized how much it bothered me, the use of french swears, rather than quebecois ones. but i'm worried the author would take it the wrong way if i suggested using quebecois, especially swears, rather than french. i wish i could find a for-real online translator... oh well...

unrelated: it's not even 8, and i'm almost finished that red bull. not cool.

rant-related. and because it's sexy.

dead

i was up all night finishing that paper. i finished it just before 8, including re-typing the works cited page. i futzed with a bit of the spacing so it's more obviously 6 pages, even though technically it's just under 5.5. whatever, i don't care.

i'm gonna turn this thing in, stay conscious through whatever he has to say, and then go nap till 1:30. it'll be awesome.

english is gonna be the death of me...

for serious, no joke. i have to write this entire review of research paper tonight. i'm expecting it to be an all-nighter, which is going to suck. at least i don't have math and i can sleep through cinema.

had my advising appointment today. nothing really new. i'm taking 2 summer classes this summer, and i calculated i can take 14-15 credits a semester for the next 2 years to get everything done. after this semester i'll have 61/123, and i'm taking 7 this summer. i'm really happy with the way the summer courses are organized. i'm taking 2 3-week long intensive courses: psych 101 and art of india. i have each for 3 hours a day, 5 days a week. psych at 9, history at 3. there's about a week between the end of finals and the start of summer classes, and my sessions are done by june 11. so i'll be going back to work later than usual, but oh well.

i really don't have anything else to talk about. i only have a few classes this week. no ceramics and no math, which is awesome, though i still have to go in and practice on the wheel. only 1 textiles class, and the usual cinema and english classes.

mmm, red bull.

ugh, this is going to kill me, isn't it...

i'm going home this weekend to attend a giant pillow fight in dc with yasha. i might be hanging out with shelley as well, which will be sweet. and i have to plan out when i'm taking what courses for the rest of college with dad. i'm already planning on taking 3 studios in the fall: two textiles and 1 drawing. i'm really excited about drawing, mainly because after the basic one i can take life drawing. that'll have to make up for the fact that apparently i can't take anatomy... maybe i can squeeze into anatomy for the dancer and fill my open electives.

grr, degree requirements are a bitch and a half to deal with...

fuck school, man...

sound of a thousand whispering words

[again with the song lyrics...]

today was a really good first day back. it was all around a complete success, though maybe not with regards to food...

i learned how to center and make a little cup-bowl on the wheel today. i made 6 in about an hour and a half and got to leave early. i also got incredibly messy. like, the knees of my pants were rather clay-y, as was my shirt. but it was fun and i was happy that i figured out how to do it so fast. i need to remember to bring a container for water wednesday though... but yeah, incredibly fun and satisfying.

not so fun inbetween period, though i ate some tasty soup. attempted to do my quilt patterns, but realized i didn't give myself nearly enough time so yeah. the walk to class was really fun though. literally, as soon as i stepped out of the door it started pouring like crazy, so i had to grab my umbrella before locking the door. between gilmer and goshen i discovered my shoes were soaked through completely. along goshen i took note of my state of wet from the waist down. and by the time i got to the classroom it had stopped raining. i took my shoes off and spent class barefoot, which was pretty fun. the floor of the dye room is strangely gritty though. and the hall to jewelry and fibers has a very warm floor.

i got all my silk painting on the 2 restisted parts done. they look pretty good, even though my shaky hands made my aim sorta wonky... my left palm is mostly covered in dye, green for the most part, as a result of icky bottle caps. oh well. more mess! the first quadrant is purple-y mainly, and the second one is greens. i'm not really sure how to go about the third one color wise... i'll figure it out wednesday.

after class i hit up rite aid and then went to anna's to get a haircut. we went for the angled bob, which looks pretty cool. i don't have any pictures yet, but anna took a couple. and i flipped her off brit-style in one because i was feeling weird. idk...

i hung out with anna, tay, and hassim for a few hours after that. we ate at 5 guys - or, they did, i brought my smoothie over. we went to coldstone and tay got emily to sing. we went to the top of the bookstore parking deck and just loitered for a while. it was really cold though, and windy, so we left. we cut through the fab and visited jenny in her studio. and then we went back to biggs. hassim is getting into film photography, so i talked to him a bit about it. it was nice to be able to still help someone with my vast knowledge of photography.

all in all, a good night. my shirt is really itchy though, even though i had a towel on my shoulders.

i'm not looking forward to tomorrow at all... i really need to write this english paper, but i really can't see that happening... i got a preemptive 4-pack of red bull. hopefully it won't come down to that though.

america with his most common partners. i really like this artist's style.

here comes the nighttime

[rawr, matt & kim is awesome. are awesome? one of those...]

i got to work produce yesterday. it was kinda fun. and heavy. seriously, one bucket of just lettuce weighed so much! i had to get joe to get one such bucket down from where barret stashed it too high... but yeah. i ran produce for a good 4 or 5 hours. i thought i did a pretty good job. i ended up getting called to bag a lot around 5 or 6, and when i finally made it back produce was a mess. seriously, there were almost no bananas left. also, within an hour of me working it when i got there, when i was putting up bananas [we went through 5 boxes while i was there. no joke...] barret offered me a summer job at more than i make now. sooo yay! he said i had the hands for it, because i was being careful and specific with my banana placement, instead of just kinda tossing them up there. awesome.

i did my taxes last night. refunds all around!

drove back to rva today. exciting. i don't know what it is about 95, but it seriously always puts me to sleep. which is really bad when i'm driving... but yeah, i got in before 11, which was awesome. and then i sat around online til, like, 2 before showering... and then sitting around some more until close to 5 before getting some food. i ended up getting 5 guys and heading to the fab to finish my resisting. so that's done. none of the rest of my homework is though... i'm really terrible, and this week is going to suck.

i've got a paper due thursday morning and some sort of math creation due thursday afternoon. neither of which have even been started. actually, the document for english has the page number header coded in, my info blurb, and a title. but that's the easy part. god, i'm so totally screwed. i still need to find out current handwriting rehabilitation methods. i can tell this week is going to be terrible.

as for math, i know i want to do a narwhal tessellation. maybe something like this, only i have no idea what to put in the sky...

mmmmm, this is an amazing story. it makes me feel guilty for loving it so much...

break? what break?

first of all: i have a weird combination of "love game" by lady gaga, "living in the sky with diamonds" by cobra starship, and "the bird and the worm" by owl city stuck in my head. it's so strange... it goes something like, "hold me and love me - if you're the bird - we're living in the sky with diamonds." now imagine it with the melodies. weird.

also: fala got a twitter, and after some unsuccessful searches we found each other. i'm sort of getting into twitter now. i can't say 'again' cuz i was never very into it before... but yeah.

i've got work over break. money-work. like, more than i was expecting. i'm working everyday tuesday thru saturday. i was hoping to leave saturday so i had all of sunday to futz around and do the stupid resist, but i'll have to go back sunday.

tues: 12-8p
wed: 10-6p
thurs: 1:30-9:30p
fri: 2:30-9:30p
sat: 12-8p

this throws a wrench in my yasha plans, so we're gonna do something tomorrow after he gets out of class. no idea what, but i offered him gas money since i know he never has enough of it. i'm hoping to work on my english paper tomorrow, but we'll see how that goes.

daylight savings time started. the sucky version, where i lost an hour. and i didn't even sleep very well last night. so, i was still laughing loudly at 11:30 before i remembered everyone else was in bed and i should really be quiet because it's not 10:30 like my body is convinced it is. so now i'm still rather awake. it's altogether unfortunate.

i did something i'm terribly ashamed of today. like you wouldn't believe. i need to remember to delete my history...

ok, awesome-fill-of-the-moment time. it's called "the screeching bitches" and so far it's pretty awesome. in general, it's about the awkward forming of a band. i have to say in general because the request is rather detailed and awesome. part of the reason i love it so is because of french-canadian!matthew because that is win.

full prompt:
Alfred is in a band with Arthur and Francis. Recently they lost their drummer in the Incident and now they need a new one. Francis drags his ex-military cousin from Quebec, Mattieu in for a session and the poor guy is basically strong armed into joining.

At first Mattie seems quiet and polite but Alfred realizes that the Canadian is a master of the art of stealth snark. Alfred and Mattie settle into something of a love/hate kind of friendship, but eventually it stirs up into something a little hotter and a lot deeper.

Must haves:
1. Mattie has ptsd, is an autodidact, is writing (poetry, short stories, novels, everything really) as he lives/wastes his life away on Francis's couch.
2. Alfred is an astrophysics doctorate student.

the filler is slightly off in her part numbering, but that's just me being ridiculous... i'm half convinced bay is the writer, but i think that's because i want her to be writing something i'm reading. she mentioned working on a new fill, so i'm just hoping i managed to find it because she's awesome.

matt told the rents he smokes. which slightly surprises me - the telling-the-rents part, not the smoking part. i knew he smoked a while ago. so whenever he 'goes for a walk' it's more obvious he's going out to smoke.

mom made fudge. it's delicious. and it's just chocolate chips, condensed milk, vanilla, and a bit of salt.

i've recently been going back through all my posts here and editing my tags. like, deleting the random ones that only have one use. i may just go back the beginning and retag everything, but i feel like that's pointless and will be really weird for me, rereading everything i've done since august 2008. because i did some strange things, like that pic-a-day thing back in like october 08. yeah.

and my spelling is sucking right now. i should probably just brush my teeth [which i'm making a point of doing every night starting with break], taking that melatonin, and and winding down.

complete crack. i have to say, the game is tailor-made for england, and has quite the potential for addiction.

home again, home again, etc...

took the greyhound home yesterday for break. exciting, as usual. mom picked me up because dad was working and yasha was on his way to new york with heather for the tim burton exhibit. and everyone who knows him is incredibly jealous. i know i am...

anyway, everything has been going well so far. i brought up the unfortunate housing situation over dinner at red lobster, and when we got home i walled nicole. so i am confident we'll be living together next year, which should be fun. seriously, no sarcasm there. hopefully it'll all work out, seeing as we're both rather prone to add... we should probably start looking for places soon.

matt didn't get into college park, but he did get into cua and pitt. we're still waiting for umbc, and i forget what's up with vt.

dad's going to cali [i think] for the week for work. which sucks for family time, but means there's less people fighting over cars. at least i got to see him some before he left. he's taking a red eye back next sunday. i'm not sure what this means for transport back. i do want to come back saturday because i've gotta work on my silk painting. i need to have all the resisting done by class on monday.

i've got work to do over break, which is unfortunate. i have to work on my review of research paper for english and figure out how my actual paper is going down. i need to come up with ideas for quilt patterns, though that should be pretty easy. i have to do my math final, which i'm pretty sure is going to be some sort of narwhal tessellation. just because. and i may be working-working, though dan hasn't gotten back to me.

and i've got some half-baked [heh] plans for st patty's day with yasha. we're hanging out during the day, because he's got plans with heather for the evening/night. over im we proposed plans, which led to a really weird conversation involving cross-dressing [that's saved as a draft here so i can remember it forever], but i'm realizing i'm not sure exactly how the pre-plan is going to work out. he needs to acquire things. i hope he does. because yeah. [slightly related: i'm hoping 420 pans out for me as well...]

recently i broke down and downloaded a shit-ton of owl city. stupid fsts getting me interested in stuff i normally wouldn't be... like german industrial rock. and french rap - wait, that was jenny. anyway... yeah, i have owl city, which led to me breaking down and getting mgmt, because dammit, it's catchy. which reminded me to download matt & kim, even though they're not related to mgmt at all. oh, my musical escapades...

oh god, i almost started talking about this incredible fic i finished reading, but then i remembered exactly how incredibly inappropriate it is. because it really is. it makes me feel terrible and giddy at the same time, and i love it. grr. stupid guilty pleasures putting me on trains to hell...

uhh... i want to keep talking, but i have no idea what else to say...

well, i just finished blood-winged amazing story, "at the end of all things." and i'm terribly sad that it's over. wahhhh, i don't want it to be over! also, i want her to write more prucan, but that's really beside the point... i'm so sad, i'm rereading the whole thing. or i'm just really bored and craving me some prucan...

idek... pixiv is cool.

sleep is for the carefree

putting the pic at the beginning today. evil!steampunk!arthur by annie. it really is quite amazing.

i got a 4-pack of red bull after textiles. opened the first one at 5:05. it's really the only energy drink i can stand to drink. i am fully expecting to be up literally all night working on these bibs. it's going to suck, yes. and how done i am by about 9 determines whether i'll be going to class or not.

first order of business: finish the one from last week. 3 pages left to summarize, and it's done.

i'll do a couple books after that, considering they'll take the longest to 'read'. i'm just going to skim, but still. and i'll periodically check my hetalia pages for a bit of a distraction. i'll have to get food at some point. i've got my music playing, and i can sort through it for what to put on the new ipod. i got through q last night, though that leaves the giant sections of shiny toy guns and tegan & sara to go.

i'll update my progress here.

6:37p
mmmm. when i drink red bull, my tummy feels warm.

7:00p
so, with most of the first one gone, i certainly have energy, though i seem to be lacking in the focus department...

7:30p
finally finished that bib from last week. short intermission, maybe a sandwich, and on to new things.

8:08p
made myself a sandwich. ces was making her dinner too. she's also making coffee to aide in the writing of bibliographies, in the same way i have red bull. i'm not sure if anyone in this house will be sleeping tonight.

8:41p
finished the first red bull. jeez, that took me almost 4 hours to drink! i'm gonna wait a little before getting another. i started one of the book sources.

8:55p
opened red bull #2.

9:09p
hey, i found the usb for my ipod! related: i'm pretty sure my new ipod came today, only they needed a signature and no one was here so i have to pick it up from the post office tomorrow.

9:42p
so the first book i picked is more about composition than handwriting, so i scrapped that. new book is short and has illustrations! but i can't find anything about the author, which really sucks. also, i feel like little!alfred on my itunes is cheering me on. i can do this! yeah!

10:56p
i'm awake, but i feel tired. like, i'm kinda sleepy, but i know i can't actually sleep. and i just suddenly had the wild idea to write a paper about energy drinks, except that's dumb and it's way too late to change my idea.

11:04p
gosh, i miss the olympics. also, my left eye is acting up. grr

11:39p
finished the second red bull. still have 3 sources to go...

11:42p
i just discovered a couple pics on my camera itself, not the card. there's one that's really cool, a night shot with light blurs, but i have no way of getting it off. sad...

12:08a
finally finished one! time to get another red bull and go through the other book...

12:21a
knowing i won't be sleeping make me feel like i have plenty of time to finish. i have basically 9 hours till it's due, though really that's probably about 8 hours of actual working time, since i'll need breakfast, time to change, time to walk there and to print. i might be able to make it, but i'm not sure. i think i'm gonna do the short pdf in a bit. i need some random first... still haven't opened the third, though it's sitting here waiting.

12:31a
here goes number 3. i'm actually feeling a bit dizzy and hot, which is worrying. i turned off the heat a little while ago, and i've got my heater going on my feet. i really hope my heart doesn't explode or something. i think my heartbeat might be a little slow. i feel mentally exhausted, but physically awake. and it's only 12:34. i think i'm going to take a short break and sit on my bed for a little. the red bull is staying at the desk.

1:02a
my eyes are starting to have trouble focusing. my body is falling asleep. but i can't sleep yet. cesley is nearly done, though will be up for a while more with all that coffee she drank. time to get back to work. also, i'm not sure if my choice in fun-reading was good... i reread some of the hetaliaspotting/requiem for a nation drabbles, which are really depressing and dark. i feel like i should read something more ridiculous to wake me back up before attempting more english. but i really should just drink some more red bull and knuckle down. next between-reading break then.

1:39a
i managed to find an article about how to help adults recover from traumatic brain injuries that was referenced in a similar article about adolescents. unfortunately, i'm having trouble getting to it for free, which is really sucky. i figured it would be better to use the original version, since i'm comparing child brains to adult brains, but it's looking like i'll have to take the teens...

1:48a
yes i found it! awesome! i think i'll use the teen one too.

2:17a
man, i would love to not be doing this. seriously. but i need to finish it at some point today, and the more i get done while i'm forced awake the less i'll have to do later when i'm exhausted from not sleeping and stressed by other assignments. i've allotted thursday to be spent on this in some fashion, with the rest of the weekend being embroidery. i need to do this, or i risk failing. yasha really is right about that. i can't fail this. i won't let myself. having to take this class again would be even worse, and i'd really hate myself. i'm half tempted to take a full hour to disengage my brain and do something else, but i'm not sure if i really have the time.

2:51a
i'm hungry. i'm gonna get some cereal in a bit. i'm having trouble really focusing on what i'm reading. i'm reading it out loud, but it's not really registering. i guess it's probably time for another break...

3:39a
i really don't want to go back to work. but i have to. fuuuuuck. also, i'm slightly worried about my heater. it's been on for hours now and smells slightly of melting plastic...

3:47a
finished the third red bull. i'm definitely going to hold off on the fourth one for as long as i can. i'm slightly worried that i drank those 3 in under 11 hours. i really hope i don't die...

4:04a
holy crap, my feet are so warm! also, i feel like i'd be better off just sorta skimming this article. i really can't concentrate for long on all this science and psychology and neurology... also, ces is done. she finished a while ago, but i forgot to mention it. not sure if she'll be able to fall asleep though. liz is doing laundry. i'm not sure why she always does it late at night. and no, i don't think i'll be able to finish in the next 4.5 hours. my new goal: noon! that's 8 hours.

4:32a
i feel like my attention is wandering more and more. i have a feeling i would be better served to stop working for a while, maybe even leave my laptop, and do something completely unrelated. then again, i keep doing basically that, and nothing is helping. i think i'm going to lie down in bed and mess with music and play games, rather than do any form of reading. i hope this works... i'm definitely not going to class...

6:03a
i spent the last hour and a half organizing the playlist for my nano. i got all the way through tegan and sara, and it's 13.5G so far. i figure i've got about 2G left. i may have to go back through it again and ditch some things to make sure what i want will fit. i'm really excited. i'm about ready to start up again. i'm gonna work from my bed where it's toasty and comfy. when i go up for breakfast at 8 i'm gonna make tea and turn the heat on. i figure i'll save the last red bull for when i start to fade during the day.

6:21a
it's getting to sunrise. my first ever true all-nighter was somewhat successful. i'm not sure if i'm happy i did it, because the whole process was rather unhealthy, but it was beneficial. mostly. as it is, i have a feeling i'm going to be spending all the free time i have finishing...

6:46a
i definitely feel more productive now than i did at 4:30. that break definitely helped me get some focus back.

6:55a
whoa. i feel weirdly tingly all over and i think i'm starting to fall asleep. i think i'm gonna get breakfast and tea now, probably take a caffeine pill later.

7:20a
finally finished! only 2 left. i'm hoping i can get one more done before math, and the last one after math. ok, food and tea for real now.

8:16a
ok, food consumed, tea mostly gone, time to get cracking again. not looking forward to this...

8:37a
i hear maintenance starting the digging work outside of my closet. horray! yesterday they even fixed the front porch light! i'm excited!

9:24a
i'm having a little trouble staying awake now. at least the article i'm reading is written as if for people unfamiliar with the subject, so there's a lot of explanation. mmmmmy bed is toasty.

10:30a
and done with that one! only one to go, but i'm gonna wait to start it. i really need to rest my brain, even though i was on a roll with that one.

slow down, life!

i am seriously fucked.

i'm really tempted to say i slept in thursday and email the final bib later in the day, like after math. which, i keep remembering, i have to create an ambigram for.

as it is, i'm going to be up till at least 2 tonight meeting my goal of finishing the half i started yesterday, and 2 more. and then i get to skim books to write the other 2 tomorrow. i just remembered i have to finish my design for my silk painting by 2 tomorrow, and i really wish i could skip ceramics but i don't want to fall behind on something else. i don't think i'll be sleeping tomorrow night. and i won't be sleeping through class, i'll be finishing these god-awful bibliographies.

so. things to do this week:
- silk painting design: due 2p 3/3
- 4 and 2 halves annotated bibliographies: due 9:30a 3/4
- ambigram of some word: due 12:30p 3/4
- the rest of ansel embroideries [finish 1, entire other]: due 1-2p 3/8

at least i have the weekend for the embroideries. because i have to completely ignore that until i finish english.

times to work:
3/2: now-2a [bibs]
3/3: 12-2p [bibs, silk design, shower?], 5p-?? [bibs, ambigram?]
3/4: 2p-1a [embroidery]
rest of the weekend for embroidery

and i haven't even had time to shower. i feel so gross, but i don't feel like i can spare the time. i'm going to try between class tomorrow.

i feel slightly better having written exactly what i need to do. slightly. i really shouldn't have baked brownies today, or gone through itunes for what to put on my new ipod when it comes, or even watched 'lost'. because that was 3 hours right there.

i am so totally fucked.

red bull and 5 hour energy are going to be my best friends from now until monday. or, well, from when i get some till monday...

something ridiculous to make me feel better. from the kink meme.

ETA:
i've also managed to chew a part of my lip rather raw. it feels funny on my mug...

[again]
oh god. it's 1, and i'm reading out loud, and hearing myself read what my eyes are seeing, but my brain is not interpreting anything that's going on. i managed to schedule out my life from tomorrow morning till sunday night, though i'm already planning on changing it. i have a feeling i'm going to 'sleep through' english, and am already composing an email to lodge regarding sending him my finished bib by thursday night. i'm going to be watching so many movies this weekend... at least 10. good thing i've got 15 unwatched ones saved...

[again again]
it's 2:30 and i finally finished the one i started yesterday [meaning monday]. fuck i'm in such deep shit with this. i'm done for the night though. so i'm winding down and waiting for the melatonin to set in. yeah, i'm totally screwed...

sadness...

soooo the olympics are over now. and i don't know what to do with myself.

saturday's curling gold medal game was pretty fun. mainly because of the pants. sadly, they weren't the red-white-blue ones, but the red-white-grey ones. still. there was someone from canada who had an air horn and blew it a few of the times norway was shooting [or whatever it's called...]. he got booed by the fans for being a rude ass. and then when canada won i sang the random parts of their national anthem i know.


but holy shit sunday's hockey gold medal game was so intense! seriously. canada got 2 in the first period, but us scored once in the second and again no even a minute before the end of the third. oh god! i was trying to do my embroidery while watching, but by then i had pretty much abandoned it. way too intense. so, SUDDEN DEATH OVERTIME!! AND CANADA SCORED!!!! god i was so excited!!! i was following a spam thread on the hetalia com, filled with strange and random bouts of national pride. but, alas, i was deleted. stupid mods... i knew, though, that if canada lost they would be the most depressed silver medalists in the history of forever.

and then i made myself celebratory pancakes. i put a little hot chocolate mix in and poured the rest of the maple syrup in the microwave bottle. i used the last of the bisquick to make 3 giant pancakes of delicious. and the 'canada' on facebook enjoyed my antics.

the closing was so fucking weird. william shatner and michael j fox talked about being canadian, there were dancing mounties, giant inflatable beavers, a kid dressed as a hockey puck, and i had no idea what i was watching. at all. it was just so weirdly amazing. except nbc sucks... but i missed he nickelback/avril lavgne concert, which is totally okay with me.

in other news, i'm desperately procrastinating on my bibliographies. like nobody's business. it's really bad, but i just can't motivate myself to work. and i would skip the class they're due, except we don't really have class next week, only one-on-one meetings. so i have 5 to do by class thursday. i need to just bookmark my hetalia pages and close the windows...

in other news, yasha is back to being communicable! [i'm not sure if that's the right word... though nicole may argue he is an easily-spreadable disease...] he got a new phone that works finally, and we had fun conversations last night. it made me very happy to have him back. not that he went anywhere...

i managed to successfully cook salmon for dinner today. the flesh-y side was nice and crispy golden brown, and all the flesh was cooked. and i even had a salad!

i ordered a new-ish ipod today. i got a light green 16G nano, 4th gen. not the most recent, the one with the camera, cuz i don't like that green. hopefully it'll be here by the end of the week, monday at the latest. and i pre-ordered "lord sunday" because garth nix has finally gotten his act together and finished the series! it makes me quite excited. i'm gonna have to re-read at least "superior saturday" over break, for it'll be waiting for me when i get back.

i'm angry at my laptop. i'm getting better at making the space bar work, though it tends to skip when i type 'gold medal' [whoa i didn't that time!]. the t has been giving me rouble [grr], and the middle thumb-button for scrolling has stopped working for some reason. very annoying... i keep intending to take it to the help desk, at least to get a new battery, but i'm lazy.

i guess i should do one more round of F5, and then get started on these bibs...

i love you, blue. seriously. she did both pics i have today. it's highly amusing that in men's and women's hockey it's canada-usa-finland.

I FORGOT THE FINAL MEDAL COUNT!

United States: 9 gold, 15 silver, 13 bronze: 37 [winter olympic record]
Germany: 10 gold, 13 silver, 7 bronze: 30
Canada: 14 gold, 7 silver, 5 bronze: 26 [winter olympic record gold]

hockeyyyy

i feel like every time i go to the blogger home page, i have to log in. annoying, but whatevs.

so, canada played russia in hockey. i couldn't watch, as i was attempting to do annotated bibliographies [more on that later...] but i had the 'live' olympic page on. i wanted to stream it live, but i would need to log in to comcast, which i can't do. i was sad. but we [lol, i so wish i was canadian...] beat russia 7-3. i'm hoping they'll make it to the bronze game, but i have no clue. i'm optimistically predicting canada will sweep in hockey and curling, getting at least some medal in all four. the women's hockey team will definitely get gold or silver, as that game is canada v us. I AM SO WATCHING THAT, I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO SEE IT. both curling teams are in the semifinals, so either way they'll be contending for some medal.

more on the russia game at the bottom...

anyway, annotated bibliographies! i decided to just do a google scholar search for some brain damage articles, since i was finding nothing in the databases. i found a really comprehensive one about how diseases and injuries leave traces in handwriting, like a stroke or parkinson's. it's pretty cool. i'm so glad i did that search! i just need to find a second article... i'm gonna be up late, i know it. if only i knew we would be doing nothing in class tomorrow except handing these in, i'd skip again. but we've got a reading due [which i won't do, as usual], and we're going over making claims and how to go about supporting them. so i kinda need to be there. so, little sleep for me tonight. i just took a caffeine pill anyway, as i was falling asleep.

last night pat, anna, tay, and their friend asim [?] came over to smoke with liz. i was feeling sorry for myself, wishing i could partake, as the first time was awesome. but alas, i don't like the feel of smoke in me. that and, by the time i figured out what they were doing, it was gone. so i hung out with them in the kitchen as they feasted. i embroidered. it was kinda nice. i'm really hoping 420 will end up panning out for me in that regard - and for that matter, st patrick's day will involve the associated consumption. 2010 is definitely a good year for me becoming "a real college student". stupid yasha...

yesterday was free pancake day at ihop. so i convinced nicole to drive us out to glen allen for dinner. it was me, her, angela, and nicole's friend anthony. unfortunately, nicole ended up leaving because she had class at 7. she came and got us after and got food to go. i got a purple lap desk as michael's while waiting for her to get back. i ended up missing lost - we spent almost 5 hours on this adventure - but that's okay cuz i watched it today. and claire has totally flipped her shit. jack also had a bout of anger, but that's not really surprising considering him. in the au, he has a son, which confuses me. i'm gonna have to comb my brain for how the island being blown up would result in him having a son, because i'm still at a loss...

anyway, i should get back to that bibliography. i need to come up with some sort of shorthand for that, because 'annotated bibliography' is forever long...

beautiful fanarts resulting from the canada-russia game today. apparently, it was violent. i'm sad i missed it...

ETA:
and i just refreshed the 'results' page to find canada got 3 more medals!

1st: america, 28
2nd: germany, 24
3rd: norway, 18
4th: canada, 15
5th: russia, 13

there's still one more medal event to go today, which is going on now.

EATA:
no new developments, really. i'm endlessly amused by the bronze and gold medal games for women's hockey: finland v sweden for bronze, america v canada for gold/silver.

anyway!

this is win. i just found the vancouver olympics tag on pixiv, and blue did this. i'm really sad i missed that game now!!

unrelated: i finished my bibs for tomorrow. the second one is fail because i stupidly picked a source that was a sort of overview of a study, and it was done by a student, so i can't use it. i'll have to do 3 sources for the next due date then...

i'm also slightly concerned about my mental state because i took that caffeine pill around 9, and i just finished a melatonin lozenge. and my chest feels weirdly tight. i need to go to bed...

bibliographies? what are those?

procrastinating like nobody's business...

i did something in odosketch today. because i haven't in a while.

thusly

i ordered a woot shirt today. it's a tv that says 'read' and under it says 'a book'. not sure why i did that...

i decided it was finally time to upgrade the ipod. partially because i have way more music i would want to listen to than will fit on 3.77G. partially because i lost the usb cable again and can't change the music. partially because i'm feeling unsatisfied with the functions of the mini. so i stuck a green nano in my amazon wish list to buy once it's march. because i have 5 transfers already, and that thing is $160, and i still need to paypal utilities to liz.

so, last night someone broke my window. i feel like i've explained this way too much... but yeah. i was going down the front stairs on my way to ceramics and noticed a large hole in one of the panes. i called the office during class, and when i got back they had duct taped over the hole until they can replace the pane. which they were supposed to do today, but i guess the rain delayed them. bullshit. but what scares me the most is that no one noticed the window breaking during the night. i slept right through it, liz was up all night and didn't hear anything, and ces is basically right above it and heard nothing. luckily nothing was taken, but still.

shay is making a whale in the lobby of the fab tomorrow - i mean today. the structure was up yesterday, and it was pretty sweet. i've got class during the construction time, so i'm going to cut through the fab to and from my afternoon classes to see the before and after. AND THEN I'M GOING TO IHOP WITH ANGELA AND NICOLE FOR FREE PANCAKES!! awesome.

grosse-averse has returned! there was a new chapter in le lys & la rose-verse, and a new chapter in 'into the face of the beguiled.' i was excited! gosh, i've missed her writings.

i had veal at shafer today. it was tasty.

and i really don't want to do this annotated bibliography, which is why i'm still typing. i'm trying to finish the one i started that was due last thursday that i skipped because i wanted to sleep. and i've got 2 more due this thursday. why is this so hard for me to do? grr...

usa beat canada at men's hockey last night. i wanted to cry. at least the women's team is doing awesome, as is both canadian curling teams. and canada just got another gold today for ice dancing, a first for them.

ok, for serious. time to do work.

gosh, that's a lot of links today.

completely unrelated to anything. but pretty!

insurance?

just in case i suddenly just pass out, i want to say i took 2 melatonin pills. i don't expect it to make me just... fall over asleep, but i'm not sure what exactly will happen.

i've been having bouts of insomnia this past week, which really sucks, especially since i feel absolutely no urge to do my embroidery homework, which i'm worried i will get really behind on, or my annotated bibliographies, which i totally skipped on thursday. i did one, and decided, "fuck it, i'm sleeping through class."

and i accidentally hit the 'back' button and lost the paragraph i had written...

i need to get one shoe done in embroidery for class on monday so i don't fall behind and get totally screwed over for the crit. i've got over a week till the crit, and i'm surprised at how fast i'm going, but still. that would be just like me...

i did almost absolutely nothing today. i woke up at noon, got my bagel, crocheted some while reading fics and watching 'community.' i finally took a shower [since wednesday... eww...] around 8 so i could go out in public and have dinner with angela at chili's. which was fun and tasty. i ate all my food [except the over-herbed rice...] before angela. i was so proud! then i sat around some more and watched some more 'community' and did a little more embroidery. and yeah.

on the main com today i discovered the epic-ness that will be the canada-america men's hockey game tomorrow. even though i refresh the olympics main page obsessively every few hours, i missed that. i need to watch it. i set an alarm on my phone. it's happening.

oh yeah, the tegan and sara concert. i went with liz, laura, adrienne, and a couple other girls they knew that i met in line. my feet were frozen by the time the doors opened, and it wasn't even all that cold out. we ended up somewhat more forward than the middle. it wasn't too bad. though, there was someone near us that had gas literally the entire show. not cool. and i got pushed and ended up next to a crazy barely-teen fan. i seriously looked over at her more than a couple times and was convinced she would burst into tears of absolute joy. and she only knew songs from 'the con' and 'sainthood', which i found terribly sad. if you're such a crazy fan, learn all their songs. i knew most of the songs, except for a couple of the new ones because i just put my music on random and tune in occasionally.

i was excited to learn one of the openers was steel train. when i told matt he was incredibly jealous. they were pretty good live. i was happy they played a couple songs i knew ['firecracker' and 'kill monsters in the rain']. the other opener was holly miranda, who for some reason had their bass turned up more than you'd expect. the singer had a really nice voice though. i'd definitely check out their music.

as for t+s, i quite enjoyed the show. there wasn't as much banter as i was expecting, but they were still fun. they even did a few songs basically acoustic as a sort of encore, which i thought was really cool. they did 'back in your head' with guitar and xylophone, they styled the lighting of 'feel it in my bones' after the vid. overall, it was a good show.

i wonder if my seat number on my ticket, 39, indicates what number i was in purchasing my ticket... and if that shows how much of a nerd i can be... probably...

well, i need to get to bed if i intend to get up before noon and at least make an attempt at being productive. i'm determined to get a lot done on at least one shoe. i really am. movie marathon anyone?

no fics to report on today. i did find a good one today of a post-ww2 human!au though. germany/america, not something i'd read normally. but it was very good and had a hopeful ending.

blue-fox's fanart for 'die buchhandlung'

fuzz

i decided to try and clean my keyboard. so i systematically removed the tops of entire rows of keys and brushed out the insides. it still didn't fix my space bar problem.

and for some reason i had a really hard time spelling that correctly...

i added a couple more movies to my list. haven't downloaded them yet though.

yesterday i watched "the imaginarium of doctor parnassus" and "mirrormask". the sound ended up being off on 'parnassus', but i wasn't really watching the whole time so it didn't bother me as much as it would have otherwise. i found the cameos rather hilarious. so, heath ledger was tony, but when he went in the imaginarium with someone else, he became that someone else's version of him. so he was johnny depp, and jude law, and colin farrel.

i followed that up with 'mirrormask' because they are related in a sense: a different version of reality with the same people just different. it made sense in my head, ok?

i started my math final. i was going to cross stitch the whole thing, but realized how much work that's going to be. so i'm cross stitching some of it, then stitching that to the canvas and painting in the rest and drawing the tracks on top. hopefully it'll be awesome.

today i watched "wristcutters." which reminded me of "the lovely bones" so i had to torrent that. haven't watched it yet. the actor who was mr nick in 'parnassus' was also in 'wristcutters' as a similarly influential/powerful character, which i found pretty funny. and it took me the longest time to place the main actor, and finally had to look him upon imdb. he was paul trout in 'white oleander'. also, gogol bordello was featured quite prominently in the soundtrack, which made me quite happy.

happy valentine's day, i guess. first time alone in quite a few years. or am i misremembering the breakup with emily... probably... either way. the fills for the prucan exchange were due last night, and they've been posted all day. it made me happy to read all that sweetness and such.

which reminds me of why it can be fun to be friends with rpers on facebook. the canada i'm friends with has been being bro-tastic with an america, and i've been stalking their conversations. related: CANADA GOT IT'S FIRST GOLD WHEN HOSTING THE OLYMPICS! the other 2 olympics that have been in canada [calgary winter, montreal summer], they didn't get a single gold. but today they got gold in men's freestyle skiing. which is what the weird bro-ness started out being about and divulged into petting. weird.

i raided pixiv for olympics!canada pics. it made me happy, especially since annie had one.

i'm not sure if i was going to say anything else...

oh. my horrible procrastination habits are getting worse... that math final is due tuesday at 12:30 and it's barely started. i haven't printed the refs i need for ceramics or textiles. i'm avoiding those annotated bibliographies like the plague. the only productive thing i managed to do with weekend was laundry and my embroidery sample. i want to be able to start the shoes soon, but that's entirely dependent on when i actually get the shoes. hopefully tomorrow, because this is ridiculous...

man, i need to eat that caramel apple...

annie, why are you so awesome?

mash-ups

"gold lion" yeah yeah yeahs
+
"boulevard of broken dreams" green day
+
"wonderwall" oasis
=
AMAZING

i found this fantastic mash-ups station on itunes radio. and it's been blowing my mind all day. seriously.

snowday today. when i left home for campus, it was just a tornado outside. i made it to the fab so i could at least check my email [it's doing that thing where it won't load on my laptop], and i was sitting in class, waiting for the crit, when debbie comes in and tells us campus is closed.

i was unhappy that i walked to class in that horrible white-out, only to be told, "nope, nevermind."

oh well. now i have time to figure out how exactly i'm gonna go about my embroidery final. which is hopefully gonna be awesome. i'm embroidering ansel adams photos onto a pair of white converse. i got a ton of floss in every shade i could find from black to white. some are brown-ish and some are blue-ish, but hopefully it won't be a big deal. i ordered the shoes monday, and they should be here this weekend. i really think it's gonna be awesome.

and i'm currently procrastinating on my annotated bibliographies. i finally finished one, after working on it since 5. i just started the second one, and then i got distracted [shocking, i know...] but this one is much shorter than the other one, so it should be easier. hopefully.

i still want there to be no class tomorrow morning, even though i know there will be.

there's over 4 feet of snow at home now. fucking whoa. no school for anyone - big surprise. i'm sad we don't have as much because connor figured out how to make elaborate tunnels in the snow and now i want to turn out back yard into a warren. but that's a lot of missed class, and a lot of snow that just won't leave. seriously, it just keeps snowing. today was the fourth major snowfall this winter: before christmas, the last weekend of january, the weekend of my birthday, and today. and it's supposed to snow again monday. snow is awesome and all, but i think everyone is really sick of it by now.

in other news, i finally gave in and started reading "seven little killers." i've got some theories, but who knows. i'm almost completely sure america is one of the killers, thanks to hoogily spoiling things, and i'm fairly confident canada is one too. possibly hungary, but that's just random speculation. i really like how each chapter is named after a serial killer. i've got a wiki tab open next to the fic so i can learn about the featured killer with each chapter.

relevant pic is relevant! i swear! it's by hoogily...
yayyy prucan!